check this out dudes...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AEgSSRjG4ac

got this song from "death notes"...
its giving me another thought about animes...

The Grumpy KIng and Queen!

finally the day has arrived!

For all who dont noe it yet...haha...
the day is here..im finalli off work...
kudos to the greens..they were what i wore for wat seems years...
life in green is not easy..i enjoyed..but i dun wana be in it...
ask anyone in it and im sure no one enjoys it..job or duty..its time to keep them...
feeling realii awesome...
felt a bit sad..saw a few friends one last time..caleb..kok chun..ricky...
some people i trust...while the rest..oh well...
wat a long journey it has been..something i realli must pen down...
honey..i love u..thanks for being with me..not awhile..but all the way...
n my family..for all the background help n surpport...

the journey all began in basic school...
the day was 070105...it was a tough day...
they say some people change..i agree..for the better...
so i went into Bronco..aka bravo..7 core values...
all the fieldcraft..field camp..5 to 10 days...
all the ippt..soc..bcct..n the route march...
days were tough..enriching..i made it thru..left a lot of true friends...
wilson..dick..bernd..ben..tham..etc..so so many..we had fun...i grew....
then the march the graduation..the pride...
i saw some tears in my mom..some light in my dad.. and i look around..i always do...
i saw her..waiting with the flowers..shes happy..me too....
the ground was filled with joy, with sweat, with tears...
i left heavy hearted and moved in..1 down...more to go...

oh well, ithought sispec here i come..then it was OCS...
i was happy then sad..9 torrid months..erm..not too bad but definately character moulding...
btw..im not saying officers are great..im juz saying most have the will at least...
i dare say im not great..but it was a major character building ground...
lets see..i gain lots of courage..lots of will power..lots of self confidence...
it was totalli different there..its like hostel life..gd food..gd clothes..gd everything...
but life is tiring..realli tiring..test after test..pt after pt...
i clocked my gold there..i did my 850 soc there..guess wat..both were my 2nd attempts...
im not gd..but whne everyone is there..u will be there too..somehow...
fieldcamps were the lowest moments of my life...
cant forget the casavac around safti and sdc!..hey it was full estab..i felt weak..
but WE DIDNT GIVE UP..we were special and we did it...
more was to come..petrols up and down...realli tired legs..realli saw day and night...
then it was chickenpox section fieldcamp...i was so hot..i concust..1st time in my life...
i needed help..i saw darkness...but we still went on..still remember doing charges after charges...
the knoll was like 45 degree..it aint funni with fbo..then the fastmarch..till now..shin still hurts...
then it was spade..dig day night day..that was all i remember...i was too tired to remember...
at 315am..i asked myself.." what the f%$# am i digging for?"...
i then remembered..not to give myself a life...but to give others a chance of surviving...
isit an honor to dig for the country? being logical,nope. being loyal,yap.
then it was graduation march..8pm till 6am...through the sleepy hrs...
they gave us ample rest..but there was the adrenaline..it was so strong...WE walked through..
night..midnight..wee hrs..a little light..finalli the sun..it was a 26k walk at area A...
it was 118am..we walked closest to malaysia waters..along the boatshed road to area D..
my back hurt..my eye twiched..my lids closed..then open..there was wind..it was time to zz...
then i looked at the causeway.."thats what im here for..i told myself..i cant let singapore down.."
it was a long journey..it was a long time..then we got the 3 bar..went back to camp...
the juniors were there..they cheered..we sang...till the end..WE walked together...we did it...
at the start there was 37..at the end 24...alex got back problems..a few had other problems...
a few could not withstand it..a few went to mug for their scholarship...
some peeps who were there..jinghao..joel..tok..albert..tim..cao qing..etc...
we left..for our final path..real training...

gedong..here i come..black berets.."once armour.always armour"..this will always be true...
its the punch of the army i always believe..the ones who turn the odds...
it was here i became a true soldier..lots of bad things happen..most faults lies with me...
but thank to a devil turn kind soul maj wilmot..i had a chance to live my passion...
comms..driving..gunnery..tactics..speed..firepower..mobility..protection..
ARMOUR..it was pride i got to say..all the servicing..all the drills..all the punishment...
imagine going out at 4am..service till 7am mount for excercise till 11pm..service till 1am...
no thats not it...sleep/duty till 4am next day for a routine of 4days...
i was realli tired...cleaning guns for 1 night and 1 day? what kept me going? PRIDE.
next was the outback..1 full month..god i miss her..i almost felt so far from her after the month..
but training in sucha beautiful country is something i will always remeber...
the vast land..the aussie sunrise..the kangaroo..the speed across plains...
it was there..i felt like a true soldier..it made me stronger..the world is so so big...
We made it again..bernd..zhanghao..eugene..pete..benji..fax..dan..tims..guan yong..etc...
outback over..it was commisioning..finalli an officer...i saw my parents again..
again i saw some tears in mom..pride in my dad..and in her..i saw happiness...
i made it...

and then i went recce...it used to be for elites..oh well..it was fun...
motor bike..recee..ccac..being a sort of pc led me to a balance life...
and i thank god for all the chance he gave me to be with my love ones...
i realli trasure them..i realli do...
more excercises and trainings..runs and battle plannings...
this is really what the force is abt..but theres juz too much politics...
way to much...
during my stay..i got to say i made friends..notably..caleb..kc..francis..lim de..zhengda..etc...

now its over..honestly its tough to accept..but tougher not to be glad...
pink ic is comming hm...
another phase of life..im not thinking abt temp...
im thinking abt school..abt being a scholar..being a teacher..having a family and being a father...
god willing..i will make it...

with her..with my fam..with my friends..and with god.

REAsons why i can't LIve without him

He allows me to Test my hair pin on him without complaining... hehez.. =)
IT was raingin CAts and DOgs...
IT was a shelterless FAr distance between the tuition centre and the MRt station...
So he ran to the centre to get me an umbrella...
While he insisted that i can't get wet and wait there....(heart melting...)
So i waited and here comes my HEro.. in the RAin...=)

HE carries my bag though its very 'heavy'...
haha... At times IT really is....
















Tell me how can i lIve without such a Sweet Person in my life......
my darling the red Nose RAin DEar is the BEST.... hahah....

Darling the RED NOSE rain 'DEAR'

` Answers to the 'Saturday DATE' mystery `

Looking back, i have been out every Saturday!!!! wow....When peeps are

complaining that they do not have enough time to mug... How can i afford these times??? Its

weird.. isn't it? Exams are nearing yet i feel alright to go out... Funny is'nt it? Shouldn;t I be

feelin the stress like everybody else? ? I am.. Yes I am! but going out with loved ones is essential in life...

So heres my answer to those that ask me, how I did that?

1. I minus my TV times
2. I gave 7 tuitions per week, thus i need a break then.... Saturday is my Break.
3. I can't LIVE without my him honestly... spending time with him is A mUST!More impt that my first class hons...
4. If time is really tight with tests and assignments, We will meet but not for movie or shopping 1st, We MUGGggggg then shop.
5. I try my best to curb sleeping in class, unlike my previous schooling years where i just zz on like anything... Thus i maximise my understanding.
6. I consult lecturers if there is a need to. (NIE lecturers are very helpful!)
7. I make sure i finish my tutorials on time by hook or crook.

Looking BAck, saturday just spurs my week ahead! i think everyone needs a break

from studies... to make up for the time lost for your loved ones.... After watching World Trade

Centre, the need to show love is much heightened.. sad to say.. people just died unexpectedly...

thus a constant reminder to all: Grades are not everything.

LEad A life everyone! =)

My favourite hammie one Is a MUM now!

haha... my favourite hammie one Gave Birth on Wednesday, 18/10/06!!!

She is now a mature young lady.. no longer the kiddish baby that i know a few months ago..

gosh.. so fast... hopefully she will grow up and be agood mother of 4.

I am worried for her.... my poor hammie one..

no more dun wheels for her... no more bigger home..

now she is only staying in the little cAGe feeding her babies...

hopefully they grow up fast...

my hammie one..

Heart

My heart used to belong to me

And i Could never picture it differently

But when you come into my life

You turned my life around

You walked straight through my heart

And filled up every single part.

its the time..

its the time again...
hapi anniversary...
still growing strong...

im done!

wow..im finalli resting myself...some time for reflections...
listening to fix you by coldplay..rock on coldplay..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jBEYyHGbwto
do listen to this link via youtube...
its realli inspirational..its a song that i tried to find for a long long time...
it all began in ocs..heard this song before leaving for my 24k nite march...
saw thru nite..malaysia..dawn..rivers..hills..finalli..to the top of elephant hill...
got the rank...got the applause from officer and junior cadets..quite a memory...
it was worth it...
the other one..it was the trip back to singapore..this was heart aching...
i was a month in aussie training..a month with little interaction with ur love ones...
it hurts..n it gets cold..sometimes..u will ask urslef whether its worth it...
whether people suffer from war..yes they do..i believe they change...
on the plane back..this was the song...this was always playing...
till i reach hm..touchdown Singapore..end of trainee life...
it was worth it...
n now..as i type...its all goin to end..my army years...
it put thru through pain...misery...loneliness...
but it makes me stronger..im sucha strong believer of myslef nowadays...
"when theres a will theres a way"..true...but now its...
"even when fate is against you..even when they seem no light ahead..push forward..have the courage..have the faith..and all will turn out juz perfect.."
enjoy...

~OUr TAning Story~

SOOn we were Sleepy Sleepy....
and Tired

SO we decided to go HOME Sweet HOme...

OUr TAning Story...

We Tan our back.....

Then our Front.....
I ask Darling to PIggy back me... but Guess i am too heavy...... hey Got to work on your mUScles!!!!
We Saw a PEAcock! *eys Sparkles*

Being Bored of Suntaing, baby started PLaying with the Peacock! it is so cowardish.. We only walk closer to it.. and it Started to run...
Why doesn't you Open up your Glorious Feathers for us my lady????

Tram Rides

We sat in the tram to Siloso...
It too bored sitting! So Darling went up and took over the fat Slow Auntie!
Its finally my turn....
But when i Drive, I caught him Sleeping!!!
boo...

~ OUr Suntaning Story~

So i slap him back to show Greater love for him...

HI BIT me that day to show his love for me.

After Sun Taning.....

IT always makes me LAugh to see my darling's "OCtupus' FAce!

OUR First SunTAning....

.
HHaha. we had a Great time there... my first bikini trip... our first suntaning.. .

OUr Sentosa BIKINI TAN!!

~ON bus to sentosa~ ~ON Tram to SIloSO...~

taken on 23rd September 2006

The meaning of TRue LOVe

hahaha.. enough said of my 'Gulliblelity'.... time for lOve life...

Recently i am so Happy!! so Happy that i found the LOve of my life!!!!!!!!!

today he said...' i love you very much and every moment spent with you really strengthens my

belief that we are for eternity.....' Awe.... my Heart melted at this sentence.... Cause i can feel the

sincereity in this sentence... i mean... i have been through so many failures in my past

relationships.... i have met

guys that are so selfish, crude, lustful.... or probably there are nothing worng with them.. that

is just how my personal opinions.. probably they are just not my Mr right.... i dun feel the

sincerity that i am feeling Right now! really.. I can sincerely say that 'infatuation' has emerged

into a strong foundation of mutual understanding and care. There just isn't another person in

world that I LOve so much, to the extent that i feel contented everyday just seeing my

darling. Even though we encountered failures. it warms our hearts knowing that we will always

be there for each other...Hey we started things really slowly.. 'like we held hands only after a

month!!!'.. Then when we really know each other..

I guess i have found fulfillment in life.. and the prince of my heart.. not my mind but my

heart...After being through so much with my darling.. the ups and downs of our lives... the fond

memories that we have just cannot be replaced by any other....Today we went back to Handy

road(the place that we held our hands the first time) Stolling hand in hand, we are as happy as

we are 3 years back... so who say there are only 3 months honeymoon period? i beg to

differ... because this relationship has proven it wrong.. and TRue love Do exits. now, at the age of 20, I finally understand that True love is NOT love at first sight, or saying I love you forever.

BUt

is embracing your spouse's imperfections with love and work towards perfection......

~GUllible = Soft heartedness?~

hmm... its september the 23rd... and tomorrow is my younger's brother birthday....

daring and myself bought him a MP4! mP4... just glad to have this little brother... I told him

that no MP3 as it is too epensive.. but haha.. we bought a MP4! hehe.. Come to thing about it,

he's my only younger brother.... hope he likes it! =)

Honestly at times, i get so angry with him for being so RUDE to me.. Fancy him Shouting at me

when i ask him to stop playing computer games during his prelims! Fancy him putting his plates

in the basin and procastinate in washing.. Fancy him leaving his books lying around the living

room... HOw to Bear with him?? BUt of course there were times when he share with you little

secrets? like having a gf... his inner fears of O levels... him abiding in your instructions! "Ah DI! get me

my HP!'..and he does it.. its the growing up with him that makes me realise how much i can't live

without having this little brother.... and Gosh... tomorrow he is turing 16 years old! i have seen him

matured over the years.... i feel so Old..... so old.. just How fast change is taking its poll on me,...

i can vividly still remember the times when i used to carry my little brother.... now he's a man.

a man who is strong enough to carry me.... haha...


Today darling told me that i am a Very soft hearted person... which make somewhat GUllible! hey i

rebut him at first note. But when examples were used... i sincerely reflected about it...

1) That day.

an auntie told me she did not have money to take bus requested me to top up her ez-link card...

She was limping and she looked poor... weak and skinny.. with a little hunchback.

and guess what?? I DID.... SHe looked so poor thing.. my darling said i could have just given her some

coins to take bus... ya.. thinking back, it seem that i was Dumb......or maybe compassionate?

2) Another incident,

an uncle told me that he has no coins to BOard bus at my bus stop...

I told him i have no coins too... He told me 2 bucks was fine! and I gave him!!!. thinking back,

hey i was COnned??!! i learnt my lesson when i see that uncle again at my bus stop doing the

same thing!... how soft hearted = how GULLIbLE!

3) Another incident

an auntie was carrying bags of heavy stuff sitting at the

bus stop,... She suddenly talked to me complaining of her heavy plastic bags.... and she has to

take bus when her house is so near.... guess what?? i volunteered to help her carry them home...

Her house was Super far and her plastic BAgs were sUper heavy..i had a hard time.... i am

only weighing 45kg... managed to reach he flat and she thanked me. I felt good... and told my

mum! she scolded me like anything... WhAt if She turned

out to be some bad auntie that has accomplices at her home...and robbed or raped me? At first i

rebutted ANGRILY..that sounded awful doesn't it... but after putting some thoughts to it... It

can be TRUe! i was Soft hearted which leads to being GUllible... stupid....

I really reflected.. and i think i ought to do something about how much i should trust a

Stranger.................. before .......................

something bad struck me....