i am but a murderer...

the sun is bright
because my exams have finally ended.
my dog had been walking on two legs.
hurt to see him in pain.
i brought him to the vet.
vet told me something that left me in tears.
my dog is paralysed.
He hurt his spinal cord.
i dun know how.
i dun know when.
i dun know everything about the dog.
I only befriended it in September 06.
i resist having it as i felt that handling a dog is a chore.
But when my mum insisted.
Then, i stop the resistance and began accepting him.
It isn't easy intially because he shits everywhere..
BUt soon, I found him adorable.
He is very obedient
A dog that doesn't bark,
A dog that doesn;t bite.
A dog that gets so happy that he shakes his tail vigorously by luring him with a piece of chicken.
and so much more... as much as i dread him pooing everywhere.
love for the dog developed.


Today i receive his death certificate.
i signed the piece of agreement to have him put to sleep.
Doctor told me that there was no hope of him recovering.
His conditions would only worsens as time prelude..
He is paralysed.
I cried.
I sob.
I coundn't think clearly.
I asked for alternatives.
BUt the more he justified the need to put him to sleep.
I I I am but a murderer.
I did consider,
That is the best choice for him.
Poo poo no more
Mum Mum no more
Up Up no more.
and Pain no more.
He had been relieved of the suffering.
I hope thats the best for him.