From a dog to a cake! from contact to Specs...

awe...

Thats my cake!!
small yet sweet.. awe...
Happy birthday to me from baby.

cool yet scary!

this was a surprisingly new element in my life!
we were inside this globe and the biker cycle ard us!
very cOOL! but scary as well.. this is after our theme park time..

PLay time

photo beneath we took in a tu tu trAin! haha... =)

Play Time

think the pictures speak for themselves!
we were at Themepark! and we played and played..
darling got more brave.. last time he dun dare to try this kind of stuff de... haha.. and we bought the GIGanTIC candy Floss!! so big that we share with the other kids.... it was like half of our height!!

my piggy

We checked in at about 3pm!
the next thing u know...
he is on the cosy bed le.....
PIGGY!!!!

before reaching chalet...my 20th birthday

wrong...

u noe something?
i said something so wrong for the 1st time in my life...
it was absoluetly hurting...
and im fully regrettin it...
it could have been the end of the road...
if not for her...
sorry...

my life...

yeah juz came back from chalet..im on leave..haha...
well well..rcc ended and we rushed back to camp on 220506...
memories will be left in my heart..creepin..survival..makes me stronger...
was so busy once in camp..so sad..coz the mood changed...
i mean..everyone is so busy so tense..heard a lot of grumbles from oc and fellow pcs...
btoc and everything looked fine but there lays a huge mess of politics i gotta sae...
well..it still gotto end and it did..had a beautiful thurs nite movie with dear..x men...
haha..then fridae was range..quite lousy..in a sense that everything was messy...
but there was luckily no one injured..phew...
saturday..duty day..sob got 2 big things happen..otherwise it was realli dull...
n this commin sat im duty again..then sundae is ex.oh my....
wonderful chalet..beautiful memories..loving my honey more and more...
more and more differences too..i said something that was like me - absolutely stupid...
but on a general scale..i thought all went well..realli...
loving my life

hmm... reflections again..

its been so so long since i last seriously pen my life down.......
didn't have the feel.. was very lazy to think and reflect thru....
juz read a newspaper article abt joan chan shu fang who died of tongue cancer...
very sad.. and my deepest condolences to her family..
she is only 19.....
it made me realize how fragile and precious life is....
I Love and will start treasuring my loved ones more...

Since my holidays, i haven been doing anything except but to eat, sleep, shop and shit..
haha... thats my holidays.until..recently went to sign up for trials.. wher ei bring kids around to Civisc District and sentosa,..
i have to say these kids are really adorable! specially the girls from MGS!!! they rocks!
not only are they obedient, their wit has earned my love and respect for them...
Civics district trail has also made me more knowledgable!
I leanrt abt the history of Old parliament house, New parliament hse, OLe/New supreme Court, victorian concert halls, King chualalonkorn, and many many many more....
Interesting time i have with the student!
recently i had also celebrated my 20th yes 20!! birthday with the 6 brothers!
Thanks Yan Leng jing ting, Maris and rui rui... they bought me a addidas pink top which looks very cool!! and my dearest vien. got me another PInk top!
oh mine.. what a Pink 20th birthday... hhaa. and I love it!! =)
hmm..... and gusss what i SAW JJ Lin JUn JIe! haha.. Yen leng's idol!!! think she can't zz liao....t
He looks very shiny.. maybe due to the make up? haha.. but sincerely, i think my mr liew look better than him.. wahhaha.... (0'',0)
lLlalalalala.....

taken after BIG waLK! finally some peace..

graduation

haha...i finalli hava jungle hat of my own!
rcc1 was awesome...
thks for e memories everyone!
work hard specs to be...
out!

survivor...

haha..i made it...
i came out alive...
weak n hungry....
haha..wat a memorable week...
sloth...

hahaha

happy couple 5

happy couple 4

happy couple 4

happy couple 2

happy couple 1

gosh... so charming...... *charmed*

haha...sloth

haha..juz saw the latest news..ok i look super funni..i knew it...
well..i had a super tiring and crucial week of my life...
first the gs news..yes..im finalli gettin the moe scholarship...
i gave up the army one..but wow..the terms they have me was unbelievable...
honestly, i like the army life as well..ok i noe..many people will disagree...
but im stickin with it..becoz i went thru a lot and saw a lot more...
army is realli not abt greens..its abt a family, an organisation, a reliable defense force...
most people see army as slack..technicians..store man..rifle men..people workin in branches...
specs see army as saikang...
haha..my army experience till now has been juz awesome...
to sum things up..
bmt..recuit..ocs..struggle..train hard..learn skills..develop inner self..armour ocs..saw the bigger picture of war..tanks..apcs..fighting force..graduation..pride..self fufillment..unit 8sab..life as pc..
realli work like a normal worker..bike course..danerously fun..recee course..skills and survival instincts...not forgetin brunei and australia...exercises after excercises..from boys to men...
i realli grown a lot thru this 1 1/2 yr..i mean it..put me in a harsh situation and i can tell u i will survive...
although i wana ord..there is still this sentiment in me askin me not to leave..something so special in my heart...
im fortunate..humbled by the experience and still learning in my life..thanful that my fam and she..SHE is still with me..caring me..loving me..thank god...
well im hopin to get on with life..hopefulli can study the new econs+maths thingy and be of use to my nation...
juz came back from tekong in a dawn and dust mission..realli tiring..but i realli can see myself as a leader..caring and motivating..juz like my peers..ocs made us who we were and im thankful..
lost 1.5kg in 3 days..yup i didnt eat..but weekend was awesome..
juz came back with dear at at 3am and zz till 11 plus..gd life..thankful for it...
it was a mothers day dinner that was well but i made a few mistakes and indeed was very childish..it wasnt the egg..it was my character..
i realise im getting easily irritated and impatient these days..can anyone help me? i honestly felt like a better man in terms of coolness in my jc days..i was so well mannered then..
lookin back..im definately more arrogant and fiesty now..thats something i hate but picked up in the army...
i guess i got to rewind my body and look at the wirings again..so dissapointed with myself...
i hope i didnt hurt her super badly..wat struck me was.. "she was happy"...
that realli woke me up coz her happiness is of utmost importance..im so selfish..sorrie...
its been raing for a while..maybe its becoz i killed a life frog..nothing big an issue but i honestly had no second thoughts about killing it..in fact i didnt kill it..i disfigured it..i juz whacked its head..
i wasnt sorry..oh my..im so inhumane...but after killing..skinning and boilin it..i didnt wana eat...
i was juz too sinful..i felt...weird...
looking forward..wats up!!!???
haha..ok i have a weddin dinner tom nite..haha..so hapi...ok cox its juz happi loh...
later got a bbq...im gettin fat so control is the key...
but more impt my commando survivial training is whole of nxt week...
somewher far away again...
im goon miss my fam and dear badly..no phone..no food..no strings...
juz a survival kit , water bottle and parang(machete)...
fun but definately tiring...
till then...god bless...

wow... Happy 2&1/2 years anniversary!

Fianlly exams are over! =)
haiz... but i doubt i will stilll be maintaining my first class hon
for the this sem... *sob* but nevermind....
as long as my loved ones are healthy, happy and fulfilled..
guess everything else is a bonuus...
todays' 8th may2006 is a SPECIAL day..
its our anniversary.... been so long since i reflect on our relationship....
up till now, i think both of us had matured in a way or another...
be it in he way we communicate, the way we behave socially,
the way we think and the way we love,
till now, i am still thankful to god that he had sent him to me 2&1/2 years ago...
haha.....
i can;t work and i have three months holis!!!
what am i suppose to do???
miss darling.........
is he gg to call soon????????????

latest news

goodbye my lover...

lovin it...
Did I disappoint you or let you down?Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.So I took what's mine by eternal right.Took your soul out into the night.It may be over but it won't stop there,I am here for you if you'd only care.You touched my heart you touched my soul.You changed my life and all my goals.And love is blind and that I knew when,My heart was blinded by you.I've kissed your lips and held your head.Shared your dreams and shared your bed.I know you well, I know your smell.I've been addicted to you.Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.You have been the one.You have been the one for me.I am a dreamer but when I wake,You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.as you move on, remember me,Remember us and all we used to beI've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.I've watched you sleeping for a while.I'd be the father of your child.I'd spend a lifetime with you.I know your fears and you know mine.We've had our doubts but now we're fine,And I love you, I swear that's true.I cannot live without you.Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.You have been the one.You have been the one for me.And I still hold your hand in mine.In mine when I'm asleep.And I will bear my soul in time,When I'm kneeling at your feet.Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.You have been the one.You have been the one for me.I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

life's funni...

oh my..mugging again...
haha..who noes..i may be back in sch this yr...
or then again..maybe nxt...haha...

*sob*

i miss my darling...................................
the very first exam i had yesterday
was the worST of my UNI LIFE! never felt so insecure after an exam
before since my uni life.. *very sad* i went in with the mentality that
i dun wanna to get a B...... out to get A...
but came out feeling so insecure of obtaining even a B.
But i think there's no turning back le....*sob*
juz have to settle down and mug hard for the other two papers.....
I thank God that at least i dun have to keep everything to myself.
But am able to share my disappointments with my loved ones...(".)
MIss him.............

sundae post..

sloth sloth sloth...
finalli back here with so many unfrogetable experiences...
well...
last wk was totalli east coast..totalli awesome..erm...
everything..bikie..foodie..everything..includin the 1.5hr ride...
im so thankful to god for leavin such beautiful memories in my life...
this wk..tired...
recee recee recee...
tired of stayin in camp..tired of lectures..tired of outfield...
haha..maybe not outfield..but the load is takin its toll on me...
am i weakenin? probably not...
fridae nite..book out nite!!!...
haha..got to eat with her at jp..share some quiet lovin moments...so nice..so comfy...
got to sent her home too not forgetin that haha..i SHOULD send her hm all the time...
not complaining..honestly..juz more glad than anything...
saturday was all about soccer and slothin n then..movie...
take the lead...
cool show..but more than that..he made blacks believed in himself...
awesome..salute the man man...life is so cruel yet god will definately put someone to get u thru...
sent her home again..before catchin last bus..zzzzzzzz..almost missin my stop...
saw an old frend..well..maybe its him...hes changed..not for the better for i see...
sundae..zzpy morn..haha..soccer and then a decent lunch...
dear is eating my share..she said she was happi..that i can truely see...
im too u noe..im...
well..juz weight myself..it says 64kg...hmm...that sounds realli gd..need to muscle up le...
83kg juz 2 yrs plus ago...amazing transition..but i wana keep it this way...
makes me much more confident when dealin with balls and people...
bally..footy..think im changing as a player..more aggreasive..more vulnerable...
i guess i still can improve...
juz like my running for arr..gosh..arr..oh yah..n soc...
goin outfield for nxt 5 days..combat ration..heat..tired...
all will come and go..its the missin that hurts dear..its missin...
but all will be an experience..hope its a good one...
good day gents...
n ladies...

Unforgetable east coast trip

HUngry hungry hungry!!!

Before east coast and the after east coast

east coast...

my life is brilliant...
haha..think let me darling explain...
sloth...

small...

singapore is so small...
many people ask me why am i choosin to stay and study and slog my life here...
well...
first..food...
second..haha...
ok that was nonsense...
to be honest..this is my home..my land..my everything...
everything i have..my honey..my fam..my frends...
n so..i will stay..hopefulli age..and die...
in this little dot that i call HOME.

*geez*

Wahaha......... i LOve you me man!
you know sometimes io envy girls that ar eso full of confidence, that has brains and lookss..
but i met my baby..i think this thing s are not that impt le
coz i have found a Man whi loves me for who i am.. and treat me with so MUCH love.. much sweeter than the prince charming in the fairy tale.... i mean i thought it only happens in fairy tale.... but it happen to me!
such man exist..
so here i am, no longer looking at those girls with envy... but looking at myself with much SMILES!
yesterday,.. baby told me that he will never go overseas for studies for years even if scholarship requires him to do so.. .. coz coz....he will miss me like nuts.................
so sweet.............

wahaha

can someone tell me why r people so smart academicalli...
more impt..they are gd with words...
oh well..think i blew my chances..haha..at least i made it to round 2...
well..got some hamster stuff..more impt...
tonite spirit realli lifted..i kinda wana do some piano...
well..tom im gonna be a trainee again..life in camp...
rox..well..maybe not..or then again..nvr...
recee..eyes of the army...
love u sweet heart..remember wat i said...

tired...

nah juz very full...
haha... :P

fridae

well its that time of the wk again..haha...
kinda happy with life these days...
but definately wana spend more time wisely...
the army is a very weird place...
u can see all sorts of people..even a degree holder..as a corperal...
people aged 24 as ur men...
respect?thats tough...

lallalala

wow...... finally a break... a break from school...... work.... from submitting essays, projects... research paper... tests.... finally!
BUT THIS ALSO mean EXAmS are coming!!! * FALSE alarm*...
which is even worse i thought.....
hhmmm... finally can settle down and reflect upon my life these days.....
been pretty easily upset these days.. dunno why ....
am i feeling too stress form work or is lacking in exercise??? i also dunno..
but i am really HAPPY FOR BABY!
as he had made it for interviews for his scholarships applications,..
thougth it may seem quite tough,... some required three interviews to get thru!!!???
but I am so sure with his passion and motivation for econs!
I have full confidence in him that he can made it!!!!!
not in the mood for writing.. think i will juz end here..........
kallalala..... in a happy mood.=)

updates

current affairs..
world news..
army news..ace..live..
teachin news..prime..
driving..
where got time for her...
(haha dun talk of e mistress)

*ashame*

oh no......
i am getting so super mean and demanding these days.....
yesterday my baby thought that my toes being black wasn't a big issue and i thought it was.. as it ha been ther for months le......
felt so upset that he didn;t care and made that statement, " things that are close to my hear are not close to yours...'
So petty and sentitive hor.. though he did mentioned that he will go and see s doctor with me if i am gg... aiya.. dunno whats happening to me these days! I am so demanding..... a small issue like this can makes me so upset... something not right.. is mj not stresse? or is she suffering a mental breakdown? alright... but yup.. at least mj realises that she is being very demanding somehow for being so highly super sensitive...

but guess what he did the next day...
he went library to check out on books on black toes and stomach sounds.....
so sweet.............
i am so so touched....
so ashamedof myself......
i love him....

bad day...

oh my think im not in best of luck these days...
got into a serious talk with my lao ban..politics...
got into prob with my dear..'some things r close to my heart but not yours'...
its not true..i care..i juz didn't see a buzz...
solitude now..cold heart..no smile...
cheers to the rest...

no new gf

juz to clear e air...
its not a NEW GAL IM WITH!!...
its juz her hair...
haha...cheers...

haha.. my 'new' girlfriend

I just cut my hair!!!! till like a little longer than my dear.... looks pretty boyish and FRESH!
i am not used to it yet.. quite sad... no more long femine look! but i feel AFRESHED!! =)

sad song...

haha..im kinda liking sad piano based songs...
soulful...
haha..hope work doesn't bother anyone down...
love hone...

i miss him............................................................

joke of the day

i am dead..
i juz emailed my professor saying

hey A/P ....


instead of
Dear A/p....


hahahha... i think that is the joke of my day!
i hope he do not mind.=)

sick

haha yester was awesome...
today..sick..plain..sick...

life's awesome

haha..my life hasn't been much better...
so happi these days coz her sun is rising again...
maybe i woke e sun up...
oh my saw my pics..oh no..tats note me...
im not that stupid looking!!!...
haha..think it was a great experience...
yup my hands r bad..haha..realli painful...
i mean its realli painful...
haha..juz went jp library n got an archer bk...
so cool..so new..readin is so amazing...
daniel powter and james blunt..rockin my musical world...
bad day..jimmy gets high..u'r beautiful..goodbye my lover...
great hits..n i realise theirs a lot of piano...maybe its time...
lolz..cheers..

PLease pray for freddy k?

he has a BIG blister on his hand, so lets pray that my dear's hand will recover soon k?
Thanks and God Bless.

change..

haha..think the fire rekindled...
the tides have changed on e day my love blog...
haha...simply happi...

change..

haha..think the fire rekindled...
the tides have changed on e day my love blog...
haha...simply happi...

snow city

a mundane life

its been so so so long since i last blog..
haiz... wondering why my life HAS been so empty these days..
very busy with work.. but no drive to work hard.
its crashing onto me...
nothing seems to makes me happy for eternal.
i feel numb.
numb by work.
i feel drain.
drain by work.
i tried very hard to smile and laugh at ever thing.
but why is it so hard?
i know my dear been trying very hard to cheer me up..
i appreciate every efforts... i love him too...
the sight of him cheers me up.
but i can;t see him every day... 24 hours....
its impossible.... the missing him in me craves for his company.
but i know its not posible coz hey! we have lives of our own too!!!
we live in the constraints of our environment where we have to be bounded by work, school..
in order to achieve a brighter future.
haiz.. i am gg back to my work again....
its never ending....
i am stress that i won't do well...

yup! i will try my best not TO feel empty and lonely..
pyscho myself that resluts is not everything.
i still have him, my friends and my family..
yup!
i must cheer up.
i need to....
i want to....

cold

wow...its DO week n then so hot n then so cold...
haha didnt zz much..miss her so badly these days...
cheers:)

saturday...

haha..yeah..i think i kinda look gd when im tired..dear rite?...
haha..yup its sat..went out with her yester to crysatl jade macau...
foods realli gd..shown her e calculations...
thinkin abt my future these days...
something is for sure...
im goin to study realli realli realli hard...
love u dear...
bye bike...

WHEN THE TRAIN MOVES, THE IMAGE BLURS..

Happy 20th Birthday baby

it looks very nice.......
but hmm..
it only taste 3/10 according to him..
sob sob..
will try harder next time.

"SOB SOB" day

sudden wakie...

geez..suddenly cant zz..decided to check my stuff...
watch 49 days n final des 3 tis wk...
2 n 3.5 stars respectively...
maybe e cinema...
great wk ahead..bikin goin end soon...
kinda dangerous honestly...
went public road n saw my dad...
awesome feelin..fast...
however almost skidded along flyover..oh its oni 70+ km/hr...
wana rest more spend more time with love ones...
sick of bikin...

haha...

once again...
:)

RECEIVED

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

from me to you.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

busy...

tired...
very busy these days as u can see mjfl being torn by work...
dunno wat to sae...dunno how to sae...
i mean im busy..motorcycle from 715 to 5 0r 7...
but its the trip..wakin at 6 reaching hm at 8..eat..read..zzz...
very tired..realli biking is tiring..i mean u juz go thru 1 month of intense biking...
for she...
well..shes stress..she thinks shes depress..all i can sae is cheer up...
always look on the bright side of life...
think shes pressuring herself too hard to do well...
hon, its gd to do well..but we are oni humans...
humans need rest..need to make mistakes..even superman falls...
but its weather or not u pick up urself...
dear..do focus on when to do wat and when to fully relax..work outta head...
dear..dun worrie k..everything is fine..will be fine...
hmm..do think of life outside studies..friends..sports..family..play..me?...
sometimes i do feel weird..i do feel lonely..but yup i understand...
u muz too k..im sure things will be fine...
had 2 bad dreams recently..hope its got nothing to do with the weird guy cny...
stupid photos should not be taken...
take care...

tired

shes tired of studying...
im tired of wasting time..ORD...
more impt, i have tired eyes...

time...

halo..im goin for bike course le...
sp happy but i promise i will take care...
in order to take care of others esp. her...
james blunt song are juz awesome...
i was totally blown away..maybe his voice..maybe the song...
You're Beautiful...
Goodbye my lover...
awesome juz awesome...
been watchin man u...
think fergie needs a gerade..badly...
ok thats it..stay cherry!...
love u dear...

new yr??!!

haha..greetings everyone...
happy cny gong xi gong xi...
so so super tired...
if i tell u i have went to 11 homes do u believe?...
haha..so happy food..food..more food...
nah..its more like cherishin family time...
time to catch up with the rest of peeps...
time to enjoy ur time visiting...
not out today though there is 4 houses...
haha..doin personal work..more like overdue work...
honey too..doin overdue work...
im still readin..like it, love her...
haha..shant be naughty...
enjoy...
CHEERS!

ITs a New Year again...

Happy Chinese New Year to all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =)

regards,
mjfl

fortunate...

yup..i muz agree im realli fortunate...
haha..i cant believe i have such wonderful and loving family...
to make my life complete..thers my love...
wow..i pray god keep things this way...
my life is beautiful...
was seatin in a bus today...
clean clothes..clean body..in sheltered air con bus..seatin..readin...
awesome..plainly awesome...
hope to be the same this commin year...
hommin in on a scholarship..thats my biggest wish this year...
thank u god...

back...

last wk i did a lot of wrong things...
though she had forgiven me...
i noe it still hurts...
hope time will let it fade...
lets not talk abt it anymore...

this week i have became popcorn...
"popcorn to dark knight"...
haha...
coolz...

happy cny 2006...
love u dear...

A sweet true story

A Sweet Story

He came to find her after her date with her friends.
She felt sick...
suppose to have dinner with him.
but sat around a while.
He decided to see her home.
along the way,
he held her close,
keeping her warm.

reached home,
changed, lied on her bed,
took her temp twice.
She realized she was having a fever,
called him.
He was halfway home.
but He went back to find her.
she was supposed to see doc alone.
but no more.
it was a public holiday.
clinics were closed.
hitched a cab,
He brought her all around her estate to find clinics.
all clinics at sight were closed.
worried,
he went down the cab and asked her to wait. inside.
he went to check out clinics that were not at sight.
rushed back, relieved.
found one.
Finally.
alighted.
seen a doctor.




and that "he" is my baby.
i am touched. (",)

our 26month ANNIversary!

haha......... baby wrote me a LOving sweet card...........................
and He reAD TO ME the whole card.............
something special! *winks*
guess he was shy too...........
watched KING KONG........
a very TOuching Show though unrealistic.......
teared a while... sob a while.... realize how fragile an animal or beast is... in a human world...
coz all of us deemed them as HIghly dangerous animals... endangering our lives.......when they enter our world without being *caged*... juz how we humans are called animals, and not beast are yet so selfish.............
alright..........
ended our 26th Anniversary with a touching thought provoking movie,GOd Blessed moments, good bread, loving card, Exciting book and baby sending me home.......
*peace*

weekend...

haha..juz spent another wonderful wkend together...
today is 26th mth..kinda long..memorable..sweet...
wanted to bike but weather aint fine these days...
began to sing..had a k-lunch..gotoo say she sang well...
he..haha..far cry...
after that went to borrow bks..so happi..that library these days are so comfi...
hope the kids realise they are indeed fortunate...
but then again..kids here do study hard..cheers to them...
saw a pri 4 kid muggin chinese vocab bk "qi yu shou ce"...
kinda sad for him coz i noe how he felt..kinda sad for the edu system..
werent they goin to abolish it..god noes...
well..then we had badminton..once again it was even..she won...
a bit maybe..haha..but there was no plots..tink she understands...
juz heard josh groban.."u raised me up......"...
very soothin on a rainy day..goin to do serious work le...
before keat hong tomorrow..wonder hows it gonna be...
new camp..new frends..new superiors..new men...
hopefulli they will like the same old me...

love u honey.

cooL HUNK AND PRETTY BABE!!

Wahahha.. thats what we call not Pai Sei and CONFIDENCE! hehez....
was after baby's book out...w e went to Bugis for shopping.... bought a bag and yes! i CUT MY HAIR! can u see???? BIg difference u know! haha.. alright......
baby waited as usual for an hour... i am sorryy..... will be early next time... haha. =)

happy.. happy.. happy.. happy... happy...

SHowcast Of FIGHTING spirit!

Showcast of the FIGHTING SPIRIT! Wahaha......
haha.. we went for concert at Indoor Stadium.. by GrasshOOPper!!ahaha.. so Auntish.... not high enough but Had FUn,... yeah! thats our New Year's Eve celebration...

Baby Excellent Academic Award ceremony

So smArt hor... i went for it too... but wasn;t given an opportunity to go on stage.......*sob sob*

Thats our New Year resolutions at Esplanade!

my MAsked baby

haha.. i juz helped baby to do some mask.... can u see the transparent sheet fo mask on his Face?? haha.. smooth and good now..

here again..

morning...
haha..juz couln't zz anymore..can u believe it...
its been cold cold days nowadays...
literali..love wise..its been realli warm...
jux woke to realise how fortunate to have ur sweety msgin u in the morn...
simple yet gracious...
realli cherish every single msg...
the work year is gonna start again...time to mug...
time to qiong..time to redeem myself...
for though i've commisioned..i still feel i haven't proven myself enough yet...
i can and will improve..as a person...
think my dear be dreadin her toes to sch...
maybe if i was in sch..that would have changed...
ritez...
cheers...

LOVE

thanks for staying by me..this post is juz for u..
my dear.

2006

haha..its a brand new yr...
awesome..but kinda put down by e lazy start to it...
woke at 11+ todae..life's gd..juz too gd..juz not too used to it...
went soccer in the morn with the black guys...
quite fun..pockets of small injuries..hate them...
spent a greatful evening with her at the stadia...
not bad performance..juz not too gd...
haha..got kinda weary at the end..kinda pain..wana go hm...
saw her tired..my precious..kinda hurt..tried to go hm asap...
im so lucky..last yr has been so eventful..ups and downs...
tryin times..times of anger..times of pride...
some feelings stay with u forever...
but times of exposure too..showed the bad and negative sides of me...
its these testin times i treasure..coz it shows how mean i can be...
for the comming yr..i still miss books..haha...
hope for health and happiness...
hope to be less straight-forward..less impatient...
hope to be like myself more again..smile...
hope to lose some weight..im still fat...
HOPE FOR WORLD PEACE.