its a nicey nicey evening...

Sch had been going on for weeks but i have yet to convince myself that holidays were over!!!
This holidays seemed short with many acitivities, project and 'cca' happening in the same month... Busy Busy Busy....
This sem i seem to have more breaks and lesser modules. maybe because i only have 5 modules.... The least no. among all my previous sems... Shiok ar! =)
I took up chinese brush painting as my general elective...

On the first not, you might think its 'De..............' Why so CHeena?
Upon further thinking, *see some light* Actually its pretty interesting and i get to pick up a new skill which i will never get to learn if i never yearn.
Thus, I am VERY excited over this module!!!! If it is not graded, i would have taken it up without any hesitation.... Anyway, i had already taken it up.. can't regret.

If i get a A, (to all my friends out there), i would paint one little beautiful painting for you guys coming next Chinese New Year! hahahaha... And if you think some objects look a little extract..... that is because i am learning to be the 2nd 'PIcasso'...*winks*
Really excited to attend the chinese brush painting this friday.....Hope it doesn't disappoint.

teaching

its realli tiring...
realli fun...
its something i truely enjoy...

life now...

oh yeah oh yeah...
im realli likig it...
tidae 1st dae in sch..as a teacher..part time..but still full of responsibilities...
its realli interesting..lots of self development time...
lots of things to learn...
its like going thru an army induction...
minus the politics..the pain..the pressure...
i have to thank all who helped me ease in...
esp mr yip..hes really been understanding and helpful...
doing up lesson plans now...
enjoying my another new found freedom...
my gong gong 2? nvr been better our love...
hopes it stays honey!

New Specs.........

As i was walking along the streets, i saw my friend.
I wave enthusiatically! But he looked and looked... (ps. i looked real silly then) he dun realize that i am his friend! thats how bad wearing my new specs results in...
I regretted buying this frame.. it looks horrid on me... That stupid Ah DAi said i LOOked like an aunty! What has gone on my mind when i bought this... must be on impulse.... aiya.. but i have to continue with it for at least one more semester before changing it.. if not i am wasting my money...
BUt at the very least, my 6 brothers didn't give any negative remarks. they were supportive!!! and my darling, as always, made positive comments.. haha.. at least i am comforted.
What do you think?

poor hammie...

anyone wants a hammie?
haha..muz call me @97465300 k?
love u dear.

poor blog..

haha..finalli some time to tresh things...
im gg driving test! hope will pass...
it coz $238...wow..think i could have used the money more wisely...
tats why...muz pass...
cheerz!

i am but a murderer...

the sun is bright
because my exams have finally ended.
my dog had been walking on two legs.
hurt to see him in pain.
i brought him to the vet.
vet told me something that left me in tears.
my dog is paralysed.
He hurt his spinal cord.
i dun know how.
i dun know when.
i dun know everything about the dog.
I only befriended it in September 06.
i resist having it as i felt that handling a dog is a chore.
But when my mum insisted.
Then, i stop the resistance and began accepting him.
It isn't easy intially because he shits everywhere..
BUt soon, I found him adorable.
He is very obedient
A dog that doesn't bark,
A dog that doesn;t bite.
A dog that gets so happy that he shakes his tail vigorously by luring him with a piece of chicken.
and so much more... as much as i dread him pooing everywhere.
love for the dog developed.


Today i receive his death certificate.
i signed the piece of agreement to have him put to sleep.
Doctor told me that there was no hope of him recovering.
His conditions would only worsens as time prelude..
He is paralysed.
I cried.
I sob.
I coundn't think clearly.
I asked for alternatives.
BUt the more he justified the need to put him to sleep.
I I I am but a murderer.
I did consider,
That is the best choice for him.
Poo poo no more
Mum Mum no more
Up Up no more.
and Pain no more.
He had been relieved of the suffering.
I hope thats the best for him.

the week ahead...

wow..it seem ages since i blog...
oh well..i have been enjoying life...
been working..sort of telemarketer sort..sort of sales manager..sort of fun...
anyway...6 peeps got sacked..haha..ok then again..its quite hilarious when people come n go...
heres a breakdown...
watched a movie on fri or sat..think it was sat rite?...
it was an epic..the andy lau show..4 popcorns?...
anyway..i have been trapped..juz like her..buts shes worse..shes having exams...
for me..i have been reflecting...learning to lead a life...
sundae was the ultimate tired day..zzz...run...soccer...
it was an ultimate shag day...
had a real intensive soccer game..i thought i was fast and powerful...
i guess theres others like that too...
but i did well..till now..theres not many who can juz dribble pass me...
anyway..i was so tired..i juz felt weak all over..legs..stomach..head...
then went to borrow book for mom..poor mom..god pls spread ur love on her...
went driving..everything seem smooth now..also hopping to clear it tis dec..
if i can make it..woah..life will be more colorful...
anyway..todae..sucha cold day...juz awesome to be outta army...
n now..for one big decision...can i get my degree in 3 years...
cant be rite...maybe..can be done...
anyway..math+econs seem tough..then muz take phy..and muz cut short a year....
should i pressure myself..
n i realise in life...shes rite..i will be the 1st bugger doing sucha thing...
so much for christopher colombus..he made a mark u noe...
maybe...im next?

jobbie

help me...im trying to find tuition...
haha..no lah...juz want to help the society :) :(

simple life...

sarah liew rou en...
dylan liew...
that realli brighten my everyday...
oh well..my life is so simple these days...
temp job..make calls..meet clients..seal deal...
its quite stressful coz 2 peeps already got sack after my arrival...
realli looking forward to relief tuition until todae...my heart sunk...
but yup..life goes on and my love is always here for me...
anyway..shes mugging so so hard...
its realli scary..is uni so so hard?
i want to do realli well as a scholar...my future looks bright...
but todaes dissapointment juz brought me back to earth...
im not indispensible..no one is in fact...
oh well..hope to find tuition...
god bless...

life...

have u ever closed ur eyes n wake up to realise that u cant open them anymore?
think of what u will miss in ur life...
think of the blind...

ord loh...

the day has arrived...
oh well...
a new life begins...
n im loving every second of it...
for the army..i think all for the great days...
but nothing beats the pinkie...
nothing beats real food, real work and real home...
they say they defend the land so we can be in peace...
who are they? are they us?...
im still them juz not so mad abt something that wun happen...
im now ready to soar..ready to progress in my life...
ready to make a positive impact to those around me...

He was forced.... hahhahah....

So adorable.... thats my hammie 2

check this out dudes...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AEgSSRjG4ac

got this song from "death notes"...
its giving me another thought about animes...

The Grumpy KIng and Queen!

finally the day has arrived!

For all who dont noe it yet...haha...
the day is here..im finalli off work...
kudos to the greens..they were what i wore for wat seems years...
life in green is not easy..i enjoyed..but i dun wana be in it...
ask anyone in it and im sure no one enjoys it..job or duty..its time to keep them...
feeling realii awesome...
felt a bit sad..saw a few friends one last time..caleb..kok chun..ricky...
some people i trust...while the rest..oh well...
wat a long journey it has been..something i realli must pen down...
honey..i love u..thanks for being with me..not awhile..but all the way...
n my family..for all the background help n surpport...

the journey all began in basic school...
the day was 070105...it was a tough day...
they say some people change..i agree..for the better...
so i went into Bronco..aka bravo..7 core values...
all the fieldcraft..field camp..5 to 10 days...
all the ippt..soc..bcct..n the route march...
days were tough..enriching..i made it thru..left a lot of true friends...
wilson..dick..bernd..ben..tham..etc..so so many..we had fun...i grew....
then the march the graduation..the pride...
i saw some tears in my mom..some light in my dad.. and i look around..i always do...
i saw her..waiting with the flowers..shes happy..me too....
the ground was filled with joy, with sweat, with tears...
i left heavy hearted and moved in..1 down...more to go...

oh well, ithought sispec here i come..then it was OCS...
i was happy then sad..9 torrid months..erm..not too bad but definately character moulding...
btw..im not saying officers are great..im juz saying most have the will at least...
i dare say im not great..but it was a major character building ground...
lets see..i gain lots of courage..lots of will power..lots of self confidence...
it was totalli different there..its like hostel life..gd food..gd clothes..gd everything...
but life is tiring..realli tiring..test after test..pt after pt...
i clocked my gold there..i did my 850 soc there..guess wat..both were my 2nd attempts...
im not gd..but whne everyone is there..u will be there too..somehow...
fieldcamps were the lowest moments of my life...
cant forget the casavac around safti and sdc!..hey it was full estab..i felt weak..
but WE DIDNT GIVE UP..we were special and we did it...
more was to come..petrols up and down...realli tired legs..realli saw day and night...
then it was chickenpox section fieldcamp...i was so hot..i concust..1st time in my life...
i needed help..i saw darkness...but we still went on..still remember doing charges after charges...
the knoll was like 45 degree..it aint funni with fbo..then the fastmarch..till now..shin still hurts...
then it was spade..dig day night day..that was all i remember...i was too tired to remember...
at 315am..i asked myself.." what the f%$# am i digging for?"...
i then remembered..not to give myself a life...but to give others a chance of surviving...
isit an honor to dig for the country? being logical,nope. being loyal,yap.
then it was graduation march..8pm till 6am...through the sleepy hrs...
they gave us ample rest..but there was the adrenaline..it was so strong...WE walked through..
night..midnight..wee hrs..a little light..finalli the sun..it was a 26k walk at area A...
it was 118am..we walked closest to malaysia waters..along the boatshed road to area D..
my back hurt..my eye twiched..my lids closed..then open..there was wind..it was time to zz...
then i looked at the causeway.."thats what im here for..i told myself..i cant let singapore down.."
it was a long journey..it was a long time..then we got the 3 bar..went back to camp...
the juniors were there..they cheered..we sang...till the end..WE walked together...we did it...
at the start there was 37..at the end 24...alex got back problems..a few had other problems...
a few could not withstand it..a few went to mug for their scholarship...
some peeps who were there..jinghao..joel..tok..albert..tim..cao qing..etc...
we left..for our final path..real training...

gedong..here i come..black berets.."once armour.always armour"..this will always be true...
its the punch of the army i always believe..the ones who turn the odds...
it was here i became a true soldier..lots of bad things happen..most faults lies with me...
but thank to a devil turn kind soul maj wilmot..i had a chance to live my passion...
comms..driving..gunnery..tactics..speed..firepower..mobility..protection..
ARMOUR..it was pride i got to say..all the servicing..all the drills..all the punishment...
imagine going out at 4am..service till 7am mount for excercise till 11pm..service till 1am...
no thats not it...sleep/duty till 4am next day for a routine of 4days...
i was realli tired...cleaning guns for 1 night and 1 day? what kept me going? PRIDE.
next was the outback..1 full month..god i miss her..i almost felt so far from her after the month..
but training in sucha beautiful country is something i will always remeber...
the vast land..the aussie sunrise..the kangaroo..the speed across plains...
it was there..i felt like a true soldier..it made me stronger..the world is so so big...
We made it again..bernd..zhanghao..eugene..pete..benji..fax..dan..tims..guan yong..etc...
outback over..it was commisioning..finalli an officer...i saw my parents again..
again i saw some tears in mom..pride in my dad..and in her..i saw happiness...
i made it...

and then i went recce...it used to be for elites..oh well..it was fun...
motor bike..recee..ccac..being a sort of pc led me to a balance life...
and i thank god for all the chance he gave me to be with my love ones...
i realli trasure them..i realli do...
more excercises and trainings..runs and battle plannings...
this is really what the force is abt..but theres juz too much politics...
way to much...
during my stay..i got to say i made friends..notably..caleb..kc..francis..lim de..zhengda..etc...

now its over..honestly its tough to accept..but tougher not to be glad...
pink ic is comming hm...
another phase of life..im not thinking abt temp...
im thinking abt school..abt being a scholar..being a teacher..having a family and being a father...
god willing..i will make it...

with her..with my fam..with my friends..and with god.

REAsons why i can't LIve without him

He allows me to Test my hair pin on him without complaining... hehez.. =)
IT was raingin CAts and DOgs...
IT was a shelterless FAr distance between the tuition centre and the MRt station...
So he ran to the centre to get me an umbrella...
While he insisted that i can't get wet and wait there....(heart melting...)
So i waited and here comes my HEro.. in the RAin...=)

HE carries my bag though its very 'heavy'...
haha... At times IT really is....
















Tell me how can i lIve without such a Sweet Person in my life......
my darling the red Nose RAin DEar is the BEST.... hahah....

Darling the RED NOSE rain 'DEAR'

` Answers to the 'Saturday DATE' mystery `

Looking back, i have been out every Saturday!!!! wow....When peeps are

complaining that they do not have enough time to mug... How can i afford these times??? Its

weird.. isn't it? Exams are nearing yet i feel alright to go out... Funny is'nt it? Shouldn;t I be

feelin the stress like everybody else? ? I am.. Yes I am! but going out with loved ones is essential in life...

So heres my answer to those that ask me, how I did that?

1. I minus my TV times
2. I gave 7 tuitions per week, thus i need a break then.... Saturday is my Break.
3. I can't LIVE without my him honestly... spending time with him is A mUST!More impt that my first class hons...
4. If time is really tight with tests and assignments, We will meet but not for movie or shopping 1st, We MUGGggggg then shop.
5. I try my best to curb sleeping in class, unlike my previous schooling years where i just zz on like anything... Thus i maximise my understanding.
6. I consult lecturers if there is a need to. (NIE lecturers are very helpful!)
7. I make sure i finish my tutorials on time by hook or crook.

Looking BAck, saturday just spurs my week ahead! i think everyone needs a break

from studies... to make up for the time lost for your loved ones.... After watching World Trade

Centre, the need to show love is much heightened.. sad to say.. people just died unexpectedly...

thus a constant reminder to all: Grades are not everything.

LEad A life everyone! =)