before reaching chalet...my 20th birthday

wrong...

u noe something?
i said something so wrong for the 1st time in my life...
it was absoluetly hurting...
and im fully regrettin it...
it could have been the end of the road...
if not for her...
sorry...

my life...

yeah juz came back from chalet..im on leave..haha...
well well..rcc ended and we rushed back to camp on 220506...
memories will be left in my heart..creepin..survival..makes me stronger...
was so busy once in camp..so sad..coz the mood changed...
i mean..everyone is so busy so tense..heard a lot of grumbles from oc and fellow pcs...
btoc and everything looked fine but there lays a huge mess of politics i gotta sae...
well..it still gotto end and it did..had a beautiful thurs nite movie with dear..x men...
haha..then fridae was range..quite lousy..in a sense that everything was messy...
but there was luckily no one injured..phew...
saturday..duty day..sob got 2 big things happen..otherwise it was realli dull...
n this commin sat im duty again..then sundae is ex.oh my....
wonderful chalet..beautiful memories..loving my honey more and more...
more and more differences too..i said something that was like me - absolutely stupid...
but on a general scale..i thought all went well..realli...
loving my life

hmm... reflections again..

its been so so long since i last seriously pen my life down.......
didn't have the feel.. was very lazy to think and reflect thru....
juz read a newspaper article abt joan chan shu fang who died of tongue cancer...
very sad.. and my deepest condolences to her family..
she is only 19.....
it made me realize how fragile and precious life is....
I Love and will start treasuring my loved ones more...

Since my holidays, i haven been doing anything except but to eat, sleep, shop and shit..
haha... thats my holidays.until..recently went to sign up for trials.. wher ei bring kids around to Civisc District and sentosa,..
i have to say these kids are really adorable! specially the girls from MGS!!! they rocks!
not only are they obedient, their wit has earned my love and respect for them...
Civics district trail has also made me more knowledgable!
I leanrt abt the history of Old parliament house, New parliament hse, OLe/New supreme Court, victorian concert halls, King chualalonkorn, and many many many more....
Interesting time i have with the student!
recently i had also celebrated my 20th yes 20!! birthday with the 6 brothers!
Thanks Yan Leng jing ting, Maris and rui rui... they bought me a addidas pink top which looks very cool!! and my dearest vien. got me another PInk top!
oh mine.. what a Pink 20th birthday... hhaa. and I love it!! =)
hmm..... and gusss what i SAW JJ Lin JUn JIe! haha.. Yen leng's idol!!! think she can't zz liao....t
He looks very shiny.. maybe due to the make up? haha.. but sincerely, i think my mr liew look better than him.. wahhaha.... (0'',0)
lLlalalalala.....

taken after BIG waLK! finally some peace..

graduation

haha...i finalli hava jungle hat of my own!
rcc1 was awesome...
thks for e memories everyone!
work hard specs to be...
out!

survivor...

haha..i made it...
i came out alive...
weak n hungry....
haha..wat a memorable week...
sloth...

hahaha

happy couple 5

happy couple 4

happy couple 4

happy couple 2

happy couple 1

gosh... so charming...... *charmed*

haha...sloth

haha..juz saw the latest news..ok i look super funni..i knew it...
well..i had a super tiring and crucial week of my life...
first the gs news..yes..im finalli gettin the moe scholarship...
i gave up the army one..but wow..the terms they have me was unbelievable...
honestly, i like the army life as well..ok i noe..many people will disagree...
but im stickin with it..becoz i went thru a lot and saw a lot more...
army is realli not abt greens..its abt a family, an organisation, a reliable defense force...
most people see army as slack..technicians..store man..rifle men..people workin in branches...
specs see army as saikang...
haha..my army experience till now has been juz awesome...
to sum things up..
bmt..recuit..ocs..struggle..train hard..learn skills..develop inner self..armour ocs..saw the bigger picture of war..tanks..apcs..fighting force..graduation..pride..self fufillment..unit 8sab..life as pc..
realli work like a normal worker..bike course..danerously fun..recee course..skills and survival instincts...not forgetin brunei and australia...exercises after excercises..from boys to men...
i realli grown a lot thru this 1 1/2 yr..i mean it..put me in a harsh situation and i can tell u i will survive...
although i wana ord..there is still this sentiment in me askin me not to leave..something so special in my heart...
im fortunate..humbled by the experience and still learning in my life..thanful that my fam and she..SHE is still with me..caring me..loving me..thank god...
well im hopin to get on with life..hopefulli can study the new econs+maths thingy and be of use to my nation...
juz came back from tekong in a dawn and dust mission..realli tiring..but i realli can see myself as a leader..caring and motivating..juz like my peers..ocs made us who we were and im thankful..
lost 1.5kg in 3 days..yup i didnt eat..but weekend was awesome..
juz came back with dear at at 3am and zz till 11 plus..gd life..thankful for it...
it was a mothers day dinner that was well but i made a few mistakes and indeed was very childish..it wasnt the egg..it was my character..
i realise im getting easily irritated and impatient these days..can anyone help me? i honestly felt like a better man in terms of coolness in my jc days..i was so well mannered then..
lookin back..im definately more arrogant and fiesty now..thats something i hate but picked up in the army...
i guess i got to rewind my body and look at the wirings again..so dissapointed with myself...
i hope i didnt hurt her super badly..wat struck me was.. "she was happy"...
that realli woke me up coz her happiness is of utmost importance..im so selfish..sorrie...
its been raing for a while..maybe its becoz i killed a life frog..nothing big an issue but i honestly had no second thoughts about killing it..in fact i didnt kill it..i disfigured it..i juz whacked its head..
i wasnt sorry..oh my..im so inhumane...but after killing..skinning and boilin it..i didnt wana eat...
i was juz too sinful..i felt...weird...
looking forward..wats up!!!???
haha..ok i have a weddin dinner tom nite..haha..so hapi...ok cox its juz happi loh...
later got a bbq...im gettin fat so control is the key...
but more impt my commando survivial training is whole of nxt week...
somewher far away again...
im goon miss my fam and dear badly..no phone..no food..no strings...
juz a survival kit , water bottle and parang(machete)...
fun but definately tiring...
till then...god bless...

wow... Happy 2&1/2 years anniversary!

Fianlly exams are over! =)
haiz... but i doubt i will stilll be maintaining my first class hon
for the this sem... *sob* but nevermind....
as long as my loved ones are healthy, happy and fulfilled..
guess everything else is a bonuus...
todays' 8th may2006 is a SPECIAL day..
its our anniversary.... been so long since i reflect on our relationship....
up till now, i think both of us had matured in a way or another...
be it in he way we communicate, the way we behave socially,
the way we think and the way we love,
till now, i am still thankful to god that he had sent him to me 2&1/2 years ago...
haha.....
i can;t work and i have three months holis!!!
what am i suppose to do???
miss darling.........
is he gg to call soon????????????

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