ARMY OPEN HOUSE

went to marina for army open house.. and we sat in the tank on that day! so rocky and cool!!!!!!

reflections

its saturday........... one more day and my holis are over.... as i glance thru my timetable, can't help but realize i am a slacker..... suppose to get back my momentum for running and its not started.... fats are adding on each day.. especially at a higher rate during the holis! arghh..... FATS!!!! are such horrible creature that gets girls' nerves upon....anyway, another reflection: my revision plan..... as i aspire to achieve my honours, there seems to be a lack in my motivation towards it.... be it extrinsic or intrinsic...... for this week, it just isn't there...... have to search my soul and catch it back.... thats why i am reflecting now..... from thursday onwards, my baby can't sms and call me coz he was caught using his phone in his field camp... oh no! i was so worried... worried he will get confinement... since thursday, i also realized how scary solitude is.... without his sms and calls, life wasn't life.... i miss him like anything..after tuition on thurs, i was strolling along the stretch of field in te evening.... The peacefulness and serenity of the walk undiscovered my misses for him... deep inside, i was wishing for his embrace..... Probably we have been so distracted and allured by the city life that we forget that man needs to be with his soul sometimes.. every book out, shopping, cinemas, and eating in restaurants were our usual hangouts...its not bad, nor evil but its time for a change.........
i was out shopping with vivien on fri... a good shopping SPREE!shopping again! but its girls outing.. it was fun! as always with her.. and we had such good bargains! really happy for her and myself... thought i spent quite a bit.... no more shopping for the next few weeks.... really glad for her too coz she slimmed down.. haha.... when's my turn???????? =) but think she thinks i am getting paranoid... coz every msg i juz hopes its from him.... its friday night! he was supposed to be back by then... with much disappointments, none of the msg were from him.... now coMES THE HIGHLIGHT!
baby called me on saturday morning at 330aam! so happy!!!!!!! =) finally! was worried he was injured or anything.... finally i can have a good zz............

babay back to camp angain and i am havig my holidays.....

wow! another weekend spent with baby... though it seems short but i am contented.... =) 2 more months to him ending his life as a traineee... FIANLLY! !! think he hates his life in armour so much.. ESPECIALLY the nasty instructor! hope he gets out and not hamr anymore innocent souls.. or prob hope he cahnged fo the better? hmm.. went eating eith baby... to JP onsat evening.. haha.. baby was so tired...! lik SOSO tired.. coz he didn';t zz for like near to 48 hours.. butstill; he choose to go our with me.. awe.. juz love him to pieces... being aas understanding as i can, of coz thats why JP was chsen.
sunday morming babay woke up early in the morning for his 12 K marathon! wow.. he finished it with no sweat! or shld i say a lot of sweat! hehez.... then we went our again.. caught "the perect catch" at Cine.. so humorous!enjoyed the show very much! but hahah.. baby felt asleep a few times... guess the 12 k drains him out too.... watched it and went to JE to check out on phone.. coz his phone had spoilt.... then
home sweet home again.. though this week is my holidays!
i have so much to do.. 2 assignments.. 2 projects.. and tutorials. and still have to catch up with physics.. not easy man uni life.. but ya! with baby's love and nice freinds ard, iwill make it.. .. gtg.. take care ple!

life goes on

what a wk..
ok im out but there was times i dun wana live on with my current life..
think god is testing me..
im so scared nowadays..
but i noe someday things will be fine again..
love u dear and family.

hahaha... =) i LOve my weekends!!!!! =)

though last weekends was terrific! but these weekends were tremendous! hehez.. or shld i say any weekend with baby is FUN! before talking about ym weekend, lets mention my weekdays first...
had 2 TESTS this week! 2 MATH tests! maths isn't as easy as last time.. but ya.. think both tests are still manageable.. but 1 mat turn out to be good whereas the other one i juz pray for a decent B.. pray for me k? hehez...
this weekend i didn't mug.. haha.. juz slack at home on friday, went out with my little bro to shop for my niece's present... bought POOH'S pool... quite fun i suppose... kids these days are so fortunate... =)
went out with baby on Sat.. ate at Kenny Rogers... so DELICIOUS! our first time eating there.... it was baby's treat.. coz he insisted... as part of our 22nd month ANNIVERSAR! =) so sweet.. cna see babay is so burned out and tired.. his hands was having cuts and rashes.. man.. when will his NS end... bought a bag at hushhush at Suntec.. having 50% off! a tote bag costs on 9.5 bucks! ple, what are you waiting for?????? =)
then we went jalan jalan.. in shopping mall, of coz, the only thin to do is to SHOP! Baby bought a soccer ball.. coz he says he needs to relieve stress... hmm... so i shall turn myself to a ball??? then i can help him relieve stress? hahaha.. juz kidding.... there goes our saturday.. had a real good laugh when i am with him.. of coz hearing so much army stuff, i think i know army stuff more than some guys out there... oh no........
there goes our saturday.... here comes sunday...
it was raining super heavily juz now.. so babay decided that wedun go out.. he came over juz now to finish piecing our jigsaw puzzle.. haha.. as always, he was stuck after piecing 1 to 2 pieces... hehez.. hmm.. think i am a better jigsaw puzzle maker? or he is juz too tired... had a good time piecing our puzzle.. but its still not half done.. after so long.. when can we finish??? baby left....so sad..
back to missing him again... there are so many outfields next week.. which mean less interaction.. =( dun really look forward... miss him.... think my life only revolves around him.... he makes my life BEAUTIFUL.... =)

life now...

life now..definately nothing compared to school..god i miss sch so much..
think abt those days..lectures..tutorials..all were so fun..
havin to see ur love one day in day out..lunch...soccer..
memories r juz so beautiful..
now still serving national service..not realli sadden...
only demoralised and depressed at times..i changed so much..
i begin to stone..look into nothing..so stone...so tired of life..
instructors are a mere few yrs older than us..but why..why cant they treat us..
as frends..as brothers..i guess they went thru a lot..n so have i..
i have become less patient..time..it seems is so far away from me..
i feel like a nobody at times..but i realise even life goes on for a nobody..i'll be strong..
aniway..battlecourse goin begin..section..platoon..tag team..chiong n clean chiong n clean..
everyday of chiong is everyday of clean..clean wat?
weopan..saw,sar,m203,metador,mg,40,50,coax,25...so many weapon..
vehicle..break track,sevice..
amour ops is tirning..hit 6 objectives a day..sleep at 0230..wake at 0500..n a new day begin..
im tired..r u?

im out.

wow...its juz great to be out..
to all peeps out ther do treasure times spent with ur love ones..
for my personal matter..im worried..but glass broken cant be helped..
goin to be xiong..very xiong from now onwards..
life kinda sux in ther...
i will survive..
love u dear.

another friday....

its another friday......... - a day without school...........juz finish typing ym motivation assignment! man1 i tell you.. it s lot of work..
first you have to read up the whole chapter on motivation.. then my book don't have much content.. then went to read another book.. wow.. 2 chpts can kill! next, have to answer those essays-liked questios.. its a lot! but ya.. not exactly essays.. juz about 100 words ans per question.. FINALLY ! i have completed le.....
yesterday baby tole me he see thru everything le.. though life maybe not be what he want, he still have his family and me... felt so touched by his words.. coz months ago, when he was faced with his chicken pox crisis, he didn't mention about anything like this.. does it means our love has developed? awe.... *sinkning in LOVE*... haha,, =)
didn't went for cheer leading selection... kind of sad.. coz thought it waas pretty fun... ad i enjoy myself.. my friend, zhi rui got in! congratulations! happy for her... guess i really have no time and baby dun really like.. have to put myself in his shoes sometimes...... ok! first class honours, dating and money come first.. no regrets.......... prob i can enriched my life with some community work? lets decide again next year.. this year no time.... hehez..
gg to have 2 math tests next week.. man! i tell you, math isn't easy now.. PROOFING PROOFING and PROOFINfg.. every preposotition has a proof to it.. can u imagine this???!! mutiplication. subtraction, addition and division each as its own proof for different categories of numbers. natuarl no, intergers, real no, ratioanl no.. so many proof.. hope i will at leat get a decent grade for this tests.. coz honour isn't easy to achieved. to get 2nd upper. average shld be a B+ till A-.. scary hor.. as what baby says. juz do your best and God will do the rest.. haha..
another happy thing in life is that my beloves daddy ask em to but him the "quit smoking" chewing gum.. haha.. happy for his decision.. hope its a success.. yup.. gtg mug le.. later there's cca...
take care! miss baby..............

love

MISSES

I MISS MY BABY VERY MUCH...................

dead

im so dead.
i lied.
i confessed.
now im dead.
am i?
at least i died with some honour,
some glory.
god bless.

life

yeah..life goes on...
sometimes i realli feel so fortunate
beautiful family loving gf great frends..god i cound't ask for more..
sometimes i wake in the morn feelin so bad...
why do i have to wake at 5? after oni zzing at 2..
i guess its part of army..or then again armour..
went into drivin this week..
very fun..its like a big big vehicle under ur command..
its rocky..bumpy..but thers a lot of strength..
drove day n nite to clock milage..
learnt how to break tracks..super tiring process though..
manitain after ops and before ops..dirty no doubt but drivin is satisfying..
been muggin real hard these days..
juz spent a loving wkend..
thank god..hope he bless me nxt wk..as coc..im totalli in charge..
im worried..but every difficulty lies an oppotunity..seize e moment.

its the beginning of a long weekend again...

its friday and tmr my baby is out le!! =) looking forward..... what have i been doing this week.. mon i met up with dar.. guess what? ??????? it was our 21st month ANNIVERSARY!!!! and the eve of national day thus he was allowed to book out..
he was right outside my lecture hall in NIE! WHEN SCH ENDS AT 730PM... was estatic! =) never imagine him finding me in school when i am in year one.. coz of his army life.. yup! as usual. being a caring bf, he helped me carry my stuff.... hahah..
we set off to westmall for our dinner coz we were both famished... wanted to go somewhere far but resised.. -lack of time- had our dinner at KFC... somewhere not very unique but special in our hearts.. we r eating on a mon night with our loved ones, sliently celebrating and enjoying each other's presence.... went to walk walk.. whand in hand.. its always so blessed to have him ard............

black beret

haha for the newest update...im finalli 1.5mth into armour..oni 3.5mth to go...
effetively oni 2.5mth coz 1 mth of cold hell in walaby..australia..
haha..muz knock down kangaroo so funnn..
ok i noe it sounds crude but thats juz part of ops..
last few wks have been slack..realli coz learnin all guns..erm..
its called canons..sorrie dude but i believe a tag team can take out 1 infant coy..
then goin learn drive soon...
was learnin to be a techincian..very oily n greasy..
but now..im gg outfield soon...
so take care!@@
--

nd

hapi national day!
pride-people rest i do extra
hapi 21st mth honey...
haha mind kinda blur aft guard duty
but def.
i love u,
one n only...
dear.

=)

today is a saturday..... gg to be a saturday without my baby again..... coz he has guard duty... *sobz...*
if you guys wonder whats life is like these days? i have started my university life... wow.. show u guys my timetable,

mon:

• lesson from 830 to 1130
• break from 1130 to 0530pm
• lesson from 0530 to 0730pm
• cheerleading from 0730 to 10pm?

tues:

• 0830 till 0530 again.. with breaks in between
• 6 to 8pm CCA

wed:

• 1130 till 0530.. with breaks in betweeen
• 8 till 10pm cca

thurs:

• 0830 till 0430pm but with lesser breaks in between
• 5 til 7pm cca

friday!!!!!!!!!!!! no school! hahha... so yup! this is my timetable.. spent like my whole mon to thurs in school! but yup! i have long weekends... friday till sunday.... thats nice izzit it?

i have taken maths and physics as my academic subjects.. and each subjects there are two modules... and another 2 modules for education..the math isn't that easy anymore.. a lot of very "cheem" proofing! bought textbook for each module for math.. so ex! like 2 books 60 odd bucks! aand prob will only last for 2 sem? a yr? then need other textbooks....went for cheerleading! wow! tried "elevator" man! tell u its real cool! like you stand above 2 guys which act as your base with both of my feets on each of their hands..then they lift you above their heads! wow! its pretty stable after you locked your body, meaning stand all the way straight and firm.. never imagine myself doing this... very cool! if i can afford to commit, then i will most prob join this... =)

sorry baby... i know you dun like.. bu then again i know you respect and support my decision rite?

hahha.. in another 2 days. we will be celelbrating our 21st month anniversary! looking forward to that... 8th august 2005. whis is the eve of our nation's birthday! so yes he will be OUT! YEAH! =) very excited.... preapred a little gift.. and he prepared my little gift le... we know what it is! coz we went to shop together! hahahha...

his life now?

he is in school of armour.. very contented to chat with me every night.. ahhahaha... juz like i am.. misses me every night.. hahha.. okok.. he is busy muging.. cannot fail any test if not kana confinement.. which means no booking out.. thus muging dilligently! and he passes his SOC! timing like 8min and 7 sec! wow! amazing ritez? and he achieved gold for his ippt! congratulations!! so HAPPY for him.. so that means no morre physical trainings.. hahha.. so yes.. he says he is usually slacking if not muging after 6pm...only booking out this sunday........miss him very much...... gtg do my tutorial le....

misses.

smelly smelly

hey baby..... i love this pictures.....

day one of NTU

wow.. its day one of my University life.......
feels so different..... when it comes to school.. i miss ym baby.. those days in jc
wwhere e can meet up as and when we like....
first day.. went for talks and talks... so many talks.....
felt like zzinf thruout.. oh mine! this is the first day...........
lucky get tio msg my baby........ signed up for cheerleading and canoe polo.. hahaha..
sounds fun and happening ritezz......... =) juz trying out.. if there;s too much commitment..
then not gg to join le... darling, no cpu club.. hahha
dunno why btu felt very hungry, spent nearly 10 bucks today on lunch and tea beaks...
first day of school.....
hmm.. not too bad after all....
hope i enjoy the stay.... miss my baby....
love.

its me again...

its me again..
miss bloggin so much..realli miss being a civilian..
its definately not fun to be regimentalised..
but..its all up in the mind..its how u see it..
thank god i got love..love..
dear..fam..friends(?) haha..
too bad i got no time..
in armour..we run..never stop..life is hectic..
leanrnt many new stuff..big guns and cannons..
so what? pride?..hmm..i rather be a potato..
goin to driving soon..clock milege in the morn and thru the nite..
army made me saw a lot of sunsets..n sunrises as well..
guess ther be more sunrise..
but yup, everyday is a new day..
its a blessin to be wakin every morn..
dear..take a positive view of uni-nie...
n im sure u can make it again..
juz like u always did..
love u.

finalli a chance to write...

its been nearly a month since i 've written a decent blog..n this was wat that happened to me..

4wks ago..prepared n set off for ex lancer in brunei..it was a 10 day survival course includin climbin biang..in fbo..honestly for commandos n infantry peeps..pls pls take care..this will push u beyong ur limits..it was an sia flight..but e feelin was wierd..coz e whole plane was full of us..no need for passport too..reached brunei airport at 4am..its realli borin ther...honestly..theres like 2 hotels n 1 mega shopin centre..life is real simple..tok a bus then ferry..saw sunrise..it was honestly beautiful..coz the backin was waters n forests...reach terrembong camp..
survival thru skill..its a really old camp..long beach house n old cookhouse..
amazingly i got to use the well known metal tray..life was hectic..we learned navi..knots..survival fruits..not forgetin tokat ali..the perm staff were grea peeps..but soa was stict..its realli swift n decisive...
finalli after notin wat to eat..ex lancer begin..had to walk climb walk in full battle order..it weight at least 20kg n i was e signaller..25kg?..its super tirin but luckily my grp was fast n we had rest..
its real cold up the mountains..sleepin in hammock was a gd experinece..nor forgetin almost catchin fire..haha..in the end..got up biang in 1.5hr..got down in 5-6hrs..can u imagine walkin or glidin from sliperry boulders for 5-6hrs...fell 10 times..didnt feel gd but gotto sae my grp realli kept me goin..in the end..did combat swim..or mud bath..n got back to camp in 3 instead of 4 days..
chiong ar..hit the food..cateen stuff..2 plates of rice n 1 burger...impresive?haha..juz tryin to put back lost weight..honestlty for infantry peeps pls bring sulphur n gotex n insect repel..pls..
thers realli leeches..fire ants n snakes..honestly...washed up..took us 2 days n went for r and r.
went to water village..200 football fields housin 20% brunei pop..life is gross but simple...went to the meusuem..or gold palace n not forgetin the theme park..can u imagine its oni open for us...
187 cadets reli had fun..all the cocksrew n etc..went back the nxt day...cant believe i finalli reach hm...10 days of torture...
went to take a tankie test..didnt got it..but yup..make the best izzent it?bookin in soa next day..
soa is a realli stict fast pace taxin...nothing less..amour has what? "pride" ask every amour personnel and they tell u that..we r the frontline that will punch thur enemy attacks..
learnt a whole lot of guns..test after test..
40..50..apfsds..cupola..bushmaster..the apc is ultra...its kinda intrestin..coz we learn a lot of new things...but armour has a bad habit...kickin ocs cadets off..sad?no...it juz means i go to train doubly hard...
nxt week...will be drivin..i need to clock milege day n nite..fun?not realli...
can u imagine never eatin lunch or dinner without sand,mud, grease and oil on ur hands?
believe it.

god pls take care of my dear n my parents ?
thks.
peace.

home

i'm home finalli..
pro term begin...
socjot over..gd luck to those gg brunei..
love fam n dear..
armour..
swift n decisive..
take care n god bless.

a brand new start of holidays....

wow.. after so many months of working.. finally end work..... and my baby is COMING home! haahhaa.,,, finally,.. heard that his hand is swollen, so guys who are reading this, please pray for him k? yup...... this weekend.. went out with zhi rui to buy the july's birthday babies' gifts... bought jing ting andyen leng and vivien's gift.. we shop and tried so many tops in the same shop.. think the salegirls recognize or blacklist us le lah... hahaha.. but we did buy... haha... finished the shopping and went off to buy my baking cake premix.. so HEAVY! still have to carry it for church and the rest of the shoppoing... learnt my lesson.. next time dun buy this stuff so early... then left for church service.. its been many months since i last attended service.. felt quite uncomfortable.... but here again.. peaceful.... and refreshed too... yup.. that marks my saturday...

sunday? i zz till haha... 1pm! wake and zz.. wake and zz.. wow.. thats life... =) then watch armargaddon... so NICE! SO TOUHING! cried so many times.. haiz... poor harry..... idolize him till death le! awe.................. left house, and went o xia's place to bake cake... one the is for qiao's 21st birthday... quite delicious! i muz say.. but looks wise.. hmm.. can be improved. =) ioe she loves it... finished baking and left for zhu chao.. wow.. 2 persons for a meal.. its ex you know... ya... walked home after that... and ended my day with a call frm darling... =) its always so nice to hear his voice... though we hardly meet these days... haha. he's coming back... pray for him ya... 1 day left... =) god bless.

misses

been so long since i blogged.. very busy and lazy.....

my weekend has been great! coz darling was out sine wed.. and he fetched me on
thursday where we had seoul garden for dinner.. so FILLING!!! was delicious and fun..
friday: was sick, didn't go out as planned.... surprise surprise! baby came with the puzzle he bought and we started doing it...the puzzle is SUPER NICE! chip & dale! =) hoping to complete it soon......
saturday: went east coast in the afternoon.. saw the helicopter with S'pore flag... somethign special... cycled... baby brought hammock..... tried zzing on it.. so scary... but it was fun... relaxed there and had a great time! baby was so funny... can't help but laughed at his crappy jokes... really had a great time ther! =) =)
sunday: sent baby off to brunei... and the flight was pretty late.. at 2.30am...man. there r a lot ple wearing the same dress codes.. looked like some school outing? took our "last pic" before he left.. can see our eyes r so tired... hope he will have a good time out there.. though its tough...

hmm...so now my baby is in Brunei and juz went outfield this morning.... only back on sunday.... haiz.. no more his voice and msgs for 4 days.... Miss him..!!!!!
Started my tuition life agin.. tonight after work, there willbe tuition again... late until 9pluz pm.. reach home will be drop dead.. think still need to prepare the gifts for my colleagues tmr.. coz tmr is my very last day working at A*star... wow.. so fast! 4 months has flew..... ofeel pretty nostalgic.. miss my seat.. miss the envirnoment here.. oh ya! miss the vending machine.. miss my crappy and sweet colleagues.. mis my laptop.. miss the security guard who never fails to ask you for pass.... EVERYDAY YOU KNOW! haha... miss the AGS scholars.. haha.. no more filing.. miss the pantry.. no more catering!.. haiz... miss the milo i have daily.. miss the interview files.. miss the feel of being in office... eating.. no more ghim moh, MOE.. or the big juicy fruit from soulfood! GOSH! A*star i am gg to miss you.. =) but ya.. i need a break before sch start.... at least i have sweet memories here....Thanks to all my colleagues here who have always been so sweet and helpful..... =) *miss my dear & a*star....

at 1am before he went for brunei 

happy national day!!! hhaaha... cool ritez? took this at east coast! 

lazy baby making puzzle 

on bus to east coast.... 25th june 2005 

armour..

haha..its like o230 rite now..haha..guess my bod's so used to wierd timings..
worse tomorow packin for socjoc brunei..7aam..which means wakin at 0615..
cant wait to blog all my ocs memories..
not forgettin sierra wing where i had bad n gd experiences..
guess it makes one stronger..was gg to infantry..delta dead..foxtrox er..
nope..my name's not in..posted to school of armour(soa)..
happier..definately..as i always sae
"i juz wana learn new things..have a new enviroment and see a bigger perspective of army"
finalli..im no infantry..rats runnin abt..im goin armour..n if..im so so so..lucki..
who noes..maybe a tankie..driving a tank..beyond my dreams..wat abt recee?
they go on bikes..nah..apc is fine too..at least thers wheels for the 24k where infantry..
i salute u..gotto walk..currently tryin to ooozzzee every little time left..leavin for brunei soon
d day h hour? 270230...end of mission? 060530.. socjoc..hope its fun..
wat can be fun in military..till now i have no ans..cant wait to ord..be a civilian..pink ic...
but before that..y road is still long..6mths frm commission..17mnths from ord..
black beret..soa..tough road ahead..but i guess its somewat better for me compared to green..
sungei gedong..somewher into lck..very hard to get ther..but for now..im not worryin..
for now..i got 3 days..and a lot of things to do..
chill nitty..

sch is starting and i am all gear up....

its thursday.. and i am here working still...... and my baby hasn't reply me yet.. guess he muz be still drooling away.. gonna meet up with him soon... so exciting!!!! hhaaha.. today dress code very very funny.. my first time wearing this skirt! hhaha..... sis bought it for me in hong kong during winter season.. so maybe thats why it is funny.. =)

school gonna starts.. and i am ultra excited.. but the sad thing is that all my camps clashes with on another. all because of the stupid nie camp... setting at such a werid date.. whereby it clashes with sports camp and hall camp.. isn't it dumb? and worse still, its compulsory... there will be impt briefings.. but i will definitely prefer the other 2 camps.. *sobs sobs* haiz..... i am gg to a school which i find the organising committee is terrible... hope life there wouldn't be so screwup...

i am gg to stay in hall... pretty confirmed coz my partner agrees...and for my parents side, shldn't be a problem since i am paying.. haha... so exciting... =)

congratulations to my darling too! h e is in ARMOUR INFANTRY! though it is further, but it has always been his wish.. i am PROUD of & HAPPY for him!! =) =) =)

think i have to go and find charmmaine le..... work time... take care guys! see u my bf!

darling, i am here. 

a kiss for you... 

huggiews 

piggy back! 

swimming!!!!!!!

=)


a nicey sat.... we went SWIMMING!!!!!!!1 My patient beloved darling finally went swimming with me! we arranged to meet up at the complex... but again i was late.. baby was already on his way reaching the complex when i called and ask to meet at bus stop... hhaa.. and he really walked back for me.. so touched.. simple yet its under the hot scorching sun.. it juz shows something. something that is call LOVE. =) so this sparked the day.....

never tried to swim the length in deep pool before... but his time with him beside/behind me, i tried.. when i reached the middle of the deep pool, i was SCARED.. the first lap i stopped.. and hold by the side.. terrified i was, so we discontinued and tried trapping water... he keep reemphasizing i am beside you.. dun be scare... coz he can touch the floor! 1.7m versus 1.5m.. of coz i am scare.. and he isn't... hahahz... ya.. but he was sweet.. always there to look after me.. accompanying me as i practised.... from 30 seconds to abt 50 secs... haha.. darling, i made it!.. then we swam.. really one length this time.. i was really breathless.. but felt very happy! love my dear! =) after which, we went to played the slide.. and opps.. dear injured his back.. no second time i guess.. but the YELLOW slide at je is really thrilling! plego try it... tried the current thing... FUN. and yes..w e say this little boy swimming very professionally at the deep poo.. he looked like he was only 2 yrs ole.. so small yet so COURAGEOUS! felt a little ashamed... hehhez...

after swimingm we showered and set off the PS to catch movie.. though sweet memories were created, sad one is left behind too..:i lost my watch.. the one that is a couple to my dear.. sob sob... shall return there and ask the man again.. maybe there's some nice soul out there who returned.? maybe. maybe not. =(

left it behind, we continued with our date.. went o PS To catch "a lot like LOVE" though there's a lot of kissing scences, i enjoyed the movie. coz finally oliver and emily married after 7 and a half years of waiting.. happy ending but weird relationship.... check it out guys! =)

good thing always has an ending all him and i
we left PS and dearie sent me home...
the day ended, but he photo and memories remain.

mj luv fl

social night 

our plant after one month 

st ends...

....
service term in sierra finally is goin to end..its been a pleasantly tired experience..
its quite unfortunate too..couldnt get into armour..got into infantry instead..
so it means more walkin..runnin..chioning..soc..seoc..ippt..hopefulli i can make it..
pro term..5mths long..taiwan thailand n brunei..
jungle survivor course anyone? haha..these 5 mths will be no less than gruesome.. but no doubt..
it will make me a better man..
gone r ex hercules..known for navi thru late..ex greensleve..tiring navi..ex tenderfoot..killer navi..ex zebra..day bashing attack in coy..ex spade..haha..2day 1 nite of pure diggin..ex skylark n nitebaird..summary of navi..wow..every excercise is a killer..
i salute the men n women(then again...?) of 59/05 sierra wing..thks for everything..
not forgetin..the sky..the sun n the stars..whom i draw strength day to day
spade is gone n done with..but thers a spade 2 in infantry which is worst...
i dunno how i made it thru..i cant ans anione..everyone juz dig..
hole after hole...from ankle to knee to waist to stomach to upper bod..its a killer..
lookin at my watch i still remember 4pm..5pm..6...7...8..9...10..11..12..1..2..3..4..5..6..7..8..9.10..11..12..1..2..3..4..5..6..7.. done.......
the watch tells it all...
the candles were used up..ther was no water due to admin prob..we forgot to eat.. n not forgetin 5 days w/o changing....

social night

haha.. its been a great weekend.. one that is long and fruitful...=)

friday: took leave and zz all the way till about12pm? wow.. POWER ZZ! THEN wake up to get prepared for the SOCIAL night.. was excited.. bought my dress, nail polish,manicure, hair removal cream.by 4pm, all was done. but nail wasn't nicely done, so decided not to apply...
6pm: darling called.. went home... took cab all the way to NuS guild house.. darling looked so so SMART! HAHA.. he look totally afreshed! differnet from the usual him who usually wears bers and t shirt.... =) the night was pretty funntenty... coz we taxi uncle didn't know where to alight.. dardar alighted and asked 2 strangers for directions.. INStead, they went in our cab and hitched a free ride till guild hse.. or maybe they are super friendly and warm to the extent thet they sat int eh cab with us juz to direct the taxi uncle.. then again, shthe lady even introduce themselves.. FUNNY? to have such incident in SINGAPORE? ld i doubt her kindness? maybe i am the mean one here...=) hahah..
went to the night... wasn't that fun.. had some programmes which wasn't that interesting and guess we are never lucky in lucky draws either..sat.listened, ate & laughed... have to say the place is beautiful at night... coz its by the pool with all the lightings.. but everything else juz wasn't what i anticipated... a little disappointed.. but ya.. as long as i am with darling, its never bad... =)

thoughts

its been a long long time since i last update our blog....... life has been pretty boring for the ast one week....
though i have tuition on wed.. shopping on friday.. but it seems so so different withouthearing my dear's voice...
friday: went shoppig with ras.. my colleague.. so FUN! i muz say.. she makes a very good companionin shopping! so funny ar she.... we dine at a romantic food court at city hall.. yes ROMANTIC FOOD COURT...... juz sitting there, admiring the scenery.. chatting.. haha... sshe disliked her elder bro.. juz LIKE ME! elder bro are IRRITATING!.. super irritating! think they owns everything! think they have the authority over everything.. .. so so STUBBORN! And brainless.. when can they grow up and think more maturely...
we went shopping at tangs.. brought many dresses into the changing room.. and we were both in one changing room.. ahha.. can you imagine that? but ya.. poor gal.. CLosed her eyes thruout..
hahaha.. "no peeping".... haha.. but ultimately, didn't buy any stuff.. hahahahaa.... wasted trip? not really.. think its fun........
BUT the BEST ting was that my dearie CALLED! GOSH! GOSH! GOSH! WOW! HAPPINESS JUZ OVERWHEMLED ME! =0 =) =)) 5 DAYS WITHOUT talking to him is so bad that i juz cannot fall alseep most of the nights.... thank god he is safe, thank god he has no major injuries, thank god he is not sick...my elder is home now.. only give me 20 mins more to surf....
UNREASONABLE.. DOMINATING.. AND SICKINGLY! coz i only use for a while... and he tinks that he own the com... I greatl dislike him to a large EXTENT! got to end now... if not he will resort to vulgarities anf violence.. pls pray him... to be a man.. hear me out, not 'to a better man'... but from a monster to a man... boo.........

misses

i miss my darling... .............

can you spot our pimples? 

misses

its the second day into darling's field camp......
ended the last call at 6am yesterday....... not the last forever, but the last one before he goes for
the tough 5 days 5 nights field camp... kind of worried... really worried... how will he survive... without me.. haha.. juz kidding.. =)
but really wonder how to survive without zz for days.... how will he survive by digging whole day and night.. wonder how will he survive with all the heavy loads.. with all the awful food he dislikes... under such a not sun.... and yet try to keep himself alert... OCS seems so tough.. that even my dear who is strong, falls..
but i am quite sure he will survive thru, coz i sincerely believes God on the above will watch over him.....
no communications with him for 30 hours le... no sms, no call, no voice, no emails.. gosh....
i miss him.............. miss him......
my life? back to work again.... only has one tuition gg on nowadays..which is starting very soon.... swimming? learnt it le..... think not gg anymore.... very practical.. save money... Also, it coz clashes with my tuition...so yup....
darling will be back this sat morning? afternoon? odac campfire coming up this sat... jc class outing coming too this sat...
*excited* *worried* *miss*

im scared

.....................
this is how i feel rite now..its tough i mean the nxt 5 days...
its called plt field camp..ex spade n ex zebra...for people to see the word spade..
yup..its SPADE..im goin do things that even bangala wont do...
it honestly feels like shit noein wat is goin to happen very soon..
in 3hrs..i be in..i be regimental..i be w/o smile..god..
i was a very cheerful n happy guy..that wa in the past..
i thought of depression..no..im fine..im juz....not lovin it..
as said..im losin myself..my patience..my happiness..my style..
its realli realli sad..
after book in..big inspection..i mean big..pack up..get screw..zzz for tom
mondae..go on bus to hell..marsellin jungle..oh my..im scared...
battle course..a lot of mosquito..camo with sweat..a lot of bites...
unpack..eat combat..oh my..eeeee..pukes..go for battle course..
12..1..2..3..4..5..6..7..8..9..10..11..12..powder..spread sheet..zzzz
tues 5am..battle course..12pm..zzz wher is the time? its spent goin up the hill down the slope...
wed..seccom...lead men to attack...ex zebra..timings..scoldins..
thurs n fri..ex spade...shellscrap x 2 trench x2 com post x1..if i can get thru that..
i can get thru anything..no zz..
wana dig non stop for 30hrs anyone?
fri..keep all..sat..comehm...
no book out..haiz..
its been a hard last week..
im sorry everyone..im feelin down...im feelin depress...
now im a bit better...
i think i should take things lighter..
love fam n dear...
god pls take care of them when i cant...
...........

celebration at marina 

birthday cele with darling

wow.... now a final summary of my birthday cele with darling......

28th May 2005:

• my dear celebrated with me... hahha...
• went to work early in the morning... 6 hr for 100 bucks as a surveyer... good job ar...
• met up with darling at 5 plus at orchard...
• went to dine at marina bay...... the steamboat was terrific! haha.. ate a lot of good food..... really a lot.... there's life lobster, live crabs and life prawns.... if you watched sharks tale... then you ought to feel sinful eating the life prawns..... haha.. rmb the part where the prawn begs for help.... *guilty*
• ate and ate and ate..... baby was so sweet.. he cooked most of the food, while i ate most of the "cooked food"..... hmm.... *guilty* hehehz....
• then here comes the surprise! take a look at the photo and you will know! the cookish cake! wow! you can really see shining!!!!
• sang me a birthday song... "happy birthday to you.. happy birthday to you..." SSSSSOOOOO SWWWWEET...!!!!! i duno why.. but i always feel super blessed and emotional whenever ple sings me birthday song. and i am blowing a birthday cake......very very happy!!! Under the silent sky, i make a wish... a wish that i hope will come true..... dear lord, did you hear my calling? =)
• left the place,... set off the meet up with darling's parents!!!!!!! oh mine... and darling's realtives.... *NERVOUS* though this isn't the first time, butterflies are all over my stomach... can't help me...
• ya.. met them. Scared. talked. everything went off well..... luckily...... *phew...*
• uncle fetched me home.. left dear again... bid off with a kiss... one that i hope will last forever.... a sweet birthday... its the second time... waiting for the third time and going...

thats all for the day.... misses my dear who is still in camp....

i love my cake...... 

gbithday gift form dearie... guess what inside? 

awe......... isn't that sweet....and special and delicious.....

this week has been the least pressurin and least days spent in ocs
generally still cant help but wana ord wana regain life..
its juz so sickenin to wake at 5 to begin the day that ends at 10 or at times 12 coz of..haha..
nah.its juz the wakin up dear..the fact that even the sun is zzing...
anyway..this week n next plannin for ex zebra+ ex Spade..
hopefulli can finish in 5days but then again it means 4 days w/o sleep...
crazy?im not jokin..4long days..if i can get thru these missions..ATEK better watch out...
nah..aft this is oni 1 more test n 1 24k..senior bar...end of ST term..haha..3 more weeks..
not bookin out aft 4/6..
so yup...will be havin ops order..warnin orders..aop..nothing realli physical but definately mentalli pressuring...they shag u out then make u think...
ex zebra is all abt attackin which is qiong sua...walk till u break..
ex spade..enough said..u noe they say in ocs thers 2 memorable things 1 ex spade 1 ex lancer..
spade is juz dig till u drop..i mean 2day n nite..killer..
im now seatin like a duck ready to be killed ...
doesn't feel gd..yeah im whinin...but yeah im in it...
had a great birthday with my other half...
cake..ok it wasn't...ring..food...wow..hope she loves it..
i promise k..nxt yr i be ther on 310505..
i mean it..sorrie dear for last n this yr..stuck in camps..
sorry...
well had a 16k then soccer then dating..legs n shoulders tearin me..
but muz put up the stong face...
cant wait for ex to end..live fire to end..
its the end of ST..start of 6mth pro...
1/4 into army...
cheers:)

east coast

our rings............... *smilez* my birthday gift...



it was a good wednesday! an extraordinary one...... a special one...... haha.. coz it was spent with my baby........ a wed? baby not in camp... out at east coast with me.. haha.. yeah! thats right! feel so blessed! dream come true! =) coz its a wed you know........
met up at giant to get our pinic stuff...... haha.. but first of all... Lunch! its impt... had burger king... delicious.. =) *hungry* darling was so hungry that he ate ice cream, burger fries and a large coke.. hmm... *hungry hungry* shopped .. and gotten "chicken su", chicken biscuit and his white kit kat... gotten coffee and food for mum too... wasn't a conspiracy darling..... its good to "ai wu ji wu" =)
reached east coast, gotten the bikes.. and started biking.... this time round no more couple bikes.. decided to try out individual bikes... and weEEEEEEE.... here we go...... wasn;t that smooth.. heard a lot of screeching sound.. something wrong with darling's bike.. changed it, and ya.. the uncle crapped lot...telling us why the bike is llike this and like that.... (we dun really need to know why you see...) cycled all the way to Bedok jetty and enjoyed the breeze...... may "fishermen" wer there.. sometimes i really ponder... are there any fishes? seriously????? ate our su there... ate the biscuits.. ate and ate.. looked into the calm sea.. not that beautiful.. coz there were vessels lying everywhere... not a nice sight.. not aiding us to escape from reality... then we cyled off.. coz dear desra think concrete was not nice.. he prefered to sit on grass? my poor NS boy, GRASS? again?? hehhez..so we cycled again.. this time round.. no more "free lift" its individual bikes..
reached anothert part of east coast... further down.... sat on these rocks... *nicey*.. though ants accompanied us all the way... juz sat down there and enjoyed the breeze.. comfort. comfortable. comfy.was the word.. haha.. and i was given my BIRTHDAY present! its a pair of rings! *Beautiful* GONNA WEAR IT FOR LIFE.. UNITL THE NEXT OFFICIAL ONE COME..*HINTZ* when are u gg to give me, my dearie? hehez.. =)
opps.. work gg to end le..
to be continued.

our plant after 2 weeks 

*1/2 + 1/2 = one*



without any half, our life wouldn't be complete. ('',)

at sentosa 

our plant after one week 

cycling trip 

cycling trip 

hahaha

haha..... my dearie booking out later in hte evening for e learning....
hhahhahaa... gg out with dearie tmr.... hahha.. =) cancelled swimming class,
took leave le...
all READY TO GO OUT...... hahha.. =)
finished my work long ago.... slacking here very happily.... haha.. finally not so much workload le...
hahahha.... =)

a nicey sat....

its a nicey sat... met up with rui to send mag's parel.. but guess what? none of us rmb to bring mag's add... hahaa.. so funny.. we came to our realization only after we paid... so ya.. luckily.mag's msg wasn't deleted yet...so my phone became the hero of the day! hehez.. =) ended walking... rui bought her cake.. for her mum's birthday.. then met jia yi... hahaha.. she still looks the same.. as cheerful and cute... ate her apple dipped in Choco! DELICIOUS! =) and guess what? she also said i SLIMMED down! hahahz... =)

then met up with yen ling to have lunch.... haha.. her ryan kept calling.. when he haven even reach... aiyo... NRS NG was smiling away.. coz her ryan was here to fetch her.. awe.. adn i hopped on for a free ride too... yup.. raiing cats and dogs.. felt paisei to ask him to fetch to destined place.. so dropped down and je.. and met up with darling..

DARLING! hehez.. so HAPPY to see him! =) =) =) lakeside mrt.. dear was drenched... aiyoyo.. very drenched.. i sweprt across his hair and water juz slashed all over.. wooo... all his gel was gone.. awe.... haha.. but still looked as cute... set off to town.... wated to watch STARS WAR... went to PS, cineleisure.. but tickets were sold out.. we knew it wld ne.. juz a little dumb.. but its ok.. coz ultimately we WATCHED .. at TION bahru... seats not TOO BAD..SHOW WAS TERRIFIC!!!!!!!! to all who have not catched it. watch it! really good! have not catched any episodes before. bu this is enough to attract you.. the sound effects, the visual aspects, no smell though.. haha..juz REMARKABLE! =)
ended the show with dearie's sending me home.. nice bf ar... yesterday i came across this article stating how guys feels about girls...
guys: "girls take free rides for granted, didn't attempt to pay for petrol or buy drinks to reward the guys" something along this line.. was so disgusted by this statement.. it juz shows how stingent and petty the guy is... haiz.. what have those guys become of... furthermore they are undergrads... thought it was a juz a simple gesture to show himself being a gentleman... haiz.. but i did not state that we, ladies shld take guys for granted.....this kind of statement juz turns me off... i am no feminist..... but of coz, there was a statement," i thik it is alright, as long as the girl is happy, i am happy." awe.. doesn't that shows the insignificant of the previos man more?haha.. lets ponder...

kk.. think i shall end off by saying.. i am fortunate.. coz up till now,my guy seems more of the second guy...sent me home vouluntarily on sat night.. *smilez*=)

life...

wow...
what a pressurin week..
ocs is tough...
coz when they drain u physicalli..
they test ur mental strength...
very tired..hurt neck nuckles knee cap..
soc..9k...all test u gotto pass
3 arms in 1 week... siong
hope n pray for a better week ahead...
love dear n fam
take care.

i am sitting in a head's room...hahahahaha....

hahah... i am slacking a head's room.... so so cool! nobody will walk pass you.. peeping at what you are doing..... can relax and enjoy life... but thats once you have finished your work.... and i have finished my work... so cool.. its 2 persons to one room... but now my partner is away.. so its like alone.. cool ar? cool............. =) nice experience.. all THANKS TO the P file... coz of them, i get to use the room..... =) still very happy over it... =).. kk....
now if you wonder whats my life is about....
it has changed!
830am-6pm=work
from 6 onwards... no more tuition... coz my kids mid year are over...
everybody take a break.....
so i get to watch the show... AH WANG! VERY TOUCHING.. VERY NICE! I cried with ah wang when his ife left him... if you watched it, its the part when he was chopping the woods and sobbing.... very heartbreaking....
went swimming yesterday... couldn't BELIEVE it! i think i LEARNT it! coz managed to swim one breadth without stopping.......up and down into the water was my momentum.. and it was right.. whole body wasn't that tense as before... relax was what i tried to do... i make it! very happy! muz thankd yi hui too.. for accompanying me and helping me... vivien too! and of coz my swmming instuctors! hahhaha..... but come back to think again.. think i haven really learnt it.. coz all along i was at medium pool.... hahhaa... "guess Practise makes perfect".. neeed to swim more le.. but the cholrine damages your hair... *sobx sobx*
after which, i went for supper.... 5 bucks worth of Rojak! and 3 bucks worth of dim sum.. not very filling.. but its very fattening...coz already way past 9pm... oh mine.. there goes my 45kg....went home... heard darling's voice.. very happy! he has Cadet mass lor! so good! ate so much! knowing that he well fed makes me less wrried.... haha.. eat more k dear! =) coz "eating keeps you gg" ritez? *winkz* but i am sure my hp bill is gg to explode... sms already exceed.. and the end of month is still a long way to go... hehez..
and to all that prayed for my darling... THANK YOU! coz his neck is better le... yup...... and he passed HIS soc! and his explosion test! =)
happy for him... *happy*

i am sitting in a head's room...hahahahaha....

hahah... i am slacking a head's room.... so so cool! nobody will walk pass you.. peeping at what you are doing..... can relax and enjoy life... but thats once you have finished your work.... and i have finished my work... so cool.. its 2 persons to one room... but now my partner is away.. so its like alone.. cool ar? cool............. =) nice experience.. all THANKS TO the P file... coz of them, i get to use the room..... =) still very happy over it... =).. kk....
now if you wonder whats my life is about....
it has changed!
830am-6pm=work
from 6 onwards... no more tuition... coz my kids mid year are over...
everybody take a break.....
so i get to watch the show... AH WANG! VERY TOUCHING.. VERY NICE! I cried with ah wang when his ife left him... if you watched it, its the part when he was chopping the woods and sobbing.... very heartbreaking....
went swimming yesterday... couldn't BELIEVE it! i think i LEARNT it! coz managed to swim one breadth without stopping.......up and down into the water was my momentum.. and it was right.. whole body wasn't that tense as before... relax was what i tried to do... i make it! very happy! muz thankd yi hui too.. for accompanying me and helping me... vivien too! and of coz my swmming instuctors! hahhaha..... but come back to think again.. think i haven really learnt it.. coz all along i was at medium pool.... hahhaa... "guess Practise makes perfect".. neeed to swim more le.. but the cholrine damages your hair... *sobx sobx*
after which, i went for supper.... 5 bucks worth of Rojak! and 3 bucks worth of dim sum.. not very filling.. but its very fattening...coz already way past 9pm... oh mine.. there goes my 45kg....went home... heard darling's voice.. very happy! and he juz went for cadet mass... wow.. ate so much food!! very good! coz it juz means he is well fed... and yup! knowing that makes me worry less..... and most imptly.." food keeps him gg" so muz eat more k dear!=) but i am sure my hp bill is gg to explode... sms already exceed.. call timing also! and the end of month is still a long way to go... hehez..
and to all the prayed for my darling... THANK YOU! coz his neck is better le... yup...... and he passed HIS soc! and his explosion test! =)
happy for him... *happy*

oh gosh.... i miss my darling.......

let me see.. yesterday was an "activities filled"day...... went for work....... again got to wake at 730am! so tired... but ya..... i am fortunate le.. dardar got to wake at 4 plus 5.... hmm... and he sprained his neck yesterday after SOC... wonder how is he now.. juz tried to call him but reception so poor! didn't get thru after 5 times of calling........ ya... he is going to have 4 tests today...coz he has to make up for the "chicken pox" lessons hat he missed.... "crash course" very bad hor.... very pressurizing.... so ple out there, please pray for him k....
as for me..... juz went for a medical checkup yesterday. part of the requirement to be a teacher... the GP was so hmm... professional? didn't smile... look kind of unfriendly... luckily is a she... coz she pressed here and there....they even checked for breast cancer for you... so one can imagine what she did.... i was shy... (0"0) and the process is sUPER "ticklish "... couldn't help laughing... but she looked into me and said:" i still got to examine you"... VERY PROFESSIONAL? and UNFRIENDLY........ anyway.... glad that i was fine... nothing wrong! and guess what! i weighed 45 kg! wow! how long have i not seen this figure... hahhahaa... there was the highlight of the day! =) then liyun and i went to jalan jalan at BUgis...hahhaa.. liyun very nice..... accompanied me all along.. and we went to get stuff for my parents, her parents, and darling's parents.. its a "parents' day"? hahaha.. but ya.. guess we have grown to a certain maturity level, realizing its time to show some filial peity.... no longer juz your parents taking care of you.. but the other way round... =) ate YAKUN..the one at Raffels hospital... not that delicious... i wonder why.. maybe there's lesser kaya and butter.. maybe its bacause i always eat with darling and he is not here that day.. hehezz.... lets wonder.... had a free gift from watsons... shld be a shared one.. but liyun said let me take it... she is so nice hor... not jin jin ji jiao... hehez.... end off the day with taking a super crowded train....squeeze... squeeze and SQUEEZED.... finally got into the train...
had a nice day with liyun... had a pleasant medical checkup.... the only worry is my darling's neck......

tired

its sat nite
juz back from dear n parents outin..
a lot of crap to do...
that includes 2ys of ns..
no wonder its called a LIABILITY.
God bless.

complaints

haha.. wondering whats our life like? my darling.. hmm.. he's having a lot of tests these weeks... a lot of muging to do for him.. a lot of physical tests too...juz came back from field camp.. then a lot of life shooting.. very tiring.. .. told me OCs is increasing the tempo of the traiing.. so its getting morre nad more xiong... haiz... i miss him..... darling has ulcers , rashes, bites, deep cuts and a lot of stuff.. haiz.. what shld i do to lessen his suffering.. any recommendations? feel so helpless...shall get him some cream.. hope it at least help.. no heaty stuff le.. shall get herbal tea..
and for me, i took up swimming lessons! FINALLY! wanted to learn for a long long time le.. hope everyhting will be fine.. coz i am like so old le.. learn swimming..... *so funny* hope everything turns out well.. learning with yu zhen.. very excited! but nervous too.. coz wearing swimsuit...
todays work very stressed.. co zhave a lot of amendments.. really ALOT! i chaged once.. reprint everything.. changed twice reprint everything... changed thrice.. repeat everything.. the worst thing is they say change time of interview.. and i was preparing interview file.. muz change all the candidate's cover pages! at least SHRED 100pages of paper le! was piss off.. but muz appear cool.. coz its work.. nofault, no arguments.. juz do.. thats the mentality! haiz... but ya.. cindy was sweet.. gave me a chocolate...
and i got into another phase of my life le.. where i know for sure, i am gg to be "miss lin" maybe "mrs liew"for e rest of my life.. signed some teachign agreement.. haiz.. dunno whether thats the best choicebut i know i am gg to make the best out of it... so so lifeless nowadays.. i miss my darling very much.. trying to occupy myself with a lot of things.. then wun miss him that time...when's his NS finishin???????????????????????? i miss him.....................

darling's second day into field camp.....

its the second day into my darling's field camp...
i miss him...... its raining... dunno whether they have any rest........ and shelter...

cadet too tired to think izzit?

haha..this e phrase for the week...
juz book out at 8 goin back at 8...
very tires after zzing at 330am and wakin at 6am...
ok time to show qualities in an officer...
goin marsellin area for training...
so so dead...look at the heavy downpour...
wet muddy dirty stinky...
combat shit again for 3 days...puke...
law+sar? m203? saw? anythin except signal set...
think im begging to regain myslef in ocs...
very injured, very tired, very bruised...
life goes on...
1 hr zz for mon n tues...
So again,
cadet too tired to think izzit?
love dear n fam forever.

today's the eve of mother's day.... went out with yen leng juz now...... haha.. she had her haircut and i have my eyebrow trimming! =) got to say her hair looks neater and lesser now.. pretty girl! hehezz.. and my eyebrow now looks neater but i juz can't help whine whine and whine... can't get used it.. imagine a girl with thick black eyebrow suddenly left with soem seductive thin aunitsh eyebrow.. juz can't get used to it .... haha.. i hope i will cool down soon... .glad that yen leng like the personalised service in the shop i recommend..... hehezz.. =)

and guess what! i got into Buisness at NUs.. and teaching at NTU.... wow!!!!!!! BUisness was my first choice.. and i have to reject the reputable NUS offer... felt a little heartache.. coz all of us know NUS is better... but i like teaching more.... NIE..... Here i comes..... haha....its luxurious offer! paying you 1112 bucks per month while you ar studying.. and i dun have to worry about my tuition fees... and my passion lies in teaching.. haha.. oh mine! i love MOE!!!

Tmr is going to be our 18th month anniversary! and its mother's day... haha.. got my mum flowers.. and money... she thinks money is the most practical stuff.. so ya.. typical singaporean. =) hahha... got a little present for my darling... i am so sure he will loves it! coz its delicious biscuit that he always wanted... haha..went all the way to paragon to get you know.. haha... yen leng went with me too.... =) haha.. she got so vexed by complains.. haha... cannot help la.. eyebrow so horrid..... tmr our plant will start to grow! we are gg to breathe life into it! "breathing life ceremony!" so cool! very excited... but ya.. he is only booking out at 12pluz.. then in at 8pm.... we only have so little time.. .. so muz treaure this moments even more.. another one week to seeing him after tmr....

think army relationship really not easy... though he is in Sinagpore... you can't meet up with him as and when you like... it requires alot of understanding between the couple..... definitelty misses him a lot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! count me fortunate i guess.. coz at least he calls me every night and trys his best to sms me in the day to make sure i feel loved...... not once but as much as he can... how sweet can a bf gets..... i really thank God so much for him....

Talking about God, its been a long time since i stepped into a church.. think god is hinting me to go back... but ya.. lazy flesh of mine juz refuses to go..... haiz.. .. i muz go this week or next... very soon......

and yes! i almost went clubbing with my odac girls yesterday!!!! then it would have been memorable.. as that would be the first time in my entire life! but but but....... its all fated.... the 5 of us (shi yin, hui yuan, jia hui,, manwei and myself) all wear flat sandals... those typical lady sandals.. and are given refusal at entry..... so so disappointed... but ya.. maybe it is a blessing in disguise... coz darling was so worried for me..... haha.. feel so fortunate.. coz this shows that he cares.. (o",o) but ya.. i will definitly take good care of my drink if i ever go there... dun worry darling... i love you! hehez..

sucha nice day we had had................
ever since emy darling went OCS.....
our dating days has been minimized.....
real minimized..... thus this outing that we had is really memorable.......
went east coast....... beautiful weather.... thought we thought it maybe hot,
but its not... breezy... windy.... juz the nice weather for cycling........
went cycling..... such a nice biking trip...... we cycled up and down.... this time now slowly..... appreciating all our pleasant surroundings.... so comfortable! coz i was at the back... dun need much efforts to cycle... he controlled everything... =) hehezz... sat down to enjoy our ice cream... i realized my darling eats professional ice cream eater... if one can imagine how he gobblean ice cream without it really melting under the hot sun... wow.. mine was like ice cream all over my hands while eating but he is not....... that muz be his talent! an ice cream eater! =) set our worries aside... and juz enjoyed the breeze... eating sandwiches... drinking ice lemon tea... sitting on the grass patch under a tree.... it wa perfect! a very nicey couplish setting..... it felt really warm to have your loved one sitting beside you.. holding you close... at the moment, i thought i am dreaming.. but its so real...... love my darling... and yes! sea turtle! haha...... *winks* do you think we saw one? hahaz...... weather seems not by our side as we enjoyed.... dark clouds gathered.. so its time to leave...... we biked all the way back.... haha.. and yes! managed to shoot our biking photo.... it was professional! not easy.... the roads were clustered with ple cycing.. walking.. rollerblading.. running... but we managed too... nicey! =) we left off an dset the wrong bus... hahaa. but its nice sitting in a the wrong bus.. as long as its with your loved ones... haha.. i am drowning in love..... haha.. went to Bugis.. and shop around.. now i know my birthday gift le! hahaha... receieved a plant for anniversary! haha.. okok.. will breathe life into it on 8th of may... not because its mother's day.. but its our 18th month anniversary... .. =)

another significant dae

now seating on a chair chilling...ocs hw not done yet...gotto sae 2 yrs of ns is too long...look at me im not even 5mths thru'..anyway..think every guy is the same..the shit we go thru to defend the land..its admirable..currently pondering abt my vocation..infantry?com eng?sig?amour infant?
i jux dun wana keep walkin my life away..its wat infan does best..but ocs is definately a great living site..any opinions?i love lookin at the sky..coz its soothin..but it doesn't provide me ans..
the oni ans i have is that i gotto serve 2 years..im tired..im weak..but i cant complain.. coz im an officer cadet...the clouds are glorious..the chair..the ability to seat is god given..with a laptop n a radio..this is what i lived for..in a few hours time..its back to camp..back to regementation.. back to serve...how i wished i was muggin for my mid year now...too bad im not...not this yr nor nxt yr...ntu or nus?well..its a unanimous ntu..stupid?maybe...life as i aske the one up ther...wher does it lead..till now i still see darkness..more 24hr book out includin recalls...more ns...im losing myself..i muz find it back....

heaven again..

cant believe it...wow...
i had a great mayday....
hope she had it too...
dear... 1 n.d. + 1 teaching = happiness...
hope u treasure it...
juz like me...
love u baby...
might be goin long this time...
pls hang on and cherish e moments...
god bless.

life goes on

to all..my life recoverd...
lets see...
i got to the field camp../
i made n carried on in ocs...
i fainted 2x in field camp...
many and i mean many fainted,fever,exhaustion...
2 helivac to hospitals...
1 n.d created by me...
going to report for rp duties n a crow...
very bad week...
mom...
happi moms days....
dear...
im so so so glad for u in moe...
n pls...
dun be blogged down by work coz u always have avenues to get to me and fam...
love u...
thank u god...
hope for a better time ahead...
e rainy days r passin n the sun is out...
take care all...

=(

wonder why my life has been so listlesss these days.....
bf in Ns... miss him........
no time for my family too.......... feel so guilty............
i dun know what i am living for these days.......
work and tuition has made me a lifeless person.....
no joy, no hope, no purpose.....
been thinking a lot..... but wonder what i am thinking of........
miss my school days......
miss my dating dates......
miss my exam days.......... (at least there is a purpose)
miss my friends' outings...........
think i am too exhausted from work......
need a long long long break..................................

second day of field camp....

second day into darling's field camp.......
wonders how is he.... miss him....
again another working day....
but today is special...
no tuition after work.... fianlly can go home and eat with parents....
rest and relax......
it seems like a long long time since i can go home after work....
miss my friends too.......
miss spending time with them...... interview results are still not out....
wonder how i will perform.....
my life seems to be full of misses., anticipation....
exhausted.

feelings

back to work again..........
monday blues............
but at least he didn't called.....
that shows he is in field camp.....
a clerk that types no more,
a storeman no more......
he is back.....
back to where he wants to belong...
i dreaded working.....
dreaded not being able to see you....
but knowing you are back in there....
juz makes my day filled with flair....
though i miss you, my little soul...
i know our "parting" makes love grow........

composure

i sure have a lot....
but im fearing...
for the worst is waiting...
n the lite is fading...
get ur butt over that trench soilder...
get this typed for me clark...
whers my food storeman...
3 into 1...
which one?
god noes.

cheer up k...

To my dearest darling,

everything will be alright ya.......
no worries ya.....
no matter what happens, be it a disappointment or setback....
as long as our hearts are linked,
there's nothing we cannot overcome.......
plus you have a loving parents.....
who dotes and sacrifices for you...
Plus you have a heart that is full of desires and sincerity...
God will see and hear....
i am sure he will bless you in his special way...
darling, juz go with a heart that is light ya....
i am sure everything will be alright looking at all the hardened spots...
i love you.....

cheer up!

To my dearest darling,

Everything is going to be alright....
No worries ya.....
Even if its a clerk, storeman..some man...
it doesn't matter.... As long as our hearts are linked,
there is nothing we cannot overcome ya...
Plus you have such loving parents....
who are willingly to sacrifice so much for you....
i am sure everything will go well...
cheer up k!
Go with a light heart.....
coz God sees and God Hears....
i love you...........

will.....

when thers a will thers a way...
thank u god...
for bringing that back to me in my dreams...

lowest pt of my life...

can't believe wat happen to my life..they brought me to heaven and sent me to hell..
imagine a boy..of lofty ambitions..tryin to excel in everything he did..for who some asked..his parents?yes..they r old..they dun have much to live for except to see their son succede..his gf?for honour and glory?nope..juz to make himself stronger and better as a man..
for his country?definately a little..this boy realli wana defend the soil that he was riaised..every sweat..every cut..he wanted to give in and give up..be a man..some will say..he doesn't..he realise he can acheive better things..fight for more men..the higher he goes..
juz like he repeats everyday..i dedicate my life to singapore..
will u, my officers?
so he kept fighting..kept sheddin weight..kept trainin personalli.. he reached heighs he nvr imagined..it all paid off it seems..
the more we sweat in peace the less we bleed in war...he confided in it..believing it will see him thru..n till now everything was fine..
he could imagine holdin the sword..but it seeems yet to be
all of a sudden..some rash developed..ah muz be bites from mosquitoes..oh no..cant be chic pox..boy knew he had to report..he knew he will lose his sword..a direct fall from heaven not to earth but to hell..he couldn't accept the truth..it hurts if one noes how garang he have been...
its realli chic pox..saw the sir..thats it dot com...boy was absolutely devasted..had some tears in his eyes..if he cant make it by sundae..hes out..hes out?wats goin to happen...
the future turned real dark..god's will?he sincerly dun noe wat lies ahead..most prob hes goin to be a clark then be a clark..a man or be recoursed...either ways r all very very bad solutions..he cant handle the truth..but he muz...
went to see a doc that cost 358..wow..thats a huge sum...dad got him chinese med..he saw how much his family loved him..it made him felt worse..if thers anything he could do..he would rather go for the field camp even having fever..hes a little miserable..coz he noes his gf cares..that makes him wana prove himself..he cant give up the chancee..but he has to console his dad that his son juz cant make it as an officer..why? god?dreAms utterly crushed..
at times he looked to the sky for reason..he mug military stuff..
but the answer is simple and he noes it..he needs a miracle..
n here he made his promise..to train to be the best officer if he had a chance to resume...coz he wana protect his land..his men..his family..his future wife..

boy oh boy..

a nice working day...

today today today.... feeling so tired now... hope i can zz immediately now..... juz had my lunch.... was plain yong tau hu.... nothing special... feeling so sick now... wishes to go home and rest.. oh God, help me.... wake me up! ya... nothing to do now coz my colleague not here.. called another 2 persons for work, but they did not pick up..guess i will wait unitl they call back.. actually i can ask rina for work.. but i am so so lazy.... *lazy*
darling juz called me... and he told me about pimples.. hehezz... so funny.. but come to think about it, think it muz be the lack of zz, the heatiness in him.. i shall try to cook herbal tea this weekend.. haha.. first time again! so excited now... hahha... hope darling wun get diarhoea...
went to catch a movie last sunday.. quite nice a movie i got to say..:guess who".. white in black house... a lot of funny jokes.. not the type of show i will indugle in for a movie... think this show didn't make full use o'poemf the technology.... juz a drama.. couldn't forget the part on the dad using his son-in-law's love 'poem'.. so funny! wonder whether darling really enjoy himself... coz he ws sick... so soory dear.. next time we juz chilled out at your place k? no more gg out this week.. think your body needs plenty of rest now... gg back to work le... 3 more days to darling's book out... =)

finally see my baby...

darling, i am sorry.. didn't meant to be so rude today... ya.. thought you were angry..so i kept quiet... of coz i know i am holding your hand! ya.. you made the right point.. i have to cherish the time spent... shouldn't let saddness overwhelmed our day... juz thinking today why didn't you pull the chair for me.. when you told me you pull for other ladies.. *sobs* think i am super petty.. and narrow-minded.. and sensitive... but darlin, pls pardon this "small lady" in me coz it is only normal for girlfriendjuz a little jealousy..coz you are my only baby... the day started with us meeting at je.. oh no.. saw baby waiting but i wasn't late... baby was early...Hand in hand, we went to Bedok...he saw the pancake.. and guess he was disgusted by it.. coz i made it at ard 2am.. and keep it in fridge then warm it this morning... looks a little soggy.. oh mine.. no wonder he took a quick glance and guess no more desire for 2nd glance.. hehez.. reached bedok, ate our lunch... and PANCAKE! hhaa.. oh mine! it tasted really bad but darling managed to stuff in quite a few.. and guess what he said it taste great! at least i know he appreciated my efforts.... butya.. the honest feedback was of coz not too gd afterall....went to shop ard for specs and contacts lens.. and dardar managed to get quite a good deals..happy for him...given that the salesgirl was friendly and pretty as compared to 1 fierce aunty, my dardar decided to buy from her.. haha.. of coz not! that shop was cheaper and ya.. he did his previous spec from that shop too...
then we went down to Orchard.. reason was to get my oven! haiz... but ya.. the oven which was the last piece looks distorted , dirty and "used".. so ya.. have to drop the idea.. went ard to look for other 7-11 along orchard.. but to no avail... *sobs* *sobs* as always, my sweet baby secretly went to buy my fav. DOVE choco to cheer me up! awe..... that is so sweet.... love my baby! juz realize i always feel very secure when my baby is around... think my baby is so wonderful a bf! i am so lucky.. (o'',O) as we strolled, baby told me abt his life in OCS... FEEL SO SO ANGRY FOR HIM! haiz.. what happen to all the officer to be.. always thought they were supposed to be appreciative, polite, matured and kind.. but haiz.. feel very sad for dear.. coz he has to bear all these unappreciative ple.. rude and childish.. Thank God my darling has high tolerance level.. if not, i think he ould have erupted...darlin.. life isn't that bad ya.. at least you still have a happy family, alwasy behind you... and mrs liew who will try her best to be there too....darling, though i can't change them, but God can. i will pray that they do reflections upon themselves and realize how mean they had been.. its so tough on my baby... dun be demoralised k.. only got to be with them for a few months and everything will be over.. talk more to better ple k.. hurts me to see you being "bullied".. or maybe ya.. as what you said, " one only has one life, so live it! choose to be happy..." love my baby.. had a great saturday.

ocs

hey ther...me now using com in ocs...
thers this room in the cadets mess...
dear, i miss u...
ocs rawks!

life now

wow...got a bit of time here..
finalli can tok abt life...
ocs is a great place in terms of food lodging facilities
but it be bad in terms of trainin..
for frends...juz wana tell u all im so busy i have hardly got time for
my fam n my dear...
so sorrie pals but ocs is choking..n i repeat chokin me...
but nonetheless...im feelin gd
pt is tough...run run n run..thats ocs fav pastime..now i love 2.4k...
currently in st term...hopefulli can stay on...
better frends have left..navy n air wing...all e best...
buddy goonna go too...
sierra wing is like bravo coy...welfare seems to be gd...
but no less we sweat...
life goes on..hectic..high pace
+more pimples...
goin in soon to learn arms...
love dear
love fam
god bless all.

officers creed

im an officer of the singapore armed forces
my duty is to lead, to excel and to overcome
i lead my men by example
i answer for their trainin, moral and discipline
i must excel in everything i do
i serve with pride, honour and integrity
i will overcome adversity with courage, fortitude and determination
i deticate my life to singapore

sierra......
dear...im sorry i broke my promise but timing was realli bad
hope u accept my apologies

Parent(plus gf) visiting day

met up with darling! so so happy! =) eyes glimmered.... though its been only 5 days, its seems like years since i last met him... miss him...... he still looks the same, with the usual cute look and cheeky smile...=) not a lot of pimples darling....=) we went to tour around the whole of OCS.. wow! as what he always tell me, it is really awesome.... i must say that practically everywhere, it is very neat, clean and tidy... i was amazed that i saw no litters... wow.. went to the tower.. took a very small lift...and went all the way up...the magnificent sight coupled with the cooling breeze sums it all...... BEAUTIFUL. one could see the industrial area and neighbourhood from here... it is supposed to mean something but i forget what it is. hehehz... darling's bunk is so neat. The design is so hostel-like.. with 2 beds, 2 cupboards, 2 shelves and a long table wit computer.. i think i wouldn't mind having a room like that.. next, the most impt place, the dining hall.. wow... given that there is a stage, clean big tables... individual comfortable chairs... nice environment with wonderful circulation of air.. and even speakers which will have music on during meals time.. one can imagine the luxury of dining there.... haha.. at least i know my darling is well looked after... or maybe very well looked after.. =) after that, we settled down at a air conditioned recreation centre in OCS..(i forget the name again)hehez...with videos,comfortable sofas, high chairs.. and tables, nice tea, coffee, hot choco... wow..BUT i think darling hasn't had much time to visit there....As the saying goes,"can't judge a book by its cover", these are only the exterior... the training is tough...both mentally & physically tough..After all, think the main comfort i derived would be to have darling walking by me.. its seems like a very long time since i last walked with him.....think a simple walk means much when you can't be with your loved ones always.. Time flies, we needed to leave.... argh... dun feel like leaving at all... its gonna be ages before i get to see darling again... ya.... left in his dad's car.... started to miss somebody... somebody who is so close in heart but so far on land...... but ya.. its worth the wait darling.. coz deep in my heart i know that we really love each other.... 3 & 1/2 days and counting....=)