i am but a murderer...

the sun is bright
because my exams have finally ended.
my dog had been walking on two legs.
hurt to see him in pain.
i brought him to the vet.
vet told me something that left me in tears.
my dog is paralysed.
He hurt his spinal cord.
i dun know how.
i dun know when.
i dun know everything about the dog.
I only befriended it in September 06.
i resist having it as i felt that handling a dog is a chore.
But when my mum insisted.
Then, i stop the resistance and began accepting him.
It isn't easy intially because he shits everywhere..
BUt soon, I found him adorable.
He is very obedient
A dog that doesn't bark,
A dog that doesn;t bite.
A dog that gets so happy that he shakes his tail vigorously by luring him with a piece of chicken.
and so much more... as much as i dread him pooing everywhere.
love for the dog developed.


Today i receive his death certificate.
i signed the piece of agreement to have him put to sleep.
Doctor told me that there was no hope of him recovering.
His conditions would only worsens as time prelude..
He is paralysed.
I cried.
I sob.
I coundn't think clearly.
I asked for alternatives.
BUt the more he justified the need to put him to sleep.
I I I am but a murderer.
I did consider,
That is the best choice for him.
Poo poo no more
Mum Mum no more
Up Up no more.
and Pain no more.
He had been relieved of the suffering.
I hope thats the best for him.

the week ahead...

wow..it seem ages since i blog...
oh well..i have been enjoying life...
been working..sort of telemarketer sort..sort of sales manager..sort of fun...
anyway...6 peeps got sacked..haha..ok then again..its quite hilarious when people come n go...
heres a breakdown...
watched a movie on fri or sat..think it was sat rite?...
it was an epic..the andy lau show..4 popcorns?...
anyway..i have been trapped..juz like her..buts shes worse..shes having exams...
for me..i have been reflecting...learning to lead a life...
sundae was the ultimate tired day..zzz...run...soccer...
it was an ultimate shag day...
had a real intensive soccer game..i thought i was fast and powerful...
i guess theres others like that too...
but i did well..till now..theres not many who can juz dribble pass me...
anyway..i was so tired..i juz felt weak all over..legs..stomach..head...
then went to borrow book for mom..poor mom..god pls spread ur love on her...
went driving..everything seem smooth now..also hopping to clear it tis dec..
if i can make it..woah..life will be more colorful...
anyway..todae..sucha cold day...juz awesome to be outta army...
n now..for one big decision...can i get my degree in 3 years...
cant be rite...maybe..can be done...
anyway..math+econs seem tough..then muz take phy..and muz cut short a year....
should i pressure myself..
n i realise in life...shes rite..i will be the 1st bugger doing sucha thing...
so much for christopher colombus..he made a mark u noe...
maybe...im next?

jobbie

help me...im trying to find tuition...
haha..no lah...juz want to help the society :) :(

simple life...

sarah liew rou en...
dylan liew...
that realli brighten my everyday...
oh well..my life is so simple these days...
temp job..make calls..meet clients..seal deal...
its quite stressful coz 2 peeps already got sack after my arrival...
realli looking forward to relief tuition until todae...my heart sunk...
but yup..life goes on and my love is always here for me...
anyway..shes mugging so so hard...
its realli scary..is uni so so hard?
i want to do realli well as a scholar...my future looks bright...
but todaes dissapointment juz brought me back to earth...
im not indispensible..no one is in fact...
oh well..hope to find tuition...
god bless...

life...

have u ever closed ur eyes n wake up to realise that u cant open them anymore?
think of what u will miss in ur life...
think of the blind...

ord loh...

the day has arrived...
oh well...
a new life begins...
n im loving every second of it...
for the army..i think all for the great days...
but nothing beats the pinkie...
nothing beats real food, real work and real home...
they say they defend the land so we can be in peace...
who are they? are they us?...
im still them juz not so mad abt something that wun happen...
im now ready to soar..ready to progress in my life...
ready to make a positive impact to those around me...

He was forced.... hahhahah....

So adorable.... thats my hammie 2