wow..dear..love is so awesome..n im crazin over u..lovin u bits n peices..loving u so much..
simply..love u..
wat an eve...come to think abt it..its oni our 2nd eve..but tis dae was meant to be special..santa gave me my wish..n im so thankful..i feel like crying..realli do..but no..i wun..i must hold on..wat a dae..its gg 3 am..baby...i still wana tell u i love u so so much..i cant stop smiling..pls..pls..let me take care of u..for life..i realli mean it..wat the sun means to the earth..is wat u mean to me..i cant lose u..i sincerly cant..
heres the eve..me been shoppin so many daes for my dear's gift n i reall spend a lot of time n effort..tryin to get some special stuff..bear..skirt..shirt..silvery..xceries..hamsters..bags..shoes.. i went orchard..jp..cck..bpp..tbp..ps..thers juz so much gifts..so it became a headache.(dear..im fine now.)
so woke up tis morn..woke up early..n set off at 1240..shld have enough time rite?wrong..haha..drop 1 stop more..cant squeeze out..quite unbelievable rite? so walk all the way to ps wher thers more bears..more skirts..more etc..unbelievable..kids shld be so thankful..lifes so gd for them..went heeren..clock ticked..dear called..im like.."i call u when im done k..wait ok?" n msg "dear, 5 more minutes ok?"heart in the mouth..
Ayha!Giodarno..ok i noe its lame..its plain..its so unfestive..so normal..but that was e oni thing sticky to my mind..dear..i still think im so bad..yah..got 2 shirt..one sphet..one v.."s" size..ok a bit short..but can change rite?haha got mistaken as an ABC..think im gg drop my buisness conversation accent..im a singaporean..happily..no..worriely hush out n got to heeren..was walkin n lookin at the floor thinkin"wat have i done here..oh my..im so useless..its so plain..get a card?wher?got time?oh no.."worried...absoluetly...
finalli meet up with dear...unbelievable..coz the dress looks fabulous on her(dear..it does..do note that its not the other way round i.e.she looks gd in dress)it realli does..yup..lady..famine(hunger?ok i spell wrongly)..elegant..one word:beautiful..oh my..lookin at myself..im startin to get worried..but think im alrite rite?walked to 4 way junc...theneh..take picture!haha..so happi..coz..ok..coz..very happi..haha..yup..went up to heeren..annex isssit?haha..changed bills to coins..but the process was difficult..i got lost inside(dear,no laughin..think peeps who noe me well noe that im quite lost.)finalli took pics..wow..dear looked gorgeous..realli..then had to add design n pattern..haha..quite suprised that 2 science students can do so well..haha..got it laminated..
on the way down..
came to my realisation teenagers are so bold,daring,free,so un orderly..hmm..juz felt that from way people dresss..culture shock?yes..im no orchardbug..im libraryworm..n then got to the telephatic spot.."start with T ritez?"haha.."yah"..wow..think i can feel for my dear..yupz boaty at tiong bahru..very squeezy in train..as always..no seats..saw 1 jjcian..forgot her name..im sorry i realli have bad bad memory..
yeah reach tbp..n got our normal boaty..think the ambience is gd..window seats..hot food..cozy tables..yah n gd food..had our usual meat n veg boaty..awe..think my dear is so so hungry..tucked in le..haha..hotdog..veg..balls..meat..fish..rice wow..gd gd food..so full..but my dear is noT!awe dardar..nxt time let me noe okie?muz feed u till u full my precious..took train now to kallang..had some sweet moments wrappin my dear in my arms..so so comfy..so loving..so love..so loved..train to kallang was fast..."reached le?"i was shocked...
haha..reach kallang..tryin to find heaven n earth(haha for peeps out ther..no puns here..merely a drink)dear..i think cheers have..next time i muz get it for u ok?waited a while..for bus..everybody so dressed for church..think my dear got tired..rested onto me a while..not forgetin those "droppin incident" which i shell not discuss..awe dear..im ther k?n im not generous so i'll help u..board bus...reach indoor stadium...
dear was so anxious..think she wanted a rest badly..awe..im sorry baby..couldnt help u much..but got our way into the stadia..oh my..thers so many peeps..can u imagine the whole indoor stadium is full..as CHC puts it "capacity crowd" had a hard time locatin our seats..haha dear got so anxious..she asked this poor chap..whers this then listen to phone without his reply..then ask again..got some reply..but listen to phone more..then walked off..poor chap..yah no nxt time k?dear..ther r helpers..muz be more respectful k?haha..aniway i noe u r nvr disrespectful..juz got anxious at the moment..but dear..they tried to help..got our seats..wow.. the performance was spectecular..okie thers loads of songs..skit..prayers..but i think i shall sae in catagories...
thers a lot of hope..u look at all the peeps around..u noe religion evolves arnd their life..n in him..they find hope..a desire to be a useful being..a gd being..how do i noe..i looked at kid..elderly n teenager..thers so much unfufilled dreams that they believe he has set out for them..
thers a lot of joy...this church to me is so joyous..so happi..so joyous...people were singingg...with a smile..its unbeievable(its 340 so spelling detoriatin)..everybody is so at home so in tune..so family..its sucha joy.."silent nite..holy nite.."feels so so gd..
thers a lot of entertainment..which i strongly detest coz i dun think wanted peeps to break their bones for that..n a very dramatic skit..okie..thats seriously wat i dun like..thats entertainment..i noe its christmas..but i would like to sae: we celebrate this dae for he was born to salvage mankind..not for entertainment..maybe more love for god..CHC..food for thought....
thers lotz of manipulation..the pestor is the best salesperson..if u realise he lead his congregtion thru a series of questuons..answers..self comforts..relation to all men..n high regard to him..dear this is actualli a way of manipulation..ask any phycologist..this guy is powerful..he controls people's mind..thats scary..im not one of them luckily..
but overall its a lively church no doubt..think im more in for quiet hymns..prayers..songs..dear..
u dun have to be loud to get to him..u have to be sincere..feel it..sing it..not the other way..no offences CHC but honestly..how many peeps pray n dun feel for him..im worried..i looked around..peeps were playin hp games or msgs..not a gd sign at all...but yup..gtg n left at 9+
SO COLD..haha..hug u tight in the bus..n lay a kiss on ur face..dear..hopefulli it somehows warm ur heart...took train back..dear was famish yet tired..poor thing..but can smell cake le..so decided to hang on..found seats..n she juz wrap across me n rested..awe..thats so nice a feelin...realli..me tried to sing..hymn..but juz fail to let u zz dear..awe..had a lovin time..n reached je le..woke up n board 333..haha..dear wante to open her gift..so naughty..so love u...haha..on 333 okie?(dear i cant make it le..its gg 4..will finish it soon ok?muack!)
n im back its 5 now haha..5pm..christmas dae..still tired..(for those who think i logged for 13hrs no i woke at 10 n got to go somewher)...yah..so we went up n my dear opened her present..heartbeat so fast..yet so scared to dissapoint..very worried..but my dear saw it n she was happi..awe..dear..thks for loving my norm xmas gift..next yr be better k..but my dear kept liking it..think she was so happy.."thats what i wanted".."thats e color"..felt so gd when u r happi dear..well..got quite a few kisses..awe so sweet..love ur lips to bits le..saw dead was so happi..so xingfu..awe..a few more kisses..awe so much vive and love..dear..i treasure ur love..realli do..
Accompanied dardar home..yup its aunties birthdae..haha..i was pretty nervous realli..but i noe if i went my dear would be so so happy..n she was..hugged me and told me dun worry...phew.. got into her hm..greeted auntie..bro..gave the pressies..cut cake n eat cake..think her mom was happy..i mean she welcomed me so much..but yah think she got quite serious after the "sweepin and moppin" incident..over-sensitive?definately not..think can feel shes a little angry..realli dear..trust my instincts k?n wasnt happy with dear coz i accidentally saw what i didnt want to see..oh my..yah..quite disapointed the way dear behaved at hm..i mean..dear's 19..n as a lady..obviously i hope she tries to be more protective and sensitive over some stuff..dear.. treasure urself okie?left her place soon...
Got near bustop..gotto say i didnt wana sae gd bye..was hoppin dear asked me to stay..think not her..was pacin..dug my pockets..look back..look up..no shadows again..think i realli showed my displeasure or nuisance..but i juz wanted to let her noe..some impt things muz(not shld) be done in some ways..kinda disspointed that as a bf...coz juz thought all girls noe its not to rite to be less careful in some issues..(for those who dun understand..dun think dirty pls..although contents sound explicit)
Think i went hm...and open pressie..love it dear..muackz!belt(need to slim)...wallet(need to fatten)haha..but i treasure them dear..co its from u..ask bag if need clarification...awe so sweet..decided to call dear to prevent unhappiness over e issues or nonsense i started..think she was fine..realli?...went hm..nobody..gosh shouldnt have left..maybe she shld not let me leave..
think my parents n sis were party animals(former reach hm 13o..latter reach hm 230)..at 1145 i was early..so sad..miss u so much..n called dear..think i made her tear in the conversation..
"why didnt u stop me"..how selfish can i be..but all guys wana feel loved at times like that..
nonsense?yes.love?yes.why cant i stop her..dear..think its easier for u to sae somehow..but maybe not u..couldnt remember guys stopin girls oni remember the other way round..Chauvinistic?pride?egoistic?yes but i guess somehow all guys are a little at times..baby pardon me for the nonsense k..actualli..u dun have to live with them..but love prevailed...i was juz wishin if thers god..pls allow santa to grant me a wish..i wana see her..n guess..guess..guess..
My god..shes here..she lied to me..n it was 1230..so late..dear.im shocked..im touched..n yes there was some tears..i had to withstand it..cant cry..she was tearin..i hug her so tight nit seemed forever..we then went to sit..(i pinched myself okie?)..ther was my love..awe..i try to hush her up..awe..we realli kissed n made up..it was a long deep one..think 2X..so much love n emotions..feelings...affection..awe...held her tight..wana let her noe i love her so much..she hide in my arms..she said she loved it.."can i rest forever".."yeah if u let me marry u".."shoulders so cusiohin..feel so gd"..in my head..i was praying..dear..i swear i will love n cherish u..n one dae i muz marry u..im urs..sounds mawkish..but love is so sweet..so affectionate..awe..think my dear loved me so much..she rested for a while..but i swear she will be the oni woman to rest there..oni woman..no others(not even mom)..hugged her tight and told her we had to bid goodbye..gave her one last kiss..muack..n saw her to the taxi back...
Wat a nite..to god..i oni have 1 wish..i sincerly want to marry my dear..love her and cherish her for the rest of her life..pls..pls..pls..grant me my wish..i swear i'll try my utmost to protect and respect her..never to ill treat her..coz this is the least she deserve----my love.
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