lowest pt of my life...

can't believe wat happen to my life..they brought me to heaven and sent me to hell..
imagine a boy..of lofty ambitions..tryin to excel in everything he did..for who some asked..his parents?yes..they r old..they dun have much to live for except to see their son succede..his gf?for honour and glory?nope..juz to make himself stronger and better as a man..
for his country?definately a little..this boy realli wana defend the soil that he was riaised..every sweat..every cut..he wanted to give in and give up..be a man..some will say..he doesn't..he realise he can acheive better things..fight for more men..the higher he goes..
juz like he repeats everyday..i dedicate my life to singapore..
will u, my officers?
so he kept fighting..kept sheddin weight..kept trainin personalli.. he reached heighs he nvr imagined..it all paid off it seems..
the more we sweat in peace the less we bleed in war...he confided in it..believing it will see him thru..n till now everything was fine..
he could imagine holdin the sword..but it seeems yet to be
all of a sudden..some rash developed..ah muz be bites from mosquitoes..oh no..cant be chic pox..boy knew he had to report..he knew he will lose his sword..a direct fall from heaven not to earth but to hell..he couldn't accept the truth..it hurts if one noes how garang he have been...
its realli chic pox..saw the sir..thats it dot com...boy was absolutely devasted..had some tears in his eyes..if he cant make it by sundae..hes out..hes out?wats goin to happen...
the future turned real dark..god's will?he sincerly dun noe wat lies ahead..most prob hes goin to be a clark then be a clark..a man or be recoursed...either ways r all very very bad solutions..he cant handle the truth..but he muz...
went to see a doc that cost 358..wow..thats a huge sum...dad got him chinese med..he saw how much his family loved him..it made him felt worse..if thers anything he could do..he would rather go for the field camp even having fever..hes a little miserable..coz he noes his gf cares..that makes him wana prove himself..he cant give up the chancee..but he has to console his dad that his son juz cant make it as an officer..why? god?dreAms utterly crushed..
at times he looked to the sky for reason..he mug military stuff..
but the answer is simple and he noes it..he needs a miracle..
n here he made his promise..to train to be the best officer if he had a chance to resume...coz he wana protect his land..his men..his family..his future wife..

boy oh boy..