Food for thoughts

I have a elder brother that always stay at home these days as he is unemployed and it really pisses me off..
Sometimes I wander why it pisses me off whenever I see him not working.
I reflected and come up with some suggestions,

1) I cannot stand seeing a person not working when he is full of debts,(I am just so pushy.. I have learnt to take a look at things from other perspective, which is at least he is trying to find one.. no point getting all work out..)
2) I cannot stand people, young adults, smoking, when the money to smoke comes from parents... I just cannot stand it... This is something that I reflected and reflected and still cannot make sense and guess will never be able to tolerate such nonsense... I am trying to treat him as a transient in the house and totally ignore his existence, and his smelly smoke..
3) I have a formed-up personality and am increasing my self-awareness with a huge dosage of intolerance. (Prob the more I tolerate, the lower my intolerance threshold becomes. still trying to accept rather than tolerate..)

At least, I have a purpose in life, that is, by the time I am 25, I must get married and leave the house!
I will still come back to visit my parents and younger bro. And by then, at least I can leave the house knowing that I have done my part as a filial daughter, a responsible elder sis and a trying younger sis.

This is my thoughts for the day.

I hope tonight will be better.