can't believe wat happen to my life..they brought me to heaven and sent me to hell..
imagine a boy..of lofty ambitions..tryin to excel in everything he did..for who some asked..his parents?yes..they r old..they dun have much to live for except to see their son succede..his gf?for honour and glory?nope..juz to make himself stronger and better as a man..
for his country?definately a little..this boy realli wana defend the soil that he was riaised..every sweat..every cut..he wanted to give in and give up..be a man..some will say..he doesn't..he realise he can acheive better things..fight for more men..the higher he goes..
juz like he repeats everyday..i dedicate my life to singapore..
will u, my officers?
so he kept fighting..kept sheddin weight..kept trainin personalli.. he reached heighs he nvr imagined..it all paid off it seems..
the more we sweat in peace the less we bleed in war...he confided in it..believing it will see him thru..n till now everything was fine..
he could imagine holdin the sword..but it seeems yet to be
all of a sudden..some rash developed..ah muz be bites from mosquitoes..oh no..cant be chic pox..boy knew he had to report..he knew he will lose his sword..a direct fall from heaven not to earth but to hell..he couldn't accept the truth..it hurts if one noes how garang he have been...
its realli chic pox..saw the sir..thats it dot com...boy was absolutely devasted..had some tears in his eyes..if he cant make it by sundae..hes out..hes out?wats goin to happen...
the future turned real dark..god's will?he sincerly dun noe wat lies ahead..most prob hes goin to be a clark then be a clark..a man or be recoursed...either ways r all very very bad solutions..he cant handle the truth..but he muz...
went to see a doc that cost 358..wow..thats a huge sum...dad got him chinese med..he saw how much his family loved him..it made him felt worse..if thers anything he could do..he would rather go for the field camp even having fever..hes a little miserable..coz he noes his gf cares..that makes him wana prove himself..he cant give up the chancee..but he has to console his dad that his son juz cant make it as an officer..why? god?dreAms utterly crushed..
at times he looked to the sky for reason..he mug military stuff..
but the answer is simple and he noes it..he needs a miracle..
n here he made his promise..to train to be the best officer if he had a chance to resume...coz he wana protect his land..his men..his family..his future wife..
boy oh boy..
Thursday, April 21, 2005
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
a nice working day...
today today today.... feeling so tired now... hope i can zz immediately now..... juz had my lunch.... was plain yong tau hu.... nothing special... feeling so sick now... wishes to go home and rest.. oh God, help me.... wake me up! ya... nothing to do now coz my colleague not here.. called another 2 persons for work, but they did not pick up..guess i will wait unitl they call back.. actually i can ask rina for work.. but i am so so lazy.... *lazy*
darling juz called me... and he told me about pimples.. hehezz... so funny.. but come to think about it, think it muz be the lack of zz, the heatiness in him.. i shall try to cook herbal tea this weekend.. haha.. first time again! so excited now... hahha... hope darling wun get diarhoea...
went to catch a movie last sunday.. quite nice a movie i got to say..:guess who".. white in black house... a lot of funny jokes.. not the type of show i will indugle in for a movie... think this show didn't make full use o'poemf the technology.... juz a drama.. couldn't forget the part on the dad using his son-in-law's love 'poem'.. so funny! wonder whether darling really enjoy himself... coz he ws sick... so soory dear.. next time we juz chilled out at your place k? no more gg out this week.. think your body needs plenty of rest now... gg back to work le... 3 more days to darling's book out... =)
darling juz called me... and he told me about pimples.. hehezz... so funny.. but come to think about it, think it muz be the lack of zz, the heatiness in him.. i shall try to cook herbal tea this weekend.. haha.. first time again! so excited now... hahha... hope darling wun get diarhoea...
went to catch a movie last sunday.. quite nice a movie i got to say..:guess who".. white in black house... a lot of funny jokes.. not the type of show i will indugle in for a movie... think this show didn't make full use o'poemf the technology.... juz a drama.. couldn't forget the part on the dad using his son-in-law's love 'poem'.. so funny! wonder whether darling really enjoy himself... coz he ws sick... so soory dear.. next time we juz chilled out at your place k? no more gg out this week.. think your body needs plenty of rest now... gg back to work le... 3 more days to darling's book out... =)
Saturday, April 16, 2005
finally see my baby...
darling, i am sorry.. didn't meant to be so rude today... ya.. thought you were angry..so i kept quiet... of coz i know i am holding your hand! ya.. you made the right point.. i have to cherish the time spent... shouldn't let saddness overwhelmed our day... juz thinking today why didn't you pull the chair for me.. when you told me you pull for other ladies.. *sobs* think i am super petty.. and narrow-minded.. and sensitive... but darlin, pls pardon this "small lady" in me coz it is only normal for girlfriendjuz a little jealousy..coz you are my only baby... the day started with us meeting at je.. oh no.. saw baby waiting but i wasn't late... baby was early...Hand in hand, we went to Bedok...he saw the pancake.. and guess he was disgusted by it.. coz i made it at ard 2am.. and keep it in fridge then warm it this morning... looks a little soggy.. oh mine.. no wonder he took a quick glance and guess no more desire for 2nd glance.. hehez.. reached bedok, ate our lunch... and PANCAKE! hhaa.. oh mine! it tasted really bad but darling managed to stuff in quite a few.. and guess what he said it taste great! at least i know he appreciated my efforts.... butya.. the honest feedback was of coz not too gd afterall....went to shop ard for specs and contacts lens.. and dardar managed to get quite a good deals..happy for him...given that the salesgirl was friendly and pretty as compared to 1 fierce aunty, my dardar decided to buy from her.. haha.. of coz not! that shop was cheaper and ya.. he did his previous spec from that shop too...
then we went down to Orchard.. reason was to get my oven! haiz... but ya.. the oven which was the last piece looks distorted , dirty and "used".. so ya.. have to drop the idea.. went ard to look for other 7-11 along orchard.. but to no avail... *sobs* *sobs* as always, my sweet baby secretly went to buy my fav. DOVE choco to cheer me up! awe..... that is so sweet.... love my baby! juz realize i always feel very secure when my baby is around... think my baby is so wonderful a bf! i am so lucky.. (o'',O) as we strolled, baby told me abt his life in OCS... FEEL SO SO ANGRY FOR HIM! haiz.. what happen to all the officer to be.. always thought they were supposed to be appreciative, polite, matured and kind.. but haiz.. feel very sad for dear.. coz he has to bear all these unappreciative ple.. rude and childish.. Thank God my darling has high tolerance level.. if not, i think he ould have erupted...darlin.. life isn't that bad ya.. at least you still have a happy family, alwasy behind you... and mrs liew who will try her best to be there too....darling, though i can't change them, but God can. i will pray that they do reflections upon themselves and realize how mean they had been.. its so tough on my baby... dun be demoralised k.. only got to be with them for a few months and everything will be over.. talk more to better ple k.. hurts me to see you being "bullied".. or maybe ya.. as what you said, " one only has one life, so live it! choose to be happy..." love my baby.. had a great saturday.
then we went down to Orchard.. reason was to get my oven! haiz... but ya.. the oven which was the last piece looks distorted , dirty and "used".. so ya.. have to drop the idea.. went ard to look for other 7-11 along orchard.. but to no avail... *sobs* *sobs* as always, my sweet baby secretly went to buy my fav. DOVE choco to cheer me up! awe..... that is so sweet.... love my baby! juz realize i always feel very secure when my baby is around... think my baby is so wonderful a bf! i am so lucky.. (o'',O) as we strolled, baby told me abt his life in OCS... FEEL SO SO ANGRY FOR HIM! haiz.. what happen to all the officer to be.. always thought they were supposed to be appreciative, polite, matured and kind.. but haiz.. feel very sad for dear.. coz he has to bear all these unappreciative ple.. rude and childish.. Thank God my darling has high tolerance level.. if not, i think he ould have erupted...darlin.. life isn't that bad ya.. at least you still have a happy family, alwasy behind you... and mrs liew who will try her best to be there too....darling, though i can't change them, but God can. i will pray that they do reflections upon themselves and realize how mean they had been.. its so tough on my baby... dun be demoralised k.. only got to be with them for a few months and everything will be over.. talk more to better ple k.. hurts me to see you being "bullied".. or maybe ya.. as what you said, " one only has one life, so live it! choose to be happy..." love my baby.. had a great saturday.
Friday, April 15, 2005
ocs
hey ther...me now using com in ocs...
thers this room in the cadets mess...
dear, i miss u...
ocs rawks!
thers this room in the cadets mess...
dear, i miss u...
ocs rawks!
Sunday, April 10, 2005
life now
wow...got a bit of time here..
finalli can tok abt life...
ocs is a great place in terms of food lodging facilities
but it be bad in terms of trainin..
for frends...juz wana tell u all im so busy i have hardly got time for
my fam n my dear...
so sorrie pals but ocs is choking..n i repeat chokin me...
but nonetheless...im feelin gd
pt is tough...run run n run..thats ocs fav pastime..now i love 2.4k...
currently in st term...hopefulli can stay on...
better frends have left..navy n air wing...all e best...
buddy goonna go too...
sierra wing is like bravo coy...welfare seems to be gd...
but no less we sweat...
life goes on..hectic..high pace
+more pimples...
goin in soon to learn arms...
love dear
love fam
god bless all.
finalli can tok abt life...
ocs is a great place in terms of food lodging facilities
but it be bad in terms of trainin..
for frends...juz wana tell u all im so busy i have hardly got time for
my fam n my dear...
so sorrie pals but ocs is choking..n i repeat chokin me...
but nonetheless...im feelin gd
pt is tough...run run n run..thats ocs fav pastime..now i love 2.4k...
currently in st term...hopefulli can stay on...
better frends have left..navy n air wing...all e best...
buddy goonna go too...
sierra wing is like bravo coy...welfare seems to be gd...
but no less we sweat...
life goes on..hectic..high pace
+more pimples...
goin in soon to learn arms...
love dear
love fam
god bless all.
Saturday, April 09, 2005
officers creed
im an officer of the singapore armed forces
my duty is to lead, to excel and to overcome
i lead my men by example
i answer for their trainin, moral and discipline
i must excel in everything i do
i serve with pride, honour and integrity
i will overcome adversity with courage, fortitude and determination
i deticate my life to singapore
sierra......
dear...im sorry i broke my promise but timing was realli bad
hope u accept my apologies
my duty is to lead, to excel and to overcome
i lead my men by example
i answer for their trainin, moral and discipline
i must excel in everything i do
i serve with pride, honour and integrity
i will overcome adversity with courage, fortitude and determination
i deticate my life to singapore
sierra......
dear...im sorry i broke my promise but timing was realli bad
hope u accept my apologies
Monday, April 04, 2005
Parent(plus gf) visiting day
met up with darling! so so happy! =) eyes glimmered.... though its been only 5 days, its seems like years since i last met him... miss him...... he still looks the same, with the usual cute look and cheeky smile...=) not a lot of pimples darling....=) we went to tour around the whole of OCS.. wow! as what he always tell me, it is really awesome.... i must say that practically everywhere, it is very neat, clean and tidy... i was amazed that i saw no litters... wow.. went to the tower.. took a very small lift...and went all the way up...the magnificent sight coupled with the cooling breeze sums it all...... BEAUTIFUL. one could see the industrial area and neighbourhood from here... it is supposed to mean something but i forget what it is. hehehz... darling's bunk is so neat. The design is so hostel-like.. with 2 beds, 2 cupboards, 2 shelves and a long table wit computer.. i think i wouldn't mind having a room like that.. next, the most impt place, the dining hall.. wow... given that there is a stage, clean big tables... individual comfortable chairs... nice environment with wonderful circulation of air.. and even speakers which will have music on during meals time.. one can imagine the luxury of dining there.... haha.. at least i know my darling is well looked after... or maybe very well looked after.. =) after that, we settled down at a air conditioned recreation centre in OCS..(i forget the name again)hehez...with videos,comfortable sofas, high chairs.. and tables, nice tea, coffee, hot choco... wow..BUT i think darling hasn't had much time to visit there....As the saying goes,"can't judge a book by its cover", these are only the exterior... the training is tough...both mentally & physically tough..After all, think the main comfort i derived would be to have darling walking by me.. its seems like a very long time since i last walked with him.....think a simple walk means much when you can't be with your loved ones always.. Time flies, we needed to leave.... argh... dun feel like leaving at all... its gonna be ages before i get to see darling again... ya.... left in his dad's car.... started to miss somebody... somebody who is so close in heart but so far on land...... but ya.. its worth the wait darling.. coz deep in my heart i know that we really love each other.... 3 & 1/2 days and counting....=)
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
=)
i am now working as i blogged..
if you wonder whats my life now... here it goes,
730am: wake up.
830am:start work
630pm: end work.
730pm:start tuition
930pm: end tuition
1020pm:home sweet home.
the rest of the activities differ daily.... haha.. thats my life....though it may seems mechanical, i derive alot of pleasure in giving tuition... The kids can be pretty interesting cute... some are challenging... some are simply adorable.. =) and.. my darling calls me every night, life isn't as dull as it seems... =) hehezz.. thats is what i am looking forward to everyday... really misses him...... received his "last" call this morning and he is out for field camp for two days two nights... awe........ no calls for 2 nights.. how to survivie........ (*.*) miss you..... but yup! gonna see him on sunday.. his parent visiting day... haha.. there's a mixture of feelings within me.. gg to go with his parents.. feels very shy.. kind of not wanting to trouble them... but gg with them will make the whole "meeting up: easier i guess... and i definietly miss my dalring.. so it is a must go... miss you darling.. gg back to work.... =)
if you wonder whats my life now... here it goes,
730am: wake up.
830am:start work
630pm: end work.
730pm:start tuition
930pm: end tuition
1020pm:home sweet home.
the rest of the activities differ daily.... haha.. thats my life....though it may seems mechanical, i derive alot of pleasure in giving tuition... The kids can be pretty interesting cute... some are challenging... some are simply adorable.. =) and.. my darling calls me every night, life isn't as dull as it seems... =) hehezz.. thats is what i am looking forward to everyday... really misses him...... received his "last" call this morning and he is out for field camp for two days two nights... awe........ no calls for 2 nights.. how to survivie........ (*.*) miss you..... but yup! gonna see him on sunday.. his parent visiting day... haha.. there's a mixture of feelings within me.. gg to go with his parents.. feels very shy.. kind of not wanting to trouble them... but gg with them will make the whole "meeting up: easier i guess... and i definietly miss my dalring.. so it is a must go... miss you darling.. gg back to work.... =)
Friday, March 25, 2005
ocs
wow...ocs too fast too furious..everydae 5-10..unbelievable..thers no rest time..
full of lect n running...great food..much better than things out here..great shower n bed...
very zzpy these daes...very discilined..got my white bar...miss my fam n dear so much..
so much of classified stuff to noe..so much to mug..
to lead to excel to overcome SIERRA...
book in n out ic...section ic...
love u dear...be out in field..will miss u n fam...
take care all.
full of lect n running...great food..much better than things out here..great shower n bed...
very zzpy these daes...very discilined..got my white bar...miss my fam n dear so much..
so much of classified stuff to noe..so much to mug..
to lead to excel to overcome SIERRA...
book in n out ic...section ic...
love u dear...be out in field..will miss u n fam...
take care all.
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
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Sunday, March 20, 2005
continue...
Wow..its so long n i have so much of feelings in me..bookin in tomoroe..feelin nostalgi todae..u realli wana insight in my life?heres my breakdown..
5..wakie wakie..bros..i'll not forget..last to fall in 1st to eat..blurlook..pack stuff..wash up..pack bed..prepare myself for a new day...
530..fall in..always last few..include dicky n sloth..fs too..drink water..hey thers prob with tekong water dude..breakfast/arms..choose ur pick...
630..zz time..area cleaning restricted oni to book out daes...haha..
700..report for activity 1.."here we go again,same old shit again"..
10..activity 2.."lunch commin baby..hang on"
1130..lunch.."purple lite..."by tham..zzzz till 115
115..activity 3...
300..activity 4..im so hungry...
540..dinner..
7...nite stff..hopefulli thers snacks..most of the time too hopefull
9..pack wash call pull zzzz
11..lites officially out..
1130..zzzz
MY LIFE!...not too bad if u noe the activities n even greater coz of 58th bronco plt 1 bros
5..wakie wakie..bros..i'll not forget..last to fall in 1st to eat..blurlook..pack stuff..wash up..pack bed..prepare myself for a new day...
530..fall in..always last few..include dicky n sloth..fs too..drink water..hey thers prob with tekong water dude..breakfast/arms..choose ur pick...
630..zz time..area cleaning restricted oni to book out daes...haha..
700..report for activity 1.."here we go again,same old shit again"..
10..activity 2.."lunch commin baby..hang on"
1130..lunch.."purple lite..."by tham..zzzz till 115
115..activity 3...
300..activity 4..im so hungry...
540..dinner..
7...nite stff..hopefulli thers snacks..most of the time too hopefull
9..pack wash call pull zzzz
11..lites officially out..
1130..zzzz
MY LIFE!...not too bad if u noe the activities n even greater coz of 58th bronco plt 1 bros
Friday, March 18, 2005
welcome to my life...
Wow..10 days have past since my blog leave..n todae i decide to share how my life has been in the past 2 month +...kudos for those who fought beside me...
"Can't forget,still remember"....wow..7/1/05..d-dae arrived..parted with a msg to my dear..was travellin with my parents..6+n had to reach camp by 730..tekong..they told me it is a fun place..relax..which i agree to some extent..had to sign a form...for those that still have no idea..its an indem form...2 yrs of ns..thats wat u signed..had a western meal..swore in to..."protect singapore till death"...had to part n a new chapter begins...
Wow..saw ming quan..3 yrs ago he was my specialist mate..udi..camp pin..kinda close even as he went rjc..always encouraging me to mug hard online..one true brother..always...got to noe dicky..who was my buddy..very cool guy 1st impression..but kinda arrogant..but yup..hes a great buddy...never arrogant like my 1st view..haha..saw joonie..a sidekick...n yup..thers tham..i guess this bro is another close dude of mine..real close..could share all problems..love..life..hes an inspiration but the nerd lookin guy izzen like wat he look like at all..hes.."yeah baby yeah"..
got to B coy..saw lta tang..but tang dynasty didnt last...
Haha..cant forget we got to our bunk..everyone was so quiet so not bonded...haha..xcept me n quan..n yup..i got my bed beside this hongkie looking wilson..whom i gotto say deserving is our bunk's best..he lead..n he chases peeps..haha..loves to hurry...haha..got to noe abt sloth..aka joses..haha coz he sloth in the last..till now i still got no idea wher he was late..n to sum it up..we have jacko..fs aka josphe haha..real fit..john..jeremy..ERIC..n another bro yong sheng...
Went to draw stores..change uni..coz i was shrinking..thats gd my dear...haha..60kg okie?
open up everything check them n put tem in..wow..super heavy realli HEAVY..lucki for us..the egyptians found rollers..went back to camp..started to intro..realise some people juz broke up some peeps attached some peeps dun like girls..haha..xclude the last i guess..went on to do bmt.."with my rifle n my buddy n me.."i knew 14 daes was long..it was...
N our charismatic oc,pc,ps,ss..first oc..lta tang..nice cute guy...too bad in uniform..haha..soon gone n 1st warren john silva took over..im full of respect for this guy..he had to stay with us in tekong even when he has a wife n 3 kids..u could see the tears in that man..the amt of work he did...n thers punia..aka delta force best..i can see why hes the best...he tore his ligaments too so poor silva.pc DZAR..aka brunei king..he does have sucha look..dunno much abt him at 1st but i gooto sae hes a strict men..a real disicipline soldier..everytime he screw me..for lettin go of my wife..or using hp late..i realise its becoz he wans me to amend my errors..to be a better man..
n here comes ramesh..the closet to us..a funni guy who realli cares..n not forgetin his loooooonnggg RO....haha...sgt daniel..my ss..a real gig...man whos always playin with SAF wiwves..nice guy nonethless..haha..almost got me dirty..but missed his chance..mr versatile...
PS lawerence..aka..csm..cqms..slacker..adf.."kan ni no nei"..haha..hes what i call charismatic.. all the "10sec f*&^ off" the..bulu...the"why platoon 1 WHY"..haha not forgettin "my mother called me "@#$ %$#"..hes realli a leader in every sense n as i always sae.."every platoon needs a lawerence,daniel nad ramesh"..
so that is my life..i lived at level 2..not near to toilet not near to pull up bar..n worst i sleep beside window..n i literalli mean beside..its the worst thing coz its a place wher theres max insect max dust..max watever...unbeilvable..thats wher i stay...
"Can't forget,still remember"....wow..7/1/05..d-dae arrived..parted with a msg to my dear..was travellin with my parents..6+n had to reach camp by 730..tekong..they told me it is a fun place..relax..which i agree to some extent..had to sign a form...for those that still have no idea..its an indem form...2 yrs of ns..thats wat u signed..had a western meal..swore in to..."protect singapore till death"...had to part n a new chapter begins...
Wow..saw ming quan..3 yrs ago he was my specialist mate..udi..camp pin..kinda close even as he went rjc..always encouraging me to mug hard online..one true brother..always...got to noe dicky..who was my buddy..very cool guy 1st impression..but kinda arrogant..but yup..hes a great buddy...never arrogant like my 1st view..haha..saw joonie..a sidekick...n yup..thers tham..i guess this bro is another close dude of mine..real close..could share all problems..love..life..hes an inspiration but the nerd lookin guy izzen like wat he look like at all..hes.."yeah baby yeah"..
got to B coy..saw lta tang..but tang dynasty didnt last...
Haha..cant forget we got to our bunk..everyone was so quiet so not bonded...haha..xcept me n quan..n yup..i got my bed beside this hongkie looking wilson..whom i gotto say deserving is our bunk's best..he lead..n he chases peeps..haha..loves to hurry...haha..got to noe abt sloth..aka joses..haha coz he sloth in the last..till now i still got no idea wher he was late..n to sum it up..we have jacko..fs aka josphe haha..real fit..john..jeremy..ERIC..n another bro yong sheng...
Went to draw stores..change uni..coz i was shrinking..thats gd my dear...haha..60kg okie?
open up everything check them n put tem in..wow..super heavy realli HEAVY..lucki for us..the egyptians found rollers..went back to camp..started to intro..realise some people juz broke up some peeps attached some peeps dun like girls..haha..xclude the last i guess..went on to do bmt.."with my rifle n my buddy n me.."i knew 14 daes was long..it was...
N our charismatic oc,pc,ps,ss..first oc..lta tang..nice cute guy...too bad in uniform..haha..soon gone n 1st warren john silva took over..im full of respect for this guy..he had to stay with us in tekong even when he has a wife n 3 kids..u could see the tears in that man..the amt of work he did...n thers punia..aka delta force best..i can see why hes the best...he tore his ligaments too so poor silva.pc DZAR..aka brunei king..he does have sucha look..dunno much abt him at 1st but i gooto sae hes a strict men..a real disicipline soldier..everytime he screw me..for lettin go of my wife..or using hp late..i realise its becoz he wans me to amend my errors..to be a better man..
n here comes ramesh..the closet to us..a funni guy who realli cares..n not forgetin his loooooonnggg RO....haha...sgt daniel..my ss..a real gig...man whos always playin with SAF wiwves..nice guy nonethless..haha..almost got me dirty..but missed his chance..mr versatile...
PS lawerence..aka..csm..cqms..slacker..adf.."kan ni no nei"..haha..hes what i call charismatic.. all the "10sec f*&^ off" the..bulu...the"why platoon 1 WHY"..haha not forgettin "my mother called me "@#$ %$#"..hes realli a leader in every sense n as i always sae.."every platoon needs a lawerence,daniel nad ramesh"..
so that is my life..i lived at level 2..not near to toilet not near to pull up bar..n worst i sleep beside window..n i literalli mean beside..its the worst thing coz its a place wher theres max insect max dust..max watever...unbeilvable..thats wher i stay...
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
im back
haha..12 daes break from protectin singapore..a new journey begins.
but somwthings last forever.. my love for u dear.
but somwthings last forever.. my love for u dear.
Sunday, March 06, 2005
Saturday, March 05, 2005
"disappointed with disappointments"but its finally solved....
To my darling,
i am ecstatic over your results! WELL done! your hardwork paid off..... your two years of studies wasn't in vain...
ya.. he met his GOALS! 4 As and a B3! =) given such good results, i am confident that he can pursue whatever he desires....... CONGRATULATIONS! and for mine... i find it satisfactory... mainly because of the C which looks so "unglamorous" on my cert that i feel like cutting it away.... but ya.. i have tried my best dear.. no regrets...... no regrets.. and life goes on... A B3 for Gp is definitely out of my expectation! wow! By zzing my way through Benjamin kong and Anand lessons will never lead me to a B3.. but somehow i made it.. very very very lucky..... i thank God for these results..its a miracle! be it my dear's.. be it mine.. be it my friends... Thank God. And now that i have achieved these results,dear i promised i won't be as slack as i used to be... i cherished my grades.. its really because of you that i stopped slacking and worked hard during my second year... Not only was LOVE showered, you reemphasized the importance of studies in me... sometimes you were the "bad" man who pressed on me to be diligent... haha..,. and i dreaded it... but ya.. is because of all your "yong xin liang ku", that made me a A level holder with good results! darling,for all that you have done, I LOVE YOU. *MUACKS* I finally taste the joy of reaping my seeds! =)
And for today, everything went weirdly bad.... from the beginning to end, think i was so cold to my darling that i rejected a goodbye kiss from my darling using my body language.... i am sorry my dear... i shouldn't have... its hurting i know but i was still feeling disappointed with the disappointments... i promise i won't be so cold whatever comes our way k?The
day started with us going to SUntec for the NTU talk... Being late is normal, but guess its not for darling... he was angry with himself for being late for the talk... thought he was angry with me for the delaying... clarified with him just now, he wasn't.. just disliked the ideal of being late... it seems like a disrespect to the speaker... awe.. so full of ethics..unlike me.. i shall try to learn more from him.. thats how we earn respect somehow...
Told my darling why i always cry, whenever i see him these days... and now that he finally knows, thinks he can be more assured now.. Drifting apart is the last thing i pray will ever happen to us... i don't want too... Never. I can't bear to lose you... Thus, i decided to tell you everything... all the things that i have been bottling up these days.. darling, i always tell myself i have to understand... its not that you don't want to spend time with me, its time is not by our side.. deep in my heart i really understands, but the emotions within me just cannot be controlled: layers of missing you, the amount of disappoinments encountered (whenever we can't spend more time due to some understandable reasons) the chocolates.. my physics.. i tried my best to be strong, its hard dear... tears welled up by itself.... i hope you understand.. making you feel worried and helpless is never my intention... In doing so, i have instilled some into you.. i will remove them from you k? maybe by kissing you more.. haha.. of course by confiding in you more.. ya.. i am glad everything ended... and you are PASSING OUT! awe... but i think i will have no time for you in the weeks ahead... but i will make time dear.. coz i really miss you......... life is very very very dry without you always by my side... and now that we have these 12 days, i will make sure we spend time......... i MISS YOU...i really do..............................
i am ecstatic over your results! WELL done! your hardwork paid off..... your two years of studies wasn't in vain...
ya.. he met his GOALS! 4 As and a B3! =) given such good results, i am confident that he can pursue whatever he desires....... CONGRATULATIONS! and for mine... i find it satisfactory... mainly because of the C which looks so "unglamorous" on my cert that i feel like cutting it away.... but ya.. i have tried my best dear.. no regrets...... no regrets.. and life goes on... A B3 for Gp is definitely out of my expectation! wow! By zzing my way through Benjamin kong and Anand lessons will never lead me to a B3.. but somehow i made it.. very very very lucky..... i thank God for these results..its a miracle! be it my dear's.. be it mine.. be it my friends... Thank God. And now that i have achieved these results,dear i promised i won't be as slack as i used to be... i cherished my grades.. its really because of you that i stopped slacking and worked hard during my second year... Not only was LOVE showered, you reemphasized the importance of studies in me... sometimes you were the "bad" man who pressed on me to be diligent... haha..,. and i dreaded it... but ya.. is because of all your "yong xin liang ku", that made me a A level holder with good results! darling,for all that you have done, I LOVE YOU. *MUACKS* I finally taste the joy of reaping my seeds! =)
And for today, everything went weirdly bad.... from the beginning to end, think i was so cold to my darling that i rejected a goodbye kiss from my darling using my body language.... i am sorry my dear... i shouldn't have... its hurting i know but i was still feeling disappointed with the disappointments... i promise i won't be so cold whatever comes our way k?The
day started with us going to SUntec for the NTU talk... Being late is normal, but guess its not for darling... he was angry with himself for being late for the talk... thought he was angry with me for the delaying... clarified with him just now, he wasn't.. just disliked the ideal of being late... it seems like a disrespect to the speaker... awe.. so full of ethics..unlike me.. i shall try to learn more from him.. thats how we earn respect somehow...
Told my darling why i always cry, whenever i see him these days... and now that he finally knows, thinks he can be more assured now.. Drifting apart is the last thing i pray will ever happen to us... i don't want too... Never. I can't bear to lose you... Thus, i decided to tell you everything... all the things that i have been bottling up these days.. darling, i always tell myself i have to understand... its not that you don't want to spend time with me, its time is not by our side.. deep in my heart i really understands, but the emotions within me just cannot be controlled: layers of missing you, the amount of disappoinments encountered (whenever we can't spend more time due to some understandable reasons) the chocolates.. my physics.. i tried my best to be strong, its hard dear... tears welled up by itself.... i hope you understand.. making you feel worried and helpless is never my intention... In doing so, i have instilled some into you.. i will remove them from you k? maybe by kissing you more.. haha.. of course by confiding in you more.. ya.. i am glad everything ended... and you are PASSING OUT! awe... but i think i will have no time for you in the weeks ahead... but i will make time dear.. coz i really miss you......... life is very very very dry without you always by my side... and now that we have these 12 days, i will make sure we spend time......... i MISS YOU...i really do..............................
oh....
well well..finalli got the results..very surproised..very..by both our results..
thank god goe helpin us thru these tides...
still remember my dear was so worried..she said she didnt do well..but have mug hard..
realli worried that she will get things like BCD...worried she cant get into uni..
worried she cant be a teacher..worried she cant reatain..more worried for her than meself..
although my boat was shaking..hers was like sinkin..realli worried..
AAC..not bad i gotto sae..gd enough to go for a lot of courses..now worried that she doesn't noe how to use her results well..n yup..shes working..hopefulli she realise that come june..she will be back to studies..n as i sae..STUDY is realli impt..for now at least..yup..hopefullli my dear..u can make a decision bymaybe 11 march..then opt for some ntu course..some nus course..n pay up the appli fees n oso..try some scholarships.. dear..ther is realli a lot of paperwork..promise me to get it done k..i'm worreid for u..
at times..i cant find time to worry abt myself..for i think so much abt u...
for me..very lcki wth 4a..shocked my parents..i mean with all their surpport..all their car n concern..i wana be someone in life..no doubt im worried abt whether love n study can be complimented..but my ans is yup, it can.my goal in life..get some bank related scholarship..study buiz n acct..work real hard..haha..no need to sign on to the army..haha..but i muz work hard...for i satisfaction n my fam n my dear..
dear..u r always part of me..or another word..u have me...
thank god goe helpin us thru these tides...
still remember my dear was so worried..she said she didnt do well..but have mug hard..
realli worried that she will get things like BCD...worried she cant get into uni..
worried she cant be a teacher..worried she cant reatain..more worried for her than meself..
although my boat was shaking..hers was like sinkin..realli worried..
AAC..not bad i gotto sae..gd enough to go for a lot of courses..now worried that she doesn't noe how to use her results well..n yup..shes working..hopefulli she realise that come june..she will be back to studies..n as i sae..STUDY is realli impt..for now at least..yup..hopefullli my dear..u can make a decision bymaybe 11 march..then opt for some ntu course..some nus course..n pay up the appli fees n oso..try some scholarships.. dear..ther is realli a lot of paperwork..promise me to get it done k..i'm worreid for u..
at times..i cant find time to worry abt myself..for i think so much abt u...
for me..very lcki wth 4a..shocked my parents..i mean with all their surpport..all their car n concern..i wana be someone in life..no doubt im worried abt whether love n study can be complimented..but my ans is yup, it can.my goal in life..get some bank related scholarship..study buiz n acct..work real hard..haha..no need to sign on to the army..haha..but i muz work hard...for i satisfaction n my fam n my dear..
dear..u r always part of me..or another word..u have me...
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