taken on the last day before he flies...

its been 15days since i last saw my darling....

its been so so long since i last saw my baby...............when's nov coming? i miss him...........
i went for my math test on monday and it wad horrible.. ralized one major careless mistake... and one sum dunno how to solve.. very sad........ wanted to complain to my baby, but he's out in field camp.... how sad...... but yup! now i feel much comforted.. think tv can be a good source of encouragement.. haha.. WATCH IT AND U WILL SMILE.? haha.. haha.. provided show is humourous... i miss my baby................. he wil only be back form field camp on nov 6th... yearn to hear his voice....
so AnGRY WITH his friend!!! since he agreed to help, why give him at the airport... i thank him for helping me to give it to him.... but why can't he give on the exact date.... 18th of oct is way too early from 8th nov.. no more surprise surprise....... maybe i shldn't be upset. coz i dun even know the guy.. the fact th he's willingly to help.. i am thankful...... anyway.. hopefully, everyhing goes well.. just oray for my baby's safety.... and free from horrible bites... i will be THANKFUL....

my dad juz got retrenched.... but he seems quite fine with it... coz he HATE his boss.. so mea and demanding..i also have same sediments... anyway, its time for him to take a break... only my younder bro is schooling now.. and everybody else are working... so think financial burden wise, not too tough at the moment... but i still pray that he will get good lobang soon.....
so recent'y, i am getting SO FAT! oh mine...

coz my dad at home and he's a great cook! everyday "hao liao"! alamak! very bad.... getting so super FAT! ate a lo of seafood recently... my BIG JUICY PRAWNS! hahahah.... =) very sinful...

runnign after my exma.s..
which is coming... i better go and mug.................
6th of NOV PLEASSE COME FAST!

miss my mr liew...............

i miss baby

6 days of field camp has passed and my baby still hasn't call..........
I miss him............... Dear God, i pray that he is safe and good.........
my project presentaion has finished.. 20/25. Good job i thought!
completed essay! 3000 words with citations, evaluation, applicaton to singapore,
references...... educational psychological theories......... i hope i wun fail........
but dead tired meijing can't finish math tutorial anymore.....
time to zz....................
hopefullly baby will call soon..........
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..............

i love this man here!

aslt pic before he left for australia......

baby was looking athis air ticket before he left.....
as much as he misses his parents and me.... he wanted to go in earlier so that his parents and myself can go home eariler and rest coz his flight is on a tues late in the night............
juz how thoughtful can he get...... =)
miss you.......

was sendin me to school... he reached my place at 8am! so sweet ritez...

suntec

we went to catch the M18 dude Bigalow...
gosh.. think it shld be RA rated.... this is taken at Suntec.. nice ritez?

my life no? babay went for Australia le.. this weekends no dating.. but my life is so HECTIC! EXAMS, PROJECTS AND essays! ARE ALL COMING UP! currently trying to rush my esssay....... and improved my project..
to GOD'S grace, lecture postpone the tests to the week after the essay deadline. If not, i think i am dead by now... who says Uni IS A BED OF ROSEES... ? kind of miss my baby..
lets see, now he is having his out field, coming back from his field camp in 6 days time. then i cna heard from him again...
looking forward to finishing my essay.. finishing my project persentation.. then itss time! coz babay will be BACK!
take care my friends.
pray for him......

@airport

dear..im realli goin off..currently at the airport..
hmm..realli will miss u very much..
but i be thinking of u..n i will forge ahead..
times might be tough on ur side..
but always remember..hang on..
coz this is oni a short test..
love u.
bye

D DAY H HOUR

dear...im leaving on a jet plane..i dunno noe when i be back again..
dear..pls take care as im away..
love u honey..
always..

COLLIDE

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeahdo do do do
I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again
Even the best fall down sometime
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow findYou and I collide
do do do do
I'm quiet, you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind
Even the best fall down sometime
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find You and I collide
Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind
do do do do

=)

gone for awhile...

baby..i had a great wk..i realli did..no army..
no burdens..so so carefree..thank god for all that happen..
thank god that we are still strong together..
the days will be tough..but tough times dun last..
24days will pass slowly and painfully..n i will miss u..
but no doubt the sky is the same..so is the sun..
when u'r done..look up..i be there looking up too..
to listen and to care..
pls take gd care of urself..
may god watch over u.

BLUR is nice... it covers flaws...........

*QUacks QuAcks*

doesn't my baby looks so cute?
juz like this litle quack quack....

i love him!

real tanks

these are REAL TANKS! haha.. i got to mount it....... which means stand on it on parent visiting day..
if only, i can drive it... so cool! i LOVE Sinagpore army!

23rd ANNIVERSARY!

so CUTE!

oh gosh isn't her cute?????
it seems that she is saying i miss you....
taken on darling's parent visiting day...
haven seen her for ages.... it in darling's army's camp bed.... so adorable..........
yup! went to his parent visiting day which is our 23rd annIVERSARY! =)

he wrote me a leTTER!

had such a memorable weekend....
guess what? baby WROTE QME A LETTER!!!!!!!!!!1 wow!... its been so long isnce he last wrote one..
so touched by his thoughts.. and as always he is juz so so SWEET....hehez....
we also went woodlands library to mug.... so unusual... coz itd like we are off the college days.. been so lon since we last muged together too.....
awe.... had a superb weekends with us catchig dark water..... hmm... but as always, my eyes are often shut then open... haha.. realized i have become so timid afterbeing with him.. ????? why?think i have to search back my guts again.. muz be over reliance on it.... haha... bougt our anniversasry gift too .. 2 yearsanni is coming.. decided on what to get... now in the process... hopefully i can finish in time...
miss baby.

east coast times!

east coast times!!!!!!!!!!!

i am so tired too...........

i am so tired... now is like 12 ++ am.. and i am here typing my essay.... so sick....but with my new laptop!and in my own room.. so it juz isn't too bad... think these days has been pretty tiring.. a lot of hoemwork and research to do.... kind of pressurize.. exam a re drawing near too.. and weeks before my exams, baby will be away in australia... how sad... but yup! that can meant more focus and time to revise.. juz lacking in physical encouragement.......
i am so tired.. think gg to stop now.. babay juz called.. and today there will be spot checks, so didnt talk long... but he called earlier at abt 7pm.. so made up.. contented? haha.. nope1 juz wishes for more time... oh no.. think i am talking more and more crap...
time to sign off...

love baby,
miss my baby and friends...

pretty?

baby says i look pretty here..... haha

tired baby...

my baby was so tired........ look at his eyes

up there

3 more months...
haha..more impt 13 more months...
pink ic.

my dear looks so cool.............

notice our shirts???? its the same colour!

SMILE!

ARMY OPEN HOUSE

went to marina for army open house.. and we sat in the tank on that day! so rocky and cool!!!!!!

reflections

its saturday........... one more day and my holis are over.... as i glance thru my timetable, can't help but realize i am a slacker..... suppose to get back my momentum for running and its not started.... fats are adding on each day.. especially at a higher rate during the holis! arghh..... FATS!!!! are such horrible creature that gets girls' nerves upon....anyway, another reflection: my revision plan..... as i aspire to achieve my honours, there seems to be a lack in my motivation towards it.... be it extrinsic or intrinsic...... for this week, it just isn't there...... have to search my soul and catch it back.... thats why i am reflecting now..... from thursday onwards, my baby can't sms and call me coz he was caught using his phone in his field camp... oh no! i was so worried... worried he will get confinement... since thursday, i also realized how scary solitude is.... without his sms and calls, life wasn't life.... i miss him like anything..after tuition on thurs, i was strolling along the stretch of field in te evening.... The peacefulness and serenity of the walk undiscovered my misses for him... deep inside, i was wishing for his embrace..... Probably we have been so distracted and allured by the city life that we forget that man needs to be with his soul sometimes.. every book out, shopping, cinemas, and eating in restaurants were our usual hangouts...its not bad, nor evil but its time for a change.........
i was out shopping with vivien on fri... a good shopping SPREE!shopping again! but its girls outing.. it was fun! as always with her.. and we had such good bargains! really happy for her and myself... thought i spent quite a bit.... no more shopping for the next few weeks.... really glad for her too coz she slimmed down.. haha.... when's my turn???????? =) but think she thinks i am getting paranoid... coz every msg i juz hopes its from him.... its friday night! he was supposed to be back by then... with much disappointments, none of the msg were from him.... now coMES THE HIGHLIGHT!
baby called me on saturday morning at 330aam! so happy!!!!!!! =) finally! was worried he was injured or anything.... finally i can have a good zz............

babay back to camp angain and i am havig my holidays.....

wow! another weekend spent with baby... though it seems short but i am contented.... =) 2 more months to him ending his life as a traineee... FIANLLY! !! think he hates his life in armour so much.. ESPECIALLY the nasty instructor! hope he gets out and not hamr anymore innocent souls.. or prob hope he cahnged fo the better? hmm.. went eating eith baby... to JP onsat evening.. haha.. baby was so tired...! lik SOSO tired.. coz he didn';t zz for like near to 48 hours.. butstill; he choose to go our with me.. awe.. juz love him to pieces... being aas understanding as i can, of coz thats why JP was chsen.
sunday morming babay woke up early in the morning for his 12 K marathon! wow.. he finished it with no sweat! or shld i say a lot of sweat! hehez.... then we went our again.. caught "the perect catch" at Cine.. so humorous!enjoyed the show very much! but hahah.. baby felt asleep a few times... guess the 12 k drains him out too.... watched it and went to JE to check out on phone.. coz his phone had spoilt.... then
home sweet home again.. though this week is my holidays!
i have so much to do.. 2 assignments.. 2 projects.. and tutorials. and still have to catch up with physics.. not easy man uni life.. but ya! with baby's love and nice freinds ard, iwill make it.. .. gtg.. take care ple!

life goes on

what a wk..
ok im out but there was times i dun wana live on with my current life..
think god is testing me..
im so scared nowadays..
but i noe someday things will be fine again..
love u dear and family.

hahaha... =) i LOve my weekends!!!!! =)

though last weekends was terrific! but these weekends were tremendous! hehez.. or shld i say any weekend with baby is FUN! before talking about ym weekend, lets mention my weekdays first...
had 2 TESTS this week! 2 MATH tests! maths isn't as easy as last time.. but ya.. think both tests are still manageable.. but 1 mat turn out to be good whereas the other one i juz pray for a decent B.. pray for me k? hehez...
this weekend i didn't mug.. haha.. juz slack at home on friday, went out with my little bro to shop for my niece's present... bought POOH'S pool... quite fun i suppose... kids these days are so fortunate... =)
went out with baby on Sat.. ate at Kenny Rogers... so DELICIOUS! our first time eating there.... it was baby's treat.. coz he insisted... as part of our 22nd month ANNIVERSAR! =) so sweet.. cna see babay is so burned out and tired.. his hands was having cuts and rashes.. man.. when will his NS end... bought a bag at hushhush at Suntec.. having 50% off! a tote bag costs on 9.5 bucks! ple, what are you waiting for?????? =)
then we went jalan jalan.. in shopping mall, of coz, the only thin to do is to SHOP! Baby bought a soccer ball.. coz he says he needs to relieve stress... hmm... so i shall turn myself to a ball??? then i can help him relieve stress? hahaha.. juz kidding.... there goes our saturday.. had a real good laugh when i am with him.. of coz hearing so much army stuff, i think i know army stuff more than some guys out there... oh no........
there goes our saturday.... here comes sunday...
it was raining super heavily juz now.. so babay decided that wedun go out.. he came over juz now to finish piecing our jigsaw puzzle.. haha.. as always, he was stuck after piecing 1 to 2 pieces... hehez.. hmm.. think i am a better jigsaw puzzle maker? or he is juz too tired... had a good time piecing our puzzle.. but its still not half done.. after so long.. when can we finish??? baby left....so sad..
back to missing him again... there are so many outfields next week.. which mean less interaction.. =( dun really look forward... miss him.... think my life only revolves around him.... he makes my life BEAUTIFUL.... =)

life now...

life now..definately nothing compared to school..god i miss sch so much..
think abt those days..lectures..tutorials..all were so fun..
havin to see ur love one day in day out..lunch...soccer..
memories r juz so beautiful..
now still serving national service..not realli sadden...
only demoralised and depressed at times..i changed so much..
i begin to stone..look into nothing..so stone...so tired of life..
instructors are a mere few yrs older than us..but why..why cant they treat us..
as frends..as brothers..i guess they went thru a lot..n so have i..
i have become less patient..time..it seems is so far away from me..
i feel like a nobody at times..but i realise even life goes on for a nobody..i'll be strong..
aniway..battlecourse goin begin..section..platoon..tag team..chiong n clean chiong n clean..
everyday of chiong is everyday of clean..clean wat?
weopan..saw,sar,m203,metador,mg,40,50,coax,25...so many weapon..
vehicle..break track,sevice..
amour ops is tirning..hit 6 objectives a day..sleep at 0230..wake at 0500..n a new day begin..
im tired..r u?

im out.

wow...its juz great to be out..
to all peeps out ther do treasure times spent with ur love ones..
for my personal matter..im worried..but glass broken cant be helped..
goin to be xiong..very xiong from now onwards..
life kinda sux in ther...
i will survive..
love u dear.

another friday....

its another friday......... - a day without school...........juz finish typing ym motivation assignment! man1 i tell you.. it s lot of work..
first you have to read up the whole chapter on motivation.. then my book don't have much content.. then went to read another book.. wow.. 2 chpts can kill! next, have to answer those essays-liked questios.. its a lot! but ya.. not exactly essays.. juz about 100 words ans per question.. FINALLY ! i have completed le.....
yesterday baby tole me he see thru everything le.. though life maybe not be what he want, he still have his family and me... felt so touched by his words.. coz months ago, when he was faced with his chicken pox crisis, he didn't mention about anything like this.. does it means our love has developed? awe.... *sinkning in LOVE*... haha,, =)
didn't went for cheer leading selection... kind of sad.. coz thought it waas pretty fun... ad i enjoy myself.. my friend, zhi rui got in! congratulations! happy for her... guess i really have no time and baby dun really like.. have to put myself in his shoes sometimes...... ok! first class honours, dating and money come first.. no regrets.......... prob i can enriched my life with some community work? lets decide again next year.. this year no time.... hehez..
gg to have 2 math tests next week.. man! i tell you, math isn't easy now.. PROOFING PROOFING and PROOFINfg.. every preposotition has a proof to it.. can u imagine this???!! mutiplication. subtraction, addition and division each as its own proof for different categories of numbers. natuarl no, intergers, real no, ratioanl no.. so many proof.. hope i will at leat get a decent grade for this tests.. coz honour isn't easy to achieved. to get 2nd upper. average shld be a B+ till A-.. scary hor.. as what baby says. juz do your best and God will do the rest.. haha..
another happy thing in life is that my beloves daddy ask em to but him the "quit smoking" chewing gum.. haha.. happy for his decision.. hope its a success.. yup.. gtg mug le.. later there's cca...
take care! miss baby..............

love

MISSES

I MISS MY BABY VERY MUCH...................

dead

im so dead.
i lied.
i confessed.
now im dead.
am i?
at least i died with some honour,
some glory.
god bless.

life

yeah..life goes on...
sometimes i realli feel so fortunate
beautiful family loving gf great frends..god i cound't ask for more..
sometimes i wake in the morn feelin so bad...
why do i have to wake at 5? after oni zzing at 2..
i guess its part of army..or then again armour..
went into drivin this week..
very fun..its like a big big vehicle under ur command..
its rocky..bumpy..but thers a lot of strength..
drove day n nite to clock milage..
learnt how to break tracks..super tiring process though..
manitain after ops and before ops..dirty no doubt but drivin is satisfying..
been muggin real hard these days..
juz spent a loving wkend..
thank god..hope he bless me nxt wk..as coc..im totalli in charge..
im worried..but every difficulty lies an oppotunity..seize e moment.

its the beginning of a long weekend again...

its friday and tmr my baby is out le!! =) looking forward..... what have i been doing this week.. mon i met up with dar.. guess what? ??????? it was our 21st month ANNIVERSARY!!!! and the eve of national day thus he was allowed to book out..
he was right outside my lecture hall in NIE! WHEN SCH ENDS AT 730PM... was estatic! =) never imagine him finding me in school when i am in year one.. coz of his army life.. yup! as usual. being a caring bf, he helped me carry my stuff.... hahah..
we set off to westmall for our dinner coz we were both famished... wanted to go somewhere far but resised.. -lack of time- had our dinner at KFC... somewhere not very unique but special in our hearts.. we r eating on a mon night with our loved ones, sliently celebrating and enjoying each other's presence.... went to walk walk.. whand in hand.. its always so blessed to have him ard............

black beret

haha for the newest update...im finalli 1.5mth into armour..oni 3.5mth to go...
effetively oni 2.5mth coz 1 mth of cold hell in walaby..australia..
haha..muz knock down kangaroo so funnn..
ok i noe it sounds crude but thats juz part of ops..
last few wks have been slack..realli coz learnin all guns..erm..
its called canons..sorrie dude but i believe a tag team can take out 1 infant coy..
then goin learn drive soon...
was learnin to be a techincian..very oily n greasy..
but now..im gg outfield soon...
so take care!@@
--

nd

hapi national day!
pride-people rest i do extra
hapi 21st mth honey...
haha mind kinda blur aft guard duty
but def.
i love u,
one n only...
dear.

=)

today is a saturday..... gg to be a saturday without my baby again..... coz he has guard duty... *sobz...*
if you guys wonder whats life is like these days? i have started my university life... wow.. show u guys my timetable,

mon:

• lesson from 830 to 1130
• break from 1130 to 0530pm
• lesson from 0530 to 0730pm
• cheerleading from 0730 to 10pm?

tues:

• 0830 till 0530 again.. with breaks in between
• 6 to 8pm CCA

wed:

• 1130 till 0530.. with breaks in betweeen
• 8 till 10pm cca

thurs:

• 0830 till 0430pm but with lesser breaks in between
• 5 til 7pm cca

friday!!!!!!!!!!!! no school! hahha... so yup! this is my timetable.. spent like my whole mon to thurs in school! but yup! i have long weekends... friday till sunday.... thats nice izzit it?

i have taken maths and physics as my academic subjects.. and each subjects there are two modules... and another 2 modules for education..the math isn't that easy anymore.. a lot of very "cheem" proofing! bought textbook for each module for math.. so ex! like 2 books 60 odd bucks! aand prob will only last for 2 sem? a yr? then need other textbooks....went for cheerleading! wow! tried "elevator" man! tell u its real cool! like you stand above 2 guys which act as your base with both of my feets on each of their hands..then they lift you above their heads! wow! its pretty stable after you locked your body, meaning stand all the way straight and firm.. never imagine myself doing this... very cool! if i can afford to commit, then i will most prob join this... =)

sorry baby... i know you dun like.. bu then again i know you respect and support my decision rite?

hahha.. in another 2 days. we will be celelbrating our 21st month anniversary! looking forward to that... 8th august 2005. whis is the eve of our nation's birthday! so yes he will be OUT! YEAH! =) very excited.... preapred a little gift.. and he prepared my little gift le... we know what it is! coz we went to shop together! hahahha...

his life now?

he is in school of armour.. very contented to chat with me every night.. ahhahaha... juz like i am.. misses me every night.. hahha.. okok.. he is busy muging.. cannot fail any test if not kana confinement.. which means no booking out.. thus muging dilligently! and he passes his SOC! timing like 8min and 7 sec! wow! amazing ritez? and he achieved gold for his ippt! congratulations!! so HAPPY for him.. so that means no morre physical trainings.. hahha.. so yes.. he says he is usually slacking if not muging after 6pm...only booking out this sunday........miss him very much...... gtg do my tutorial le....

misses.

smelly smelly

hey baby..... i love this pictures.....

day one of NTU

wow.. its day one of my University life.......
feels so different..... when it comes to school.. i miss ym baby.. those days in jc
wwhere e can meet up as and when we like....
first day.. went for talks and talks... so many talks.....
felt like zzinf thruout.. oh mine! this is the first day...........
lucky get tio msg my baby........ signed up for cheerleading and canoe polo.. hahaha..
sounds fun and happening ritezz......... =) juz trying out.. if there;s too much commitment..
then not gg to join le... darling, no cpu club.. hahha
dunno why btu felt very hungry, spent nearly 10 bucks today on lunch and tea beaks...
first day of school.....
hmm.. not too bad after all....
hope i enjoy the stay.... miss my baby....
love.

its me again...

its me again..
miss bloggin so much..realli miss being a civilian..
its definately not fun to be regimentalised..
but..its all up in the mind..its how u see it..
thank god i got love..love..
dear..fam..friends(?) haha..
too bad i got no time..
in armour..we run..never stop..life is hectic..
leanrnt many new stuff..big guns and cannons..
so what? pride?..hmm..i rather be a potato..
goin to driving soon..clock milege in the morn and thru the nite..
army made me saw a lot of sunsets..n sunrises as well..
guess ther be more sunrise..
but yup, everyday is a new day..
its a blessin to be wakin every morn..
dear..take a positive view of uni-nie...
n im sure u can make it again..
juz like u always did..
love u.

finalli a chance to write...

its been nearly a month since i 've written a decent blog..n this was wat that happened to me..

4wks ago..prepared n set off for ex lancer in brunei..it was a 10 day survival course includin climbin biang..in fbo..honestly for commandos n infantry peeps..pls pls take care..this will push u beyong ur limits..it was an sia flight..but e feelin was wierd..coz e whole plane was full of us..no need for passport too..reached brunei airport at 4am..its realli borin ther...honestly..theres like 2 hotels n 1 mega shopin centre..life is real simple..tok a bus then ferry..saw sunrise..it was honestly beautiful..coz the backin was waters n forests...reach terrembong camp..
survival thru skill..its a really old camp..long beach house n old cookhouse..
amazingly i got to use the well known metal tray..life was hectic..we learned navi..knots..survival fruits..not forgetin tokat ali..the perm staff were grea peeps..but soa was stict..its realli swift n decisive...
finalli after notin wat to eat..ex lancer begin..had to walk climb walk in full battle order..it weight at least 20kg n i was e signaller..25kg?..its super tirin but luckily my grp was fast n we had rest..
its real cold up the mountains..sleepin in hammock was a gd experinece..nor forgetin almost catchin fire..haha..in the end..got up biang in 1.5hr..got down in 5-6hrs..can u imagine walkin or glidin from sliperry boulders for 5-6hrs...fell 10 times..didnt feel gd but gotto sae my grp realli kept me goin..in the end..did combat swim..or mud bath..n got back to camp in 3 instead of 4 days..
chiong ar..hit the food..cateen stuff..2 plates of rice n 1 burger...impresive?haha..juz tryin to put back lost weight..honestlty for infantry peeps pls bring sulphur n gotex n insect repel..pls..
thers realli leeches..fire ants n snakes..honestly...washed up..took us 2 days n went for r and r.
went to water village..200 football fields housin 20% brunei pop..life is gross but simple...went to the meusuem..or gold palace n not forgetin the theme park..can u imagine its oni open for us...
187 cadets reli had fun..all the cocksrew n etc..went back the nxt day...cant believe i finalli reach hm...10 days of torture...
went to take a tankie test..didnt got it..but yup..make the best izzent it?bookin in soa next day..
soa is a realli stict fast pace taxin...nothing less..amour has what? "pride" ask every amour personnel and they tell u that..we r the frontline that will punch thur enemy attacks..
learnt a whole lot of guns..test after test..
40..50..apfsds..cupola..bushmaster..the apc is ultra...its kinda intrestin..coz we learn a lot of new things...but armour has a bad habit...kickin ocs cadets off..sad?no...it juz means i go to train doubly hard...
nxt week...will be drivin..i need to clock milege day n nite..fun?not realli...
can u imagine never eatin lunch or dinner without sand,mud, grease and oil on ur hands?
believe it.

god pls take care of my dear n my parents ?
thks.
peace.

home

i'm home finalli..
pro term begin...
socjot over..gd luck to those gg brunei..
love fam n dear..
armour..
swift n decisive..
take care n god bless.

a brand new start of holidays....

wow.. after so many months of working.. finally end work..... and my baby is COMING home! haahhaa.,,, finally,.. heard that his hand is swollen, so guys who are reading this, please pray for him k? yup...... this weekend.. went out with zhi rui to buy the july's birthday babies' gifts... bought jing ting andyen leng and vivien's gift.. we shop and tried so many tops in the same shop.. think the salegirls recognize or blacklist us le lah... hahaha.. but we did buy... haha... finished the shopping and went off to buy my baking cake premix.. so HEAVY! still have to carry it for church and the rest of the shoppoing... learnt my lesson.. next time dun buy this stuff so early... then left for church service.. its been many months since i last attended service.. felt quite uncomfortable.... but here again.. peaceful.... and refreshed too... yup.. that marks my saturday...

sunday? i zz till haha... 1pm! wake and zz.. wake and zz.. wow.. thats life... =) then watch armargaddon... so NICE! SO TOUHING! cried so many times.. haiz... poor harry..... idolize him till death le! awe.................. left house, and went o xia's place to bake cake... one the is for qiao's 21st birthday... quite delicious! i muz say.. but looks wise.. hmm.. can be improved. =) ioe she loves it... finished baking and left for zhu chao.. wow.. 2 persons for a meal.. its ex you know... ya... walked home after that... and ended my day with a call frm darling... =) its always so nice to hear his voice... though we hardly meet these days... haha. he's coming back... pray for him ya... 1 day left... =) god bless.

misses

been so long since i blogged.. very busy and lazy.....

my weekend has been great! coz darling was out sine wed.. and he fetched me on
thursday where we had seoul garden for dinner.. so FILLING!!! was delicious and fun..
friday: was sick, didn't go out as planned.... surprise surprise! baby came with the puzzle he bought and we started doing it...the puzzle is SUPER NICE! chip & dale! =) hoping to complete it soon......
saturday: went east coast in the afternoon.. saw the helicopter with S'pore flag... somethign special... cycled... baby brought hammock..... tried zzing on it.. so scary... but it was fun... relaxed there and had a great time! baby was so funny... can't help but laughed at his crappy jokes... really had a great time ther! =) =)
sunday: sent baby off to brunei... and the flight was pretty late.. at 2.30am...man. there r a lot ple wearing the same dress codes.. looked like some school outing? took our "last pic" before he left.. can see our eyes r so tired... hope he will have a good time out there.. though its tough...

hmm...so now my baby is in Brunei and juz went outfield this morning.... only back on sunday.... haiz.. no more his voice and msgs for 4 days.... Miss him..!!!!!
Started my tuition life agin.. tonight after work, there willbe tuition again... late until 9pluz pm.. reach home will be drop dead.. think still need to prepare the gifts for my colleagues tmr.. coz tmr is my very last day working at A*star... wow.. so fast! 4 months has flew..... ofeel pretty nostalgic.. miss my seat.. miss the envirnoment here.. oh ya! miss the vending machine.. miss my crappy and sweet colleagues.. mis my laptop.. miss the security guard who never fails to ask you for pass.... EVERYDAY YOU KNOW! haha... miss the AGS scholars.. haha.. no more filing.. miss the pantry.. no more catering!.. haiz... miss the milo i have daily.. miss the interview files.. miss the feel of being in office... eating.. no more ghim moh, MOE.. or the big juicy fruit from soulfood! GOSH! A*star i am gg to miss you.. =) but ya.. i need a break before sch start.... at least i have sweet memories here....Thanks to all my colleagues here who have always been so sweet and helpful..... =) *miss my dear & a*star....

at 1am before he went for brunei 

happy national day!!! hhaaha... cool ritez? took this at east coast! 

lazy baby making puzzle 

on bus to east coast.... 25th june 2005 

armour..

haha..its like o230 rite now..haha..guess my bod's so used to wierd timings..
worse tomorow packin for socjoc brunei..7aam..which means wakin at 0615..
cant wait to blog all my ocs memories..
not forgettin sierra wing where i had bad n gd experiences..
guess it makes one stronger..was gg to infantry..delta dead..foxtrox er..
nope..my name's not in..posted to school of armour(soa)..
happier..definately..as i always sae
"i juz wana learn new things..have a new enviroment and see a bigger perspective of army"
finalli..im no infantry..rats runnin abt..im goin armour..n if..im so so so..lucki..
who noes..maybe a tankie..driving a tank..beyond my dreams..wat abt recee?
they go on bikes..nah..apc is fine too..at least thers wheels for the 24k where infantry..
i salute u..gotto walk..currently tryin to ooozzzee every little time left..leavin for brunei soon
d day h hour? 270230...end of mission? 060530.. socjoc..hope its fun..
wat can be fun in military..till now i have no ans..cant wait to ord..be a civilian..pink ic...
but before that..y road is still long..6mths frm commission..17mnths from ord..
black beret..soa..tough road ahead..but i guess its somewat better for me compared to green..
sungei gedong..somewher into lck..very hard to get ther..but for now..im not worryin..
for now..i got 3 days..and a lot of things to do..
chill nitty..

sch is starting and i am all gear up....

its thursday.. and i am here working still...... and my baby hasn't reply me yet.. guess he muz be still drooling away.. gonna meet up with him soon... so exciting!!!! hhaaha.. today dress code very very funny.. my first time wearing this skirt! hhaha..... sis bought it for me in hong kong during winter season.. so maybe thats why it is funny.. =)

school gonna starts.. and i am ultra excited.. but the sad thing is that all my camps clashes with on another. all because of the stupid nie camp... setting at such a werid date.. whereby it clashes with sports camp and hall camp.. isn't it dumb? and worse still, its compulsory... there will be impt briefings.. but i will definitely prefer the other 2 camps.. *sobs sobs* haiz..... i am gg to a school which i find the organising committee is terrible... hope life there wouldn't be so screwup...

i am gg to stay in hall... pretty confirmed coz my partner agrees...and for my parents side, shldn't be a problem since i am paying.. haha... so exciting... =)

congratulations to my darling too! h e is in ARMOUR INFANTRY! though it is further, but it has always been his wish.. i am PROUD of & HAPPY for him!! =) =) =)

think i have to go and find charmmaine le..... work time... take care guys! see u my bf!

darling, i am here. 

a kiss for you... 

huggiews 

piggy back! 

swimming!!!!!!!

=)


a nicey sat.... we went SWIMMING!!!!!!!1 My patient beloved darling finally went swimming with me! we arranged to meet up at the complex... but again i was late.. baby was already on his way reaching the complex when i called and ask to meet at bus stop... hhaa.. and he really walked back for me.. so touched.. simple yet its under the hot scorching sun.. it juz shows something. something that is call LOVE. =) so this sparked the day.....

never tried to swim the length in deep pool before... but his time with him beside/behind me, i tried.. when i reached the middle of the deep pool, i was SCARED.. the first lap i stopped.. and hold by the side.. terrified i was, so we discontinued and tried trapping water... he keep reemphasizing i am beside you.. dun be scare... coz he can touch the floor! 1.7m versus 1.5m.. of coz i am scare.. and he isn't... hahahz... ya.. but he was sweet.. always there to look after me.. accompanying me as i practised.... from 30 seconds to abt 50 secs... haha.. darling, i made it!.. then we swam.. really one length this time.. i was really breathless.. but felt very happy! love my dear! =) after which, we went to played the slide.. and opps.. dear injured his back.. no second time i guess.. but the YELLOW slide at je is really thrilling! plego try it... tried the current thing... FUN. and yes..w e say this little boy swimming very professionally at the deep poo.. he looked like he was only 2 yrs ole.. so small yet so COURAGEOUS! felt a little ashamed... hehhez...

after swimingm we showered and set off the PS to catch movie.. though sweet memories were created, sad one is left behind too..:i lost my watch.. the one that is a couple to my dear.. sob sob... shall return there and ask the man again.. maybe there's some nice soul out there who returned.? maybe. maybe not. =(

left it behind, we continued with our date.. went o PS To catch "a lot like LOVE" though there's a lot of kissing scences, i enjoyed the movie. coz finally oliver and emily married after 7 and a half years of waiting.. happy ending but weird relationship.... check it out guys! =)

good thing always has an ending all him and i
we left PS and dearie sent me home...
the day ended, but he photo and memories remain.

mj luv fl

social night 

our plant after one month 

st ends...

....
service term in sierra finally is goin to end..its been a pleasantly tired experience..
its quite unfortunate too..couldnt get into armour..got into infantry instead..
so it means more walkin..runnin..chioning..soc..seoc..ippt..hopefulli i can make it..
pro term..5mths long..taiwan thailand n brunei..
jungle survivor course anyone? haha..these 5 mths will be no less than gruesome.. but no doubt..
it will make me a better man..
gone r ex hercules..known for navi thru late..ex greensleve..tiring navi..ex tenderfoot..killer navi..ex zebra..day bashing attack in coy..ex spade..haha..2day 1 nite of pure diggin..ex skylark n nitebaird..summary of navi..wow..every excercise is a killer..
i salute the men n women(then again...?) of 59/05 sierra wing..thks for everything..
not forgetin..the sky..the sun n the stars..whom i draw strength day to day
spade is gone n done with..but thers a spade 2 in infantry which is worst...
i dunno how i made it thru..i cant ans anione..everyone juz dig..
hole after hole...from ankle to knee to waist to stomach to upper bod..its a killer..
lookin at my watch i still remember 4pm..5pm..6...7...8..9...10..11..12..1..2..3..4..5..6..7..8..9.10..11..12..1..2..3..4..5..6..7.. done.......
the watch tells it all...
the candles were used up..ther was no water due to admin prob..we forgot to eat.. n not forgetin 5 days w/o changing....

social night

haha.. its been a great weekend.. one that is long and fruitful...=)

friday: took leave and zz all the way till about12pm? wow.. POWER ZZ! THEN wake up to get prepared for the SOCIAL night.. was excited.. bought my dress, nail polish,manicure, hair removal cream.by 4pm, all was done. but nail wasn't nicely done, so decided not to apply...
6pm: darling called.. went home... took cab all the way to NuS guild house.. darling looked so so SMART! HAHA.. he look totally afreshed! differnet from the usual him who usually wears bers and t shirt.... =) the night was pretty funntenty... coz we taxi uncle didn't know where to alight.. dardar alighted and asked 2 strangers for directions.. INStead, they went in our cab and hitched a free ride till guild hse.. or maybe they are super friendly and warm to the extent thet they sat int eh cab with us juz to direct the taxi uncle.. then again, shthe lady even introduce themselves.. FUNNY? to have such incident in SINGAPORE? ld i doubt her kindness? maybe i am the mean one here...=) hahah..
went to the night... wasn't that fun.. had some programmes which wasn't that interesting and guess we are never lucky in lucky draws either..sat.listened, ate & laughed... have to say the place is beautiful at night... coz its by the pool with all the lightings.. but everything else juz wasn't what i anticipated... a little disappointed.. but ya.. as long as i am with darling, its never bad... =)

thoughts

its been a long long time since i last update our blog....... life has been pretty boring for the ast one week....
though i have tuition on wed.. shopping on friday.. but it seems so so different withouthearing my dear's voice...
friday: went shoppig with ras.. my colleague.. so FUN! i muz say.. she makes a very good companionin shopping! so funny ar she.... we dine at a romantic food court at city hall.. yes ROMANTIC FOOD COURT...... juz sitting there, admiring the scenery.. chatting.. haha... sshe disliked her elder bro.. juz LIKE ME! elder bro are IRRITATING!.. super irritating! think they owns everything! think they have the authority over everything.. .. so so STUBBORN! And brainless.. when can they grow up and think more maturely...
we went shopping at tangs.. brought many dresses into the changing room.. and we were both in one changing room.. ahha.. can you imagine that? but ya.. poor gal.. CLosed her eyes thruout..
hahaha.. "no peeping".... haha.. but ultimately, didn't buy any stuff.. hahahahaa.... wasted trip? not really.. think its fun........
BUT the BEST ting was that my dearie CALLED! GOSH! GOSH! GOSH! WOW! HAPPINESS JUZ OVERWHEMLED ME! =0 =) =)) 5 DAYS WITHOUT talking to him is so bad that i juz cannot fall alseep most of the nights.... thank god he is safe, thank god he has no major injuries, thank god he is not sick...my elder is home now.. only give me 20 mins more to surf....
UNREASONABLE.. DOMINATING.. AND SICKINGLY! coz i only use for a while... and he tinks that he own the com... I greatl dislike him to a large EXTENT! got to end now... if not he will resort to vulgarities anf violence.. pls pray him... to be a man.. hear me out, not 'to a better man'... but from a monster to a man... boo.........

misses

i miss my darling... .............

can you spot our pimples? 

misses

its the second day into darling's field camp......
ended the last call at 6am yesterday....... not the last forever, but the last one before he goes for
the tough 5 days 5 nights field camp... kind of worried... really worried... how will he survive... without me.. haha.. juz kidding.. =)
but really wonder how to survive without zz for days.... how will he survive by digging whole day and night.. wonder how will he survive with all the heavy loads.. with all the awful food he dislikes... under such a not sun.... and yet try to keep himself alert... OCS seems so tough.. that even my dear who is strong, falls..
but i am quite sure he will survive thru, coz i sincerely believes God on the above will watch over him.....
no communications with him for 30 hours le... no sms, no call, no voice, no emails.. gosh....
i miss him.............. miss him......
my life? back to work again.... only has one tuition gg on nowadays..which is starting very soon.... swimming? learnt it le..... think not gg anymore.... very practical.. save money... Also, it coz clashes with my tuition...so yup....
darling will be back this sat morning? afternoon? odac campfire coming up this sat... jc class outing coming too this sat...
*excited* *worried* *miss*

im scared

.....................
this is how i feel rite now..its tough i mean the nxt 5 days...
its called plt field camp..ex spade n ex zebra...for people to see the word spade..
yup..its SPADE..im goin do things that even bangala wont do...
it honestly feels like shit noein wat is goin to happen very soon..
in 3hrs..i be in..i be regimental..i be w/o smile..god..
i was a very cheerful n happy guy..that wa in the past..
i thought of depression..no..im fine..im juz....not lovin it..
as said..im losin myself..my patience..my happiness..my style..
its realli realli sad..
after book in..big inspection..i mean big..pack up..get screw..zzz for tom
mondae..go on bus to hell..marsellin jungle..oh my..im scared...
battle course..a lot of mosquito..camo with sweat..a lot of bites...
unpack..eat combat..oh my..eeeee..pukes..go for battle course..
12..1..2..3..4..5..6..7..8..9..10..11..12..powder..spread sheet..zzzz
tues 5am..battle course..12pm..zzz wher is the time? its spent goin up the hill down the slope...
wed..seccom...lead men to attack...ex zebra..timings..scoldins..
thurs n fri..ex spade...shellscrap x 2 trench x2 com post x1..if i can get thru that..
i can get thru anything..no zz..
wana dig non stop for 30hrs anyone?
fri..keep all..sat..comehm...
no book out..haiz..
its been a hard last week..
im sorry everyone..im feelin down...im feelin depress...
now im a bit better...
i think i should take things lighter..
love fam n dear...
god pls take care of them when i cant...
...........

celebration at marina 

birthday cele with darling

wow.... now a final summary of my birthday cele with darling......

28th May 2005:

• my dear celebrated with me... hahha...
• went to work early in the morning... 6 hr for 100 bucks as a surveyer... good job ar...
• met up with darling at 5 plus at orchard...
• went to dine at marina bay...... the steamboat was terrific! haha.. ate a lot of good food..... really a lot.... there's life lobster, live crabs and life prawns.... if you watched sharks tale... then you ought to feel sinful eating the life prawns..... haha.. rmb the part where the prawn begs for help.... *guilty*
• ate and ate and ate..... baby was so sweet.. he cooked most of the food, while i ate most of the "cooked food"..... hmm.... *guilty* hehehz....
• then here comes the surprise! take a look at the photo and you will know! the cookish cake! wow! you can really see shining!!!!
• sang me a birthday song... "happy birthday to you.. happy birthday to you..." SSSSSOOOOO SWWWWEET...!!!!! i duno why.. but i always feel super blessed and emotional whenever ple sings me birthday song. and i am blowing a birthday cake......very very happy!!! Under the silent sky, i make a wish... a wish that i hope will come true..... dear lord, did you hear my calling? =)
• left the place,... set off the meet up with darling's parents!!!!!!! oh mine... and darling's realtives.... *NERVOUS* though this isn't the first time, butterflies are all over my stomach... can't help me...
• ya.. met them. Scared. talked. everything went off well..... luckily...... *phew...*
• uncle fetched me home.. left dear again... bid off with a kiss... one that i hope will last forever.... a sweet birthday... its the second time... waiting for the third time and going...

thats all for the day.... misses my dear who is still in camp....

i love my cake......