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haha..juz saw the latest news..ok i look super funni..i knew it...
well..i had a super tiring and crucial week of my life...
first the gs news..yes..im finalli gettin the moe scholarship...
i gave up the army one..but wow..the terms they have me was unbelievable...
honestly, i like the army life as well..ok i noe..many people will disagree...
but im stickin with it..becoz i went thru a lot and saw a lot more...
army is realli not abt greens..its abt a family, an organisation, a reliable defense force...
most people see army as slack..technicians..store man..rifle men..people workin in branches...
specs see army as saikang...
haha..my army experience till now has been juz awesome...
to sum things up..
bmt..recuit..ocs..struggle..train hard..learn skills..develop inner self..armour ocs..saw the bigger picture of war..tanks..apcs..fighting force..graduation..pride..self fufillment..unit 8sab..life as pc..
realli work like a normal worker..bike course..danerously fun..recee course..skills and survival instincts...not forgetin brunei and australia...exercises after excercises..from boys to men...
i realli grown a lot thru this 1 1/2 yr..i mean it..put me in a harsh situation and i can tell u i will survive...
although i wana ord..there is still this sentiment in me askin me not to leave..something so special in my heart...
im fortunate..humbled by the experience and still learning in my life..thanful that my fam and she..SHE is still with me..caring me..loving me..thank god...
well im hopin to get on with life..hopefulli can study the new econs+maths thingy and be of use to my nation...
juz came back from tekong in a dawn and dust mission..realli tiring..but i realli can see myself as a leader..caring and motivating..juz like my peers..ocs made us who we were and im thankful..
lost 1.5kg in 3 days..yup i didnt eat..but weekend was awesome..
juz came back with dear at at 3am and zz till 11 plus..gd life..thankful for it...
it was a mothers day dinner that was well but i made a few mistakes and indeed was very childish..it wasnt the egg..it was my character..
i realise im getting easily irritated and impatient these days..can anyone help me? i honestly felt like a better man in terms of coolness in my jc days..i was so well mannered then..
lookin back..im definately more arrogant and fiesty now..thats something i hate but picked up in the army...
i guess i got to rewind my body and look at the wirings again..so dissapointed with myself...
i hope i didnt hurt her super badly..wat struck me was.. "she was happy"...
that realli woke me up coz her happiness is of utmost importance..im so selfish..sorrie...
its been raing for a while..maybe its becoz i killed a life frog..nothing big an issue but i honestly had no second thoughts about killing it..in fact i didnt kill it..i disfigured it..i juz whacked its head..
i wasnt sorry..oh my..im so inhumane...but after killing..skinning and boilin it..i didnt wana eat...
i was juz too sinful..i felt...weird...
looking forward..wats up!!!???
haha..ok i have a weddin dinner tom nite..haha..so hapi...ok cox its juz happi loh...
later got a bbq...im gettin fat so control is the key...
but more impt my commando survivial training is whole of nxt week...
somewher far away again...
im goon miss my fam and dear badly..no phone..no food..no strings...
juz a survival kit , water bottle and parang(machete)...
fun but definately tiring...
till then...god bless...