at east coast 

dear..as promised.

"For better or worse Till death do us partI'll love you with every beat of my heart And I swear"

dear darling..wat a beautiful song...i realli wish to spend the rest of my life with u..e instance..e moment..it was juz like e best feelin i've got in my whole life..never have my world been so fufilled..n u my dear makes my world complete..

wowzz..guess our love was tested..but dear..u always held on to me..n i swear i wun let go..miss u so bad at times my dear..it hurts..think Ns time will be tough for u..but have faith in me..i will love u always..

exams closin in..our 1st year annivasary as well...darling..i juz wana tell u..i love u very much n i swear..i'll cherish and protect u..for as long as we can live..

my dear going to NS le....................................=(

my dear received his enlistment letter le... so FAST! he is going in on january 07.... so sadz.... some tears welled up in my eyes... going to miss him lots....................... haiz.. but guess every boy got to grow up to be a man... yes.. my NS man.. muz take carez k... i dun allow you to say what fishing............. i hate fishing! so yes! no more fishes... i only love eating them..... ya.. today we met up in school at physics lect... then outside general office... we were reading newspaper... then we got off to knowledge box... my dear got FIRST in maths! wow! and received a 10 bucks voucher.. then ya.. got me to knowledge box and got a pen and fragrance bag for me.. awe.... so sweet right....... =) then we went for econs and sat together for the second time! and the last time...it was nice to sit beside him.. can ask him qns... talk to him.. and yes.... can smile and laugh for the lesson... no l onger the boring ms chin lesson.... =) then we went to makan... and yes... chicken rice! my dear was famished.... then we talk about some stuff which makes my dear a little concerned and woke up... dear dun worry.. i'll learn to be decisive.. awe.. this juz goes to show how much my dear is concerned over me.. so were he jealous? hehez.z.. ya.. then we went to collect result slip! yes! though his wasn't ot yet.. but think he straight As.. and B3 for GP.. how i wish i were him... ya.. but i am super happy with my grades! ABC... not too bad i guess.. then he see me to bus stopand waited for my bus and parted... had a loving day.. laways feel great to be with him..i cherish you........ =)

dear....think i am sorry... too emotional......

A usual saturday night dinner, but this time round my dear was still down with flu, cough and now sore throat....... hmm.. darling ar darling.. muz be good.. no fried food... no cold drinks.. until you recover k.. =) yes.. we went to jurong point and my dear had a new hair cut... hmm.. actually yes looks smarter.. but no much difference.. maybe darling keep until 10 m, then cut k@!! hehezz... yaa.. then we had plain foodd.. yes my dear really listened to me.. awe.. dear mus resist temptation.. =) then we went to shop around.. jennifer, and handphone pouch.... then yes.. display cat.... then ya.. my dear wanted to send me home... buti refused... in the end, we landed at different bus stops... awe... i am sosorry... next time yes.. i won't resist le.. then ya.. dun know why but feel so emotional, coz felt quite forced to.. but yes my dear meant good or me.. then i thihnk i kept super quiet throughout the journey.. yes some tears.. coz ya.. juz emotional.. then my dear tried his best to cheer me up.. i muz have been super cold. i am sorry.. a little silly... yse.. cleared evrything at night when we chat... so darling.. i am sorry..... i realy shouldn't have beeen so cold.. i love you dear.... ( stop lai chuan le! wakie wakie!)

11th month anniversary 

13102004 

13102004 

me and dear 

awe.. my darling is down with flu.....

so here i am online along....coz my darling is sick... yup! darling when you see this.. get well soon k? i can't bear to see you feeling so weak... love you dear...... yup! the day started with our mornign msg1 always make my day seeing his msg..... then we met up up in school for lunch... haha.. this time someonw was later than me.. =) then we went for econs.. and sat separately ..focusing hard..... =) yaa.. and my darling say sitting on bench to wait for me after class... what a unique "bench".... hahazz... then we went to get bubble tea... sucha hot day! took a few photos... so FUN! and yes! he tickled me! big bully.......... next time i 'll pull of your shoes...hehehzz... yup! we waited for my bus.. and parted.. so sadzz... how i wish can spent every moment with him.. yes.. and now he is zzing.... resting to recover from flu.. so poor thing.. dear God, i pray that you will send your angels to look after him.. anmd bless him with your healing touch.... darling i miss you....... yes. mrs liew sounds good...(o",o)... good nitezz.. get well soon.....

wowz....

haha..dear dear..tis blog meant for us..so write all we wan k?
yupz...had a great day..haha started to board train at lakeside.. thinkin abt how u gg to dress..wat a sleepy afternoon..
then reach n met up at je..saw my beautiful darling walkin towards me..yap..a bit taller..but much more beautful..maybe coz of the hair..hmm..she looked grogeous..
awe..sat to wrong station..juz prove i didnt lie to u abt my directions..n found subway soon..knew my darling wanted to eat some real food..but i realli couldn't find..quite dissapointed with that though..n yupz..subway seems gd..at least to my dear..wasnt unhappi juz thinkin abt our differences..hoped my dear would be more gracious a bit..but if it hurts..then better not..
Went to padang n lets get the party started..haha..but..2 lame twins..argh..so dumb..but yah..always comfi to have my dear by my arms..juz wondered whether she feels comfi or not..
Finalli..some group shows.very impressed by the rest of the concert..will never forget the love songs sang by the 4..stood so close to my darling..juz wanted to kiss her n tell her that i love her so much as e song would go...guess my darling was geetiin real tired though..
Haha..marchi finalli came..reali dun see how and why people are riskin their lives for such performence..i wonder can they even bear to break their body..esp spine and be handicap 4ever..a bit worried that my darling love it so much..juz hope she wun try it..yupz..
didnt noe my darling slept..but guess my bod is comfi though..never told me u were tired dear..finalli took cabbie back..
n yes..realise my darling was holdin me tight n oso..she didnt zz..
gave her a gd nite kiss over her forehead..juz to bid gdbye and to say i love u..no matter wat k..
took cabbie back..tired..a bit hungry n its all worth it as long as my dear is with me...

EUPHORIA 2004

we had such a loving and wonderful night together! =) it all begins with us meeting at 420pm... and yes! i wasn't late k... hahaz..
FIRST TIME?! hahaz.. i was in heels! and my darling i was pretty!!!!!!!! =) so rare ar.... speaking about direction sense... hmm.. my darling got lost on our 11th anni and yes.. we sat to the wrong station yesterday..... so do we have any then? =P then yup.. had my dinner at subway! what a healthy burger! can never forget the taste.. so refreshing! (but darling detest i guess) so much vege! here come the main event! we went to EUPHORIA 2004 PARTY at padang! wow.. not too bad! the stage was grand.. and we sat there listening to the music.. hahazz.
at times my darling was nodding with the rythem... it begins with th twins.. quite boring i muz say initiallyy.. luck my darling ws there,,, got him around to be my ppillow... boring? lie on him and zz.... so comfi always! but the atmosphere got lifted up when SHINWA appeared! then came 4 in love then some thai singer... then MACHI! cool! i think i cannot never forget the moments of our last song.. coz dalring.. i really fell asleep when machi ssang the last song.. (think you didn't realized?) =) so comfi to hug you and zz.. hahaz.. think my darling is my pat time pillow... (o"o)
and ya.. all along my heels are troublsome.. hahaz.guesss my darling muz be su[per irritated by my whining.. coz my heels are argh......... maybe i have got tot get used... then we went 7 11. and had our "feeding pest" hahazz... was it delicious? yupzz... then we met the fierce lady taxi driver.. lucky we didn't sat hers.. then ya.. a nice cab uncle agree to drive uss.. even though he is rushing home.. how nice... =) we sat in cab and zz... my darling was so sweet.. didn't want to trouble the driver.. alight at my house and took another cab... hmm.. so considerate i muz say... yes! so everything endds off with a peck on his cheek. and yup! i love the day! but i love my darling more! good night.=)

darling and me 

oh my..i created a mass

yupz..didnt start off the day well...yes it spilled over from last nite..hurts qutie a bit..but hurts my dear even more..i love her so so much..i mean i realli can give up a lot for her..tats why for me love is selfish..but yah..created a mass of things..shld have known better..shld not have asked..it was an answer i dreaded and an answer i got..i juz wana be more of her..i juz wan her to have more of me..is that demanding?maybe it realli is..hope that time can cure the pain and change her views..maybe my vews too..juz hope that im most impt..haiz..argh..why muz things turn out like this..why cant she realli forever be there for me?Is there an answer out there...
i need to noe..help me.

a surprised evening into a lOVING night...... =)

yesterday was darling's best friend's birthday.... so yup! he went with him, and i went to maybaline's baptism.... so hAPPY for her... but misses my darling... never thought that i can go out with him later in the evening... hahazz... so we went to jurong point... hahazz...so HAppY! Like a dream come through... then we went to walk walk and walk... saw my darling's new pair of shOEs! AS COOL AS A CUCUMBER! hahaz..
but really nice.. artistic.. with the "90"... ya... we went to play ARCADE basketball!... dear deaar! we achieved 42 points together!!!!! and we exchanged for a scotchtape and a pencil lead... hahahz! so memorable! =) then yup... we went to eat... and yes! got 'cheated" by lADies remember? hahazz..pretty lady can't be trusted! but i am "EXCEPTION"!!!!! HEHEZZ... Then yup.. got to go home le.. coz getting late... we bid goodbye and ya... starting to miss you again... =)

a usual yet special sch day!

the very day started with my darling waiting for me at the bench.... as usual we met and smILEZ! and chat... think its so BLESSED to get to see your loved ones everyday... then yup i complained i was hungry... within seconds he said lets go and get food... how thoughtful can he get,.... =) then ya.. though we didn't manage to eat together, we met up during econs and after sch... then we met lin su hui, and she said that my darling has slimed down! compliment or not? and i look rosier! =) darling, i didn't nui dai you right? =P ya.. my darling is alittle disheartened today... so darling, when you read this blog... i wanna tell you that yup! never bow to defeat... and dun be disheartened k? coz you've got someone that LOVES you A LOT! and thats me.... its a test, not prelims yet... still got time.. yup! always here to relieve your stress and sadness... never alone... can complain to me... guess got to end by saying, darling i love you.... always.

where are u darling..i need u..wher r u?

dear..its abt 825..body battered and bruised..need u..wan u so much this sat nite..shld have known better..miss u so much..wher r u..such a cold nite..so lonely..so lifeless..luv u so much..pains my heart to let u go..i cant be selfish..maybe i shld..

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing,
Watch you smile while you are sleeping,
While you are far away and dreaming,
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender,
I could stay lost in this moment forever,
Where a moment spent with you is a moment I treasure,

I don't want to close my eyes, I don't want to fall asleep,
Cause I miss you baby, And I don't want to miss a thing,
Cause even when I dream of you, the sweetest dream will never do,
I still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating,
And I wondering what you are dreaming,
Wondering if it's me you are seeing,
Then I kiss your eyes and thank god we're together,
I just want to stay with you in this moment forever and forever forever


And I don't want to miss one smile,
I don't want to miss one kiss,
I just want to be with you right here with you,
Just like this, I just want to hold you close,
I feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment,
For all of the rest of time

wher r u...i am so dead here..i miss u..

east coast

wowz...very very tiring day again..hmm..
yupz..we met up at abt 245yah at jemrt again..but my little darlin was early todae..unbeilivable ritez..haha saw her hair n stuff..she was so shy..but my dear..ur hair was fine..realli was..
reached east coast aft some lost paths n yupz started to cycle..
we got a twin-cycle..me at front she at back..very happy..very wen xin..but not fair! she didnt cycle me the whole journey..but even if she wans i wun allow..shes my oni precious so muz treat her e best..
dun wan her to tire out..haha..had fun riding fast n hearin my darling yell..reached e jetty where we sat a while n i said a wrong thing..promise her nvr to use it in front of her..broke it..felt bad..real guilty..didnt mean to..im sorry..
went on to ride n saw some palm trees n once again seat on the benches..think itr was realli romantic..wind blowin on a cloudy day..felt so fine inside..saw a "Bad" man..who haha..pee..
cycle all e way back..n yah some romantic songs..wanted to tell her so much that i love her...but darling was hungry..oh my she sacrifised pizza for me..im like so touched..i didnt likee pizza..she knew it..thats why we left for chicky leg..
got to ps..ate a lot of food..not realli by my standards..n yah got black carrot cake..guess cravin no more..haha..went hm with a fat belly..not oni me..my darlin too...
yes..sent her all e way hm..wanted to bid her a gd day n a gd nite..kiss her on ur head..darlin that took courage..but i love her so so much..didnt wana part..want to be with her for the rest of my life..love u dear..hope u had a gd time....

i juz saw him yestersay.......... thogh it was only a short meeting, it left me a sweet memory...... went to chen yi's house.... met up with him on bus 98. almost got up the wrong bus... phew.... yaa... he was in grey OBS shirt and i was in ORANGE OBs shirt! so coincidence! =) hehezz... then i had a craving for fried carrot cake, and he really went to search with me.... so sweeT!!!!!!! hehhezz.. after eating, we met a "cute" guy on the way........ he doesn't appeal to me k (in case somebody is jealous) (o",o)... coz i got him lee..... yaa... think it was a sweet short day...... i miss him le....

missin u

dear...after what happen yesterday..i realli didnt want to part..coz u look so so happy..didnt want our 7thmth to be like this..haiz..
n todae..u had to go buy presie...realli want to talk to u..miss u so much..but..i still got to mug..luv u deeply..

the best birthday in my 18 yrs!

30th of may was the best birthday celebration i ever had in my 18 yrs of life! able to celebrate with the one i loVE THE most! hehezz... the day started with me being late for hmm.... half an hour? feel so badzz........ but my darling dun mind at all... hahazz..so i shall be late next year too! =P then we went to have long john.... and sat all the way to pasir ris... woo! and its THEME PARK TIME! hahahahhazz...... we sat the FERRIS WHEEL for our warm up! then the innner rollar coaster..then to ALL THE EXCITING RIDES! WOWZ! unfortunately, there was a heavy downpour and we have to take shelter at burger king.... oh ya! my dear was so "motherly"! he assisted a lady to push her baby cot..... Thank god the rain stopped in time for us to catch the gOLD CART ride! we went to the wrong queue and waited for 45mins! coz we wanted an individual ride. but seeing that we waited so long, the assistant give in to our request... so nice! however, we felt a little guilty, making him in a difficult position, coz he rejected subsequent request by other customers..... Then we went to the advanced gold cart! wow! my darling drove so fast!!!!! but being the SWEETEST bf, he slowed down, and waited for me.. =)
HERE COMES final round! and thats where the "HANDS UP"INCIdent came in! hahahahaz.. we were so obedient, coz we are supposed to lift our hands for the lady to fasten our seat beltss. and we really did the actions together! think the lady was so AMUSED by our "obedience"! =P again! we sat the FERRIS WHEEL for our"cool down"...... wowzz.... what a lovely afternoon we had!
after our fun TIME! wmy dear treat me to my favourite dinner spot!!!! and that THAI EXPRESS! WOWZ!!!!!!!! THOugh i wasn't hungry, the thought of the soup sent my saliva drooling.. hehezz..
i really thank god for him in my life! coz he makes a normal 30th of may so SPECIAL! i really love the present! it was a present that really went through a lot of thinking and efforts! so thoughtful!(dear, i can feel it from my heart..... ) actually frm the bottom of my heart, i dun want any gifts..... really dear... i find you spending your time with me moST MEANINGFUL... =) though my darling can't spend 31st of may with me, but he has made everyday 31st of may till now...... i love you.