gbithday gift form dearie... guess what inside? 

awe......... isn't that sweet....and special and delicious.....

this week has been the least pressurin and least days spent in ocs
generally still cant help but wana ord wana regain life..
its juz so sickenin to wake at 5 to begin the day that ends at 10 or at times 12 coz of..haha..
nah.its juz the wakin up dear..the fact that even the sun is zzing...
anyway..this week n next plannin for ex zebra+ ex Spade..
hopefulli can finish in 5days but then again it means 4 days w/o sleep...
crazy?im not jokin..4long days..if i can get thru these missions..ATEK better watch out...
nah..aft this is oni 1 more test n 1 24k..senior bar...end of ST term..haha..3 more weeks..
not bookin out aft 4/6..
so yup...will be havin ops order..warnin orders..aop..nothing realli physical but definately mentalli pressuring...they shag u out then make u think...
ex zebra is all abt attackin which is qiong sua...walk till u break..
ex spade..enough said..u noe they say in ocs thers 2 memorable things 1 ex spade 1 ex lancer..
spade is juz dig till u drop..i mean 2day n nite..killer..
im now seatin like a duck ready to be killed ...
doesn't feel gd..yeah im whinin...but yeah im in it...
had a great birthday with my other half...
cake..ok it wasn't...ring..food...wow..hope she loves it..
i promise k..nxt yr i be ther on 310505..
i mean it..sorrie dear for last n this yr..stuck in camps..
sorry...
well had a 16k then soccer then dating..legs n shoulders tearin me..
but muz put up the stong face...
cant wait for ex to end..live fire to end..
its the end of ST..start of 6mth pro...
1/4 into army...
cheers:)

east coast

our rings............... *smilez* my birthday gift...



it was a good wednesday! an extraordinary one...... a special one...... haha.. coz it was spent with my baby........ a wed? baby not in camp... out at east coast with me.. haha.. yeah! thats right! feel so blessed! dream come true! =) coz its a wed you know........
met up at giant to get our pinic stuff...... haha.. but first of all... Lunch! its impt... had burger king... delicious.. =) *hungry* darling was so hungry that he ate ice cream, burger fries and a large coke.. hmm... *hungry hungry* shopped .. and gotten "chicken su", chicken biscuit and his white kit kat... gotten coffee and food for mum too... wasn't a conspiracy darling..... its good to "ai wu ji wu" =)
reached east coast, gotten the bikes.. and started biking.... this time round no more couple bikes.. decided to try out individual bikes... and weEEEEEEE.... here we go...... wasn;t that smooth.. heard a lot of screeching sound.. something wrong with darling's bike.. changed it, and ya.. the uncle crapped lot...telling us why the bike is llike this and like that.... (we dun really need to know why you see...) cycled all the way to Bedok jetty and enjoyed the breeze...... may "fishermen" wer there.. sometimes i really ponder... are there any fishes? seriously????? ate our su there... ate the biscuits.. ate and ate.. looked into the calm sea.. not that beautiful.. coz there were vessels lying everywhere... not a nice sight.. not aiding us to escape from reality... then we cyled off.. coz dear desra think concrete was not nice.. he prefered to sit on grass? my poor NS boy, GRASS? again?? hehhez..so we cycled again.. this time round.. no more "free lift" its individual bikes..
reached anothert part of east coast... further down.... sat on these rocks... *nicey*.. though ants accompanied us all the way... juz sat down there and enjoyed the breeze.. comfort. comfortable. comfy.was the word.. haha.. and i was given my BIRTHDAY present! its a pair of rings! *Beautiful* GONNA WEAR IT FOR LIFE.. UNITL THE NEXT OFFICIAL ONE COME..*HINTZ* when are u gg to give me, my dearie? hehez.. =)
opps.. work gg to end le..
to be continued.

our plant after 2 weeks 

*1/2 + 1/2 = one*



without any half, our life wouldn't be complete. ('',)

at sentosa 

our plant after one week 

cycling trip 

cycling trip 

hahaha

haha..... my dearie booking out later in hte evening for e learning....
hhahhahaa... gg out with dearie tmr.... hahha.. =) cancelled swimming class,
took leave le...
all READY TO GO OUT...... hahha.. =)
finished my work long ago.... slacking here very happily.... haha.. finally not so much workload le...
hahahha.... =)

a nicey sat....

its a nicey sat... met up with rui to send mag's parel.. but guess what? none of us rmb to bring mag's add... hahaa.. so funny.. we came to our realization only after we paid... so ya.. luckily.mag's msg wasn't deleted yet...so my phone became the hero of the day! hehez.. =) ended walking... rui bought her cake.. for her mum's birthday.. then met jia yi... hahaha.. she still looks the same.. as cheerful and cute... ate her apple dipped in Choco! DELICIOUS! =) and guess what? she also said i SLIMMED down! hahahz... =)

then met up with yen ling to have lunch.... haha.. her ryan kept calling.. when he haven even reach... aiyo... NRS NG was smiling away.. coz her ryan was here to fetch her.. awe.. adn i hopped on for a free ride too... yup.. raiing cats and dogs.. felt paisei to ask him to fetch to destined place.. so dropped down and je.. and met up with darling..

DARLING! hehez.. so HAPPY to see him! =) =) =) lakeside mrt.. dear was drenched... aiyoyo.. very drenched.. i sweprt across his hair and water juz slashed all over.. wooo... all his gel was gone.. awe.... haha.. but still looked as cute... set off to town.... wated to watch STARS WAR... went to PS, cineleisure.. but tickets were sold out.. we knew it wld ne.. juz a little dumb.. but its ok.. coz ultimately we WATCHED .. at TION bahru... seats not TOO BAD..SHOW WAS TERRIFIC!!!!!!!! to all who have not catched it. watch it! really good! have not catched any episodes before. bu this is enough to attract you.. the sound effects, the visual aspects, no smell though.. haha..juz REMARKABLE! =)
ended the show with dearie's sending me home.. nice bf ar... yesterday i came across this article stating how guys feels about girls...
guys: "girls take free rides for granted, didn't attempt to pay for petrol or buy drinks to reward the guys" something along this line.. was so disgusted by this statement.. it juz shows how stingent and petty the guy is... haiz.. what have those guys become of... furthermore they are undergrads... thought it was a juz a simple gesture to show himself being a gentleman... haiz.. but i did not state that we, ladies shld take guys for granted.....this kind of statement juz turns me off... i am no feminist..... but of coz, there was a statement," i thik it is alright, as long as the girl is happy, i am happy." awe.. doesn't that shows the insignificant of the previos man more?haha.. lets ponder...

kk.. think i shall end off by saying.. i am fortunate.. coz up till now,my guy seems more of the second guy...sent me home vouluntarily on sat night.. *smilez*=)

life...

wow...
what a pressurin week..
ocs is tough...
coz when they drain u physicalli..
they test ur mental strength...
very tired..hurt neck nuckles knee cap..
soc..9k...all test u gotto pass
3 arms in 1 week... siong
hope n pray for a better week ahead...
love dear n fam
take care.

i am sitting in a head's room...hahahahaha....

hahah... i am slacking a head's room.... so so cool! nobody will walk pass you.. peeping at what you are doing..... can relax and enjoy life... but thats once you have finished your work.... and i have finished my work... so cool.. its 2 persons to one room... but now my partner is away.. so its like alone.. cool ar? cool............. =) nice experience.. all THANKS TO the P file... coz of them, i get to use the room..... =) still very happy over it... =).. kk....
now if you wonder whats my life is about....
it has changed!
830am-6pm=work
from 6 onwards... no more tuition... coz my kids mid year are over...
everybody take a break.....
so i get to watch the show... AH WANG! VERY TOUCHING.. VERY NICE! I cried with ah wang when his ife left him... if you watched it, its the part when he was chopping the woods and sobbing.... very heartbreaking....
went swimming yesterday... couldn't BELIEVE it! i think i LEARNT it! coz managed to swim one breadth without stopping.......up and down into the water was my momentum.. and it was right.. whole body wasn't that tense as before... relax was what i tried to do... i make it! very happy! muz thankd yi hui too.. for accompanying me and helping me... vivien too! and of coz my swmming instuctors! hahhaha..... but come back to think again.. think i haven really learnt it.. coz all along i was at medium pool.... hahhaa... "guess Practise makes perfect".. neeed to swim more le.. but the cholrine damages your hair... *sobx sobx*
after which, i went for supper.... 5 bucks worth of Rojak! and 3 bucks worth of dim sum.. not very filling.. but its very fattening...coz already way past 9pm... oh mine.. there goes my 45kg....went home... heard darling's voice.. very happy! he has Cadet mass lor! so good! ate so much! knowing that he well fed makes me less wrried.... haha.. eat more k dear! =) coz "eating keeps you gg" ritez? *winkz* but i am sure my hp bill is gg to explode... sms already exceed.. and the end of month is still a long way to go... hehez..
and to all that prayed for my darling... THANK YOU! coz his neck is better le... yup...... and he passed HIS soc! and his explosion test! =)
happy for him... *happy*

i am sitting in a head's room...hahahahaha....

hahah... i am slacking a head's room.... so so cool! nobody will walk pass you.. peeping at what you are doing..... can relax and enjoy life... but thats once you have finished your work.... and i have finished my work... so cool.. its 2 persons to one room... but now my partner is away.. so its like alone.. cool ar? cool............. =) nice experience.. all THANKS TO the P file... coz of them, i get to use the room..... =) still very happy over it... =).. kk....
now if you wonder whats my life is about....
it has changed!
830am-6pm=work
from 6 onwards... no more tuition... coz my kids mid year are over...
everybody take a break.....
so i get to watch the show... AH WANG! VERY TOUCHING.. VERY NICE! I cried with ah wang when his ife left him... if you watched it, its the part when he was chopping the woods and sobbing.... very heartbreaking....
went swimming yesterday... couldn't BELIEVE it! i think i LEARNT it! coz managed to swim one breadth without stopping.......up and down into the water was my momentum.. and it was right.. whole body wasn't that tense as before... relax was what i tried to do... i make it! very happy! muz thankd yi hui too.. for accompanying me and helping me... vivien too! and of coz my swmming instuctors! hahhaha..... but come back to think again.. think i haven really learnt it.. coz all along i was at medium pool.... hahhaa... "guess Practise makes perfect".. neeed to swim more le.. but the cholrine damages your hair... *sobx sobx*
after which, i went for supper.... 5 bucks worth of Rojak! and 3 bucks worth of dim sum.. not very filling.. but its very fattening...coz already way past 9pm... oh mine.. there goes my 45kg....went home... heard darling's voice.. very happy! and he juz went for cadet mass... wow.. ate so much food!! very good! coz it juz means he is well fed... and yup! knowing that makes me worry less..... and most imptly.." food keeps him gg" so muz eat more k dear!=) but i am sure my hp bill is gg to explode... sms already exceed.. call timing also! and the end of month is still a long way to go... hehez..
and to all the prayed for my darling... THANK YOU! coz his neck is better le... yup...... and he passed HIS soc! and his explosion test! =)
happy for him... *happy*

oh gosh.... i miss my darling.......

let me see.. yesterday was an "activities filled"day...... went for work....... again got to wake at 730am! so tired... but ya..... i am fortunate le.. dardar got to wake at 4 plus 5.... hmm... and he sprained his neck yesterday after SOC... wonder how is he now.. juz tried to call him but reception so poor! didn't get thru after 5 times of calling........ ya... he is going to have 4 tests today...coz he has to make up for the "chicken pox" lessons hat he missed.... "crash course" very bad hor.... very pressurizing.... so ple out there, please pray for him k....
as for me..... juz went for a medical checkup yesterday. part of the requirement to be a teacher... the GP was so hmm... professional? didn't smile... look kind of unfriendly... luckily is a she... coz she pressed here and there....they even checked for breast cancer for you... so one can imagine what she did.... i was shy... (0"0) and the process is sUPER "ticklish "... couldn't help laughing... but she looked into me and said:" i still got to examine you"... VERY PROFESSIONAL? and UNFRIENDLY........ anyway.... glad that i was fine... nothing wrong! and guess what! i weighed 45 kg! wow! how long have i not seen this figure... hahhahaa... there was the highlight of the day! =) then liyun and i went to jalan jalan at BUgis...hahhaa.. liyun very nice..... accompanied me all along.. and we went to get stuff for my parents, her parents, and darling's parents.. its a "parents' day"? hahaha.. but ya.. guess we have grown to a certain maturity level, realizing its time to show some filial peity.... no longer juz your parents taking care of you.. but the other way round... =) ate YAKUN..the one at Raffels hospital... not that delicious... i wonder why.. maybe there's lesser kaya and butter.. maybe its bacause i always eat with darling and he is not here that day.. hehezz.... lets wonder.... had a free gift from watsons... shld be a shared one.. but liyun said let me take it... she is so nice hor... not jin jin ji jiao... hehez.... end off the day with taking a super crowded train....squeeze... squeeze and SQUEEZED.... finally got into the train...
had a nice day with liyun... had a pleasant medical checkup.... the only worry is my darling's neck......

tired

its sat nite
juz back from dear n parents outin..
a lot of crap to do...
that includes 2ys of ns..
no wonder its called a LIABILITY.
God bless.

complaints

haha.. wondering whats our life like? my darling.. hmm.. he's having a lot of tests these weeks... a lot of muging to do for him.. a lot of physical tests too...juz came back from field camp.. then a lot of life shooting.. very tiring.. .. told me OCs is increasing the tempo of the traiing.. so its getting morre nad more xiong... haiz... i miss him..... darling has ulcers , rashes, bites, deep cuts and a lot of stuff.. haiz.. what shld i do to lessen his suffering.. any recommendations? feel so helpless...shall get him some cream.. hope it at least help.. no heaty stuff le.. shall get herbal tea..
and for me, i took up swimming lessons! FINALLY! wanted to learn for a long long time le.. hope everyhting will be fine.. coz i am like so old le.. learn swimming..... *so funny* hope everything turns out well.. learning with yu zhen.. very excited! but nervous too.. coz wearing swimsuit...
todays work very stressed.. co zhave a lot of amendments.. really ALOT! i chaged once.. reprint everything.. changed twice reprint everything... changed thrice.. repeat everything.. the worst thing is they say change time of interview.. and i was preparing interview file.. muz change all the candidate's cover pages! at least SHRED 100pages of paper le! was piss off.. but muz appear cool.. coz its work.. nofault, no arguments.. juz do.. thats the mentality! haiz... but ya.. cindy was sweet.. gave me a chocolate...
and i got into another phase of my life le.. where i know for sure, i am gg to be "miss lin" maybe "mrs liew"for e rest of my life.. signed some teachign agreement.. haiz.. dunno whether thats the best choicebut i know i am gg to make the best out of it... so so lifeless nowadays.. i miss my darling very much.. trying to occupy myself with a lot of things.. then wun miss him that time...when's his NS finishin???????????????????????? i miss him.....................

darling's second day into field camp.....

its the second day into my darling's field camp...
i miss him...... its raining... dunno whether they have any rest........ and shelter...

cadet too tired to think izzit?

haha..this e phrase for the week...
juz book out at 8 goin back at 8...
very tires after zzing at 330am and wakin at 6am...
ok time to show qualities in an officer...
goin marsellin area for training...
so so dead...look at the heavy downpour...
wet muddy dirty stinky...
combat shit again for 3 days...puke...
law+sar? m203? saw? anythin except signal set...
think im begging to regain myslef in ocs...
very injured, very tired, very bruised...
life goes on...
1 hr zz for mon n tues...
So again,
cadet too tired to think izzit?
love dear n fam forever.

today's the eve of mother's day.... went out with yen leng juz now...... haha.. she had her haircut and i have my eyebrow trimming! =) got to say her hair looks neater and lesser now.. pretty girl! hehezz.. and my eyebrow now looks neater but i juz can't help whine whine and whine... can't get used it.. imagine a girl with thick black eyebrow suddenly left with soem seductive thin aunitsh eyebrow.. juz can't get used to it .... haha.. i hope i will cool down soon... .glad that yen leng like the personalised service in the shop i recommend..... hehezz.. =)

and guess what! i got into Buisness at NUs.. and teaching at NTU.... wow!!!!!!! BUisness was my first choice.. and i have to reject the reputable NUS offer... felt a little heartache.. coz all of us know NUS is better... but i like teaching more.... NIE..... Here i comes..... haha....its luxurious offer! paying you 1112 bucks per month while you ar studying.. and i dun have to worry about my tuition fees... and my passion lies in teaching.. haha.. oh mine! i love MOE!!!

Tmr is going to be our 18th month anniversary! and its mother's day... haha.. got my mum flowers.. and money... she thinks money is the most practical stuff.. so ya.. typical singaporean. =) hahha... got a little present for my darling... i am so sure he will loves it! coz its delicious biscuit that he always wanted... haha..went all the way to paragon to get you know.. haha... yen leng went with me too.... =) haha.. she got so vexed by complains.. haha... cannot help la.. eyebrow so horrid..... tmr our plant will start to grow! we are gg to breathe life into it! "breathing life ceremony!" so cool! very excited... but ya.. he is only booking out at 12pluz.. then in at 8pm.... we only have so little time.. .. so muz treaure this moments even more.. another one week to seeing him after tmr....

think army relationship really not easy... though he is in Sinagpore... you can't meet up with him as and when you like... it requires alot of understanding between the couple..... definitelty misses him a lot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! count me fortunate i guess.. coz at least he calls me every night and trys his best to sms me in the day to make sure i feel loved...... not once but as much as he can... how sweet can a bf gets..... i really thank God so much for him....

Talking about God, its been a long time since i stepped into a church.. think god is hinting me to go back... but ya.. lazy flesh of mine juz refuses to go..... haiz.. .. i muz go this week or next... very soon......

and yes! i almost went clubbing with my odac girls yesterday!!!! then it would have been memorable.. as that would be the first time in my entire life! but but but....... its all fated.... the 5 of us (shi yin, hui yuan, jia hui,, manwei and myself) all wear flat sandals... those typical lady sandals.. and are given refusal at entry..... so so disappointed... but ya.. maybe it is a blessing in disguise... coz darling was so worried for me..... haha.. feel so fortunate.. coz this shows that he cares.. (o",o) but ya.. i will definitly take good care of my drink if i ever go there... dun worry darling... i love you! hehez..

sucha nice day we had had................
ever since emy darling went OCS.....
our dating days has been minimized.....
real minimized..... thus this outing that we had is really memorable.......
went east coast....... beautiful weather.... thought we thought it maybe hot,
but its not... breezy... windy.... juz the nice weather for cycling........
went cycling..... such a nice biking trip...... we cycled up and down.... this time now slowly..... appreciating all our pleasant surroundings.... so comfortable! coz i was at the back... dun need much efforts to cycle... he controlled everything... =) hehezz... sat down to enjoy our ice cream... i realized my darling eats professional ice cream eater... if one can imagine how he gobblean ice cream without it really melting under the hot sun... wow.. mine was like ice cream all over my hands while eating but he is not....... that muz be his talent! an ice cream eater! =) set our worries aside... and juz enjoyed the breeze... eating sandwiches... drinking ice lemon tea... sitting on the grass patch under a tree.... it wa perfect! a very nicey couplish setting..... it felt really warm to have your loved one sitting beside you.. holding you close... at the moment, i thought i am dreaming.. but its so real...... love my darling... and yes! sea turtle! haha...... *winks* do you think we saw one? hahaz...... weather seems not by our side as we enjoyed.... dark clouds gathered.. so its time to leave...... we biked all the way back.... haha.. and yes! managed to shoot our biking photo.... it was professional! not easy.... the roads were clustered with ple cycing.. walking.. rollerblading.. running... but we managed too... nicey! =) we left off an dset the wrong bus... hahaa. but its nice sitting in a the wrong bus.. as long as its with your loved ones... haha.. i am drowning in love..... haha.. went to Bugis.. and shop around.. now i know my birthday gift le! hahaha... receieved a plant for anniversary! haha.. okok.. will breathe life into it on 8th of may... not because its mother's day.. but its our 18th month anniversary... .. =)

another significant dae

now seating on a chair chilling...ocs hw not done yet...gotto sae 2 yrs of ns is too long...look at me im not even 5mths thru'..anyway..think every guy is the same..the shit we go thru to defend the land..its admirable..currently pondering abt my vocation..infantry?com eng?sig?amour infant?
i jux dun wana keep walkin my life away..its wat infan does best..but ocs is definately a great living site..any opinions?i love lookin at the sky..coz its soothin..but it doesn't provide me ans..
the oni ans i have is that i gotto serve 2 years..im tired..im weak..but i cant complain.. coz im an officer cadet...the clouds are glorious..the chair..the ability to seat is god given..with a laptop n a radio..this is what i lived for..in a few hours time..its back to camp..back to regementation.. back to serve...how i wished i was muggin for my mid year now...too bad im not...not this yr nor nxt yr...ntu or nus?well..its a unanimous ntu..stupid?maybe...life as i aske the one up ther...wher does it lead..till now i still see darkness..more 24hr book out includin recalls...more ns...im losing myself..i muz find it back....

heaven again..

cant believe it...wow...
i had a great mayday....
hope she had it too...
dear... 1 n.d. + 1 teaching = happiness...
hope u treasure it...
juz like me...
love u baby...
might be goin long this time...
pls hang on and cherish e moments...
god bless.

life goes on

to all..my life recoverd...
lets see...
i got to the field camp../
i made n carried on in ocs...
i fainted 2x in field camp...
many and i mean many fainted,fever,exhaustion...
2 helivac to hospitals...
1 n.d created by me...
going to report for rp duties n a crow...
very bad week...
mom...
happi moms days....
dear...
im so so so glad for u in moe...
n pls...
dun be blogged down by work coz u always have avenues to get to me and fam...
love u...
thank u god...
hope for a better time ahead...
e rainy days r passin n the sun is out...
take care all...

=(

wonder why my life has been so listlesss these days.....
bf in Ns... miss him........
no time for my family too.......... feel so guilty............
i dun know what i am living for these days.......
work and tuition has made me a lifeless person.....
no joy, no hope, no purpose.....
been thinking a lot..... but wonder what i am thinking of........
miss my school days......
miss my dating dates......
miss my exam days.......... (at least there is a purpose)
miss my friends' outings...........
think i am too exhausted from work......
need a long long long break..................................

second day of field camp....

second day into darling's field camp.......
wonders how is he.... miss him....
again another working day....
but today is special...
no tuition after work.... fianlly can go home and eat with parents....
rest and relax......
it seems like a long long time since i can go home after work....
miss my friends too.......
miss spending time with them...... interview results are still not out....
wonder how i will perform.....
my life seems to be full of misses., anticipation....
exhausted.

feelings

back to work again..........
monday blues............
but at least he didn't called.....
that shows he is in field camp.....
a clerk that types no more,
a storeman no more......
he is back.....
back to where he wants to belong...
i dreaded working.....
dreaded not being able to see you....
but knowing you are back in there....
juz makes my day filled with flair....
though i miss you, my little soul...
i know our "parting" makes love grow........

composure

i sure have a lot....
but im fearing...
for the worst is waiting...
n the lite is fading...
get ur butt over that trench soilder...
get this typed for me clark...
whers my food storeman...
3 into 1...
which one?
god noes.

cheer up k...

To my dearest darling,

everything will be alright ya.......
no worries ya.....
no matter what happens, be it a disappointment or setback....
as long as our hearts are linked,
there's nothing we cannot overcome.......
plus you have a loving parents.....
who dotes and sacrifices for you...
Plus you have a heart that is full of desires and sincerity...
God will see and hear....
i am sure he will bless you in his special way...
darling, juz go with a heart that is light ya....
i am sure everything will be alright looking at all the hardened spots...
i love you.....

cheer up!

To my dearest darling,

Everything is going to be alright....
No worries ya.....
Even if its a clerk, storeman..some man...
it doesn't matter.... As long as our hearts are linked,
there is nothing we cannot overcome ya...
Plus you have such loving parents....
who are willingly to sacrifice so much for you....
i am sure everything will go well...
cheer up k!
Go with a light heart.....
coz God sees and God Hears....
i love you...........

will.....

when thers a will thers a way...
thank u god...
for bringing that back to me in my dreams...

lowest pt of my life...

can't believe wat happen to my life..they brought me to heaven and sent me to hell..
imagine a boy..of lofty ambitions..tryin to excel in everything he did..for who some asked..his parents?yes..they r old..they dun have much to live for except to see their son succede..his gf?for honour and glory?nope..juz to make himself stronger and better as a man..
for his country?definately a little..this boy realli wana defend the soil that he was riaised..every sweat..every cut..he wanted to give in and give up..be a man..some will say..he doesn't..he realise he can acheive better things..fight for more men..the higher he goes..
juz like he repeats everyday..i dedicate my life to singapore..
will u, my officers?
so he kept fighting..kept sheddin weight..kept trainin personalli.. he reached heighs he nvr imagined..it all paid off it seems..
the more we sweat in peace the less we bleed in war...he confided in it..believing it will see him thru..n till now everything was fine..
he could imagine holdin the sword..but it seeems yet to be
all of a sudden..some rash developed..ah muz be bites from mosquitoes..oh no..cant be chic pox..boy knew he had to report..he knew he will lose his sword..a direct fall from heaven not to earth but to hell..he couldn't accept the truth..it hurts if one noes how garang he have been...
its realli chic pox..saw the sir..thats it dot com...boy was absolutely devasted..had some tears in his eyes..if he cant make it by sundae..hes out..hes out?wats goin to happen...
the future turned real dark..god's will?he sincerly dun noe wat lies ahead..most prob hes goin to be a clark then be a clark..a man or be recoursed...either ways r all very very bad solutions..he cant handle the truth..but he muz...
went to see a doc that cost 358..wow..thats a huge sum...dad got him chinese med..he saw how much his family loved him..it made him felt worse..if thers anything he could do..he would rather go for the field camp even having fever..hes a little miserable..coz he noes his gf cares..that makes him wana prove himself..he cant give up the chancee..but he has to console his dad that his son juz cant make it as an officer..why? god?dreAms utterly crushed..
at times he looked to the sky for reason..he mug military stuff..
but the answer is simple and he noes it..he needs a miracle..
n here he made his promise..to train to be the best officer if he had a chance to resume...coz he wana protect his land..his men..his family..his future wife..

boy oh boy..

a nice working day...

today today today.... feeling so tired now... hope i can zz immediately now..... juz had my lunch.... was plain yong tau hu.... nothing special... feeling so sick now... wishes to go home and rest.. oh God, help me.... wake me up! ya... nothing to do now coz my colleague not here.. called another 2 persons for work, but they did not pick up..guess i will wait unitl they call back.. actually i can ask rina for work.. but i am so so lazy.... *lazy*
darling juz called me... and he told me about pimples.. hehezz... so funny.. but come to think about it, think it muz be the lack of zz, the heatiness in him.. i shall try to cook herbal tea this weekend.. haha.. first time again! so excited now... hahha... hope darling wun get diarhoea...
went to catch a movie last sunday.. quite nice a movie i got to say..:guess who".. white in black house... a lot of funny jokes.. not the type of show i will indugle in for a movie... think this show didn't make full use o'poemf the technology.... juz a drama.. couldn't forget the part on the dad using his son-in-law's love 'poem'.. so funny! wonder whether darling really enjoy himself... coz he ws sick... so soory dear.. next time we juz chilled out at your place k? no more gg out this week.. think your body needs plenty of rest now... gg back to work le... 3 more days to darling's book out... =)

finally see my baby...

darling, i am sorry.. didn't meant to be so rude today... ya.. thought you were angry..so i kept quiet... of coz i know i am holding your hand! ya.. you made the right point.. i have to cherish the time spent... shouldn't let saddness overwhelmed our day... juz thinking today why didn't you pull the chair for me.. when you told me you pull for other ladies.. *sobs* think i am super petty.. and narrow-minded.. and sensitive... but darlin, pls pardon this "small lady" in me coz it is only normal for girlfriendjuz a little jealousy..coz you are my only baby... the day started with us meeting at je.. oh no.. saw baby waiting but i wasn't late... baby was early...Hand in hand, we went to Bedok...he saw the pancake.. and guess he was disgusted by it.. coz i made it at ard 2am.. and keep it in fridge then warm it this morning... looks a little soggy.. oh mine.. no wonder he took a quick glance and guess no more desire for 2nd glance.. hehez.. reached bedok, ate our lunch... and PANCAKE! hhaa.. oh mine! it tasted really bad but darling managed to stuff in quite a few.. and guess what he said it taste great! at least i know he appreciated my efforts.... butya.. the honest feedback was of coz not too gd afterall....went to shop ard for specs and contacts lens.. and dardar managed to get quite a good deals..happy for him...given that the salesgirl was friendly and pretty as compared to 1 fierce aunty, my dardar decided to buy from her.. haha.. of coz not! that shop was cheaper and ya.. he did his previous spec from that shop too...
then we went down to Orchard.. reason was to get my oven! haiz... but ya.. the oven which was the last piece looks distorted , dirty and "used".. so ya.. have to drop the idea.. went ard to look for other 7-11 along orchard.. but to no avail... *sobs* *sobs* as always, my sweet baby secretly went to buy my fav. DOVE choco to cheer me up! awe..... that is so sweet.... love my baby! juz realize i always feel very secure when my baby is around... think my baby is so wonderful a bf! i am so lucky.. (o'',O) as we strolled, baby told me abt his life in OCS... FEEL SO SO ANGRY FOR HIM! haiz.. what happen to all the officer to be.. always thought they were supposed to be appreciative, polite, matured and kind.. but haiz.. feel very sad for dear.. coz he has to bear all these unappreciative ple.. rude and childish.. Thank God my darling has high tolerance level.. if not, i think he ould have erupted...darlin.. life isn't that bad ya.. at least you still have a happy family, alwasy behind you... and mrs liew who will try her best to be there too....darling, though i can't change them, but God can. i will pray that they do reflections upon themselves and realize how mean they had been.. its so tough on my baby... dun be demoralised k.. only got to be with them for a few months and everything will be over.. talk more to better ple k.. hurts me to see you being "bullied".. or maybe ya.. as what you said, " one only has one life, so live it! choose to be happy..." love my baby.. had a great saturday.

ocs

hey ther...me now using com in ocs...
thers this room in the cadets mess...
dear, i miss u...
ocs rawks!

life now

wow...got a bit of time here..
finalli can tok abt life...
ocs is a great place in terms of food lodging facilities
but it be bad in terms of trainin..
for frends...juz wana tell u all im so busy i have hardly got time for
my fam n my dear...
so sorrie pals but ocs is choking..n i repeat chokin me...
but nonetheless...im feelin gd
pt is tough...run run n run..thats ocs fav pastime..now i love 2.4k...
currently in st term...hopefulli can stay on...
better frends have left..navy n air wing...all e best...
buddy goonna go too...
sierra wing is like bravo coy...welfare seems to be gd...
but no less we sweat...
life goes on..hectic..high pace
+more pimples...
goin in soon to learn arms...
love dear
love fam
god bless all.

officers creed

im an officer of the singapore armed forces
my duty is to lead, to excel and to overcome
i lead my men by example
i answer for their trainin, moral and discipline
i must excel in everything i do
i serve with pride, honour and integrity
i will overcome adversity with courage, fortitude and determination
i deticate my life to singapore

sierra......
dear...im sorry i broke my promise but timing was realli bad
hope u accept my apologies

Parent(plus gf) visiting day

met up with darling! so so happy! =) eyes glimmered.... though its been only 5 days, its seems like years since i last met him... miss him...... he still looks the same, with the usual cute look and cheeky smile...=) not a lot of pimples darling....=) we went to tour around the whole of OCS.. wow! as what he always tell me, it is really awesome.... i must say that practically everywhere, it is very neat, clean and tidy... i was amazed that i saw no litters... wow.. went to the tower.. took a very small lift...and went all the way up...the magnificent sight coupled with the cooling breeze sums it all...... BEAUTIFUL. one could see the industrial area and neighbourhood from here... it is supposed to mean something but i forget what it is. hehehz... darling's bunk is so neat. The design is so hostel-like.. with 2 beds, 2 cupboards, 2 shelves and a long table wit computer.. i think i wouldn't mind having a room like that.. next, the most impt place, the dining hall.. wow... given that there is a stage, clean big tables... individual comfortable chairs... nice environment with wonderful circulation of air.. and even speakers which will have music on during meals time.. one can imagine the luxury of dining there.... haha.. at least i know my darling is well looked after... or maybe very well looked after.. =) after that, we settled down at a air conditioned recreation centre in OCS..(i forget the name again)hehez...with videos,comfortable sofas, high chairs.. and tables, nice tea, coffee, hot choco... wow..BUT i think darling hasn't had much time to visit there....As the saying goes,"can't judge a book by its cover", these are only the exterior... the training is tough...both mentally & physically tough..After all, think the main comfort i derived would be to have darling walking by me.. its seems like a very long time since i last walked with him.....think a simple walk means much when you can't be with your loved ones always.. Time flies, we needed to leave.... argh... dun feel like leaving at all... its gonna be ages before i get to see darling again... ya.... left in his dad's car.... started to miss somebody... somebody who is so close in heart but so far on land...... but ya.. its worth the wait darling.. coz deep in my heart i know that we really love each other.... 3 & 1/2 days and counting....=)

=)

i am now working as i blogged..
if you wonder whats my life now... here it goes,
730am: wake up.
830am:start work
630pm: end work.
730pm:start tuition
930pm: end tuition
1020pm:home sweet home.
the rest of the activities differ daily.... haha.. thats my life....though it may seems mechanical, i derive alot of pleasure in giving tuition... The kids can be pretty interesting cute... some are challenging... some are simply adorable.. =) and.. my darling calls me every night, life isn't as dull as it seems... =) hehezz.. thats is what i am looking forward to everyday... really misses him...... received his "last" call this morning and he is out for field camp for two days two nights... awe........ no calls for 2 nights.. how to survivie........ (*.*) miss you..... but yup! gonna see him on sunday.. his parent visiting day... haha.. there's a mixture of feelings within me.. gg to go with his parents.. feels very shy.. kind of not wanting to trouble them... but gg with them will make the whole "meeting up: easier i guess... and i definietly miss my dalring.. so it is a must go... miss you darling.. gg back to work.... =)

ocs

wow...ocs too fast too furious..everydae 5-10..unbelievable..thers no rest time..
full of lect n running...great food..much better than things out here..great shower n bed...
very zzpy these daes...very discilined..got my white bar...miss my fam n dear so much..
so much of classified stuff to noe..so much to mug..
to lead to excel to overcome SIERRA...
book in n out ic...section ic...
love u dear...be out in field..will miss u n fam...
take care all.

mrs liew 

mr liew

man on an island

=) 

on bus to sentosa 

at sentossa 

continue...

Wow..its so long n i have so much of feelings in me..bookin in tomoroe..feelin nostalgi todae..u realli wana insight in my life?heres my breakdown..
5..wakie wakie..bros..i'll not forget..last to fall in 1st to eat..blurlook..pack stuff..wash up..pack bed..prepare myself for a new day...
530..fall in..always last few..include dicky n sloth..fs too..drink water..hey thers prob with tekong water dude..breakfast/arms..choose ur pick...
630..zz time..area cleaning restricted oni to book out daes...haha..
700..report for activity 1.."here we go again,same old shit again"..
10..activity 2.."lunch commin baby..hang on"
1130..lunch.."purple lite..."by tham..zzzz till 115
115..activity 3...
300..activity 4..im so hungry...
540..dinner..
7...nite stff..hopefulli thers snacks..most of the time too hopefull
9..pack wash call pull zzzz
11..lites officially out..
1130..zzzz
MY LIFE!...not too bad if u noe the activities n even greater coz of 58th bronco plt 1 bros

welcome to my life...

Wow..10 days have past since my blog leave..n todae i decide to share how my life has been in the past 2 month +...kudos for those who fought beside me...
"Can't forget,still remember"....wow..7/1/05..d-dae arrived..parted with a msg to my dear..was travellin with my parents..6+n had to reach camp by 730..tekong..they told me it is a fun place..relax..which i agree to some extent..had to sign a form...for those that still have no idea..its an indem form...2 yrs of ns..thats wat u signed..had a western meal..swore in to..."protect singapore till death"...had to part n a new chapter begins...
Wow..saw ming quan..3 yrs ago he was my specialist mate..udi..camp pin..kinda close even as he went rjc..always encouraging me to mug hard online..one true brother..always...got to noe dicky..who was my buddy..very cool guy 1st impression..but kinda arrogant..but yup..hes a great buddy...never arrogant like my 1st view..haha..saw joonie..a sidekick...n yup..thers tham..i guess this bro is another close dude of mine..real close..could share all problems..love..life..hes an inspiration but the nerd lookin guy izzen like wat he look like at all..hes.."yeah baby yeah"..
got to B coy..saw lta tang..but tang dynasty didnt last...
Haha..cant forget we got to our bunk..everyone was so quiet so not bonded...haha..xcept me n quan..n yup..i got my bed beside this hongkie looking wilson..whom i gotto say deserving is our bunk's best..he lead..n he chases peeps..haha..loves to hurry...haha..got to noe abt sloth..aka joses..haha coz he sloth in the last..till now i still got no idea wher he was late..n to sum it up..we have jacko..fs aka josphe haha..real fit..john..jeremy..ERIC..n another bro yong sheng...
Went to draw stores..change uni..coz i was shrinking..thats gd my dear...haha..60kg okie?
open up everything check them n put tem in..wow..super heavy realli HEAVY..lucki for us..the egyptians found rollers..went back to camp..started to intro..realise some people juz broke up some peeps attached some peeps dun like girls..haha..xclude the last i guess..went on to do bmt.."with my rifle n my buddy n me.."i knew 14 daes was long..it was...
N our charismatic oc,pc,ps,ss..first oc..lta tang..nice cute guy...too bad in uniform..haha..soon gone n 1st warren john silva took over..im full of respect for this guy..he had to stay with us in tekong even when he has a wife n 3 kids..u could see the tears in that man..the amt of work he did...n thers punia..aka delta force best..i can see why hes the best...he tore his ligaments too so poor silva.pc DZAR..aka brunei king..he does have sucha look..dunno much abt him at 1st but i gooto sae hes a strict men..a real disicipline soldier..everytime he screw me..for lettin go of my wife..or using hp late..i realise its becoz he wans me to amend my errors..to be a better man..
n here comes ramesh..the closet to us..a funni guy who realli cares..n not forgetin his loooooonnggg RO....haha...sgt daniel..my ss..a real gig...man whos always playin with SAF wiwves..nice guy nonethless..haha..almost got me dirty..but missed his chance..mr versatile...
PS lawerence..aka..csm..cqms..slacker..adf.."kan ni no nei"..haha..hes what i call charismatic.. all the "10sec f*&^ off" the..bulu...the"why platoon 1 WHY"..haha not forgettin "my mother called me "@#$ %$#"..hes realli a leader in every sense n as i always sae.."every platoon needs a lawerence,daniel nad ramesh"..
so that is my life..i lived at level 2..not near to toilet not near to pull up bar..n worst i sleep beside window..n i literalli mean beside..its the worst thing coz its a place wher theres max insect max dust..max watever...unbeilvable..thats wher i stay...

im back

haha..12 daes break from protectin singapore..a new journey begins.
but somwthings last forever.. my love for u dear.

CHUN DAO HE PAN 

"disappointed with disappointments"but its finally solved....

To my darling,
i am ecstatic over your results! WELL done! your hardwork paid off..... your two years of studies wasn't in vain...
ya.. he met his GOALS! 4 As and a B3! =) given such good results, i am confident that he can pursue whatever he desires....... CONGRATULATIONS! and for mine... i find it satisfactory... mainly because of the C which looks so "unglamorous" on my cert that i feel like cutting it away.... but ya.. i have tried my best dear.. no regrets...... no regrets.. and life goes on... A B3 for Gp is definitely out of my expectation! wow! By zzing my way through Benjamin kong and Anand lessons will never lead me to a B3.. but somehow i made it.. very very very lucky..... i thank God for these results..its a miracle! be it my dear's.. be it mine.. be it my friends... Thank God. And now that i have achieved these results,dear i promised i won't be as slack as i used to be... i cherished my grades.. its really because of you that i stopped slacking and worked hard during my second year... Not only was LOVE showered, you reemphasized the importance of studies in me... sometimes you were the "bad" man who pressed on me to be diligent... haha..,. and i dreaded it... but ya.. is because of all your "yong xin liang ku", that made me a A level holder with good results! darling,for all that you have done, I LOVE YOU. *MUACKS* I finally taste the joy of reaping my seeds! =)
And for today, everything went weirdly bad.... from the beginning to end, think i was so cold to my darling that i rejected a goodbye kiss from my darling using my body language.... i am sorry my dear... i shouldn't have... its hurting i know but i was still feeling disappointed with the disappointments... i promise i won't be so cold whatever comes our way k?The
day started with us going to SUntec for the NTU talk... Being late is normal, but guess its not for darling... he was angry with himself for being late for the talk... thought he was angry with me for the delaying... clarified with him just now, he wasn't.. just disliked the ideal of being late... it seems like a disrespect to the speaker... awe.. so full of ethics..unlike me.. i shall try to learn more from him.. thats how we earn respect somehow...
Told my darling why i always cry, whenever i see him these days... and now that he finally knows, thinks he can be more assured now.. Drifting apart is the last thing i pray will ever happen to us... i don't want too... Never. I can't bear to lose you... Thus, i decided to tell you everything... all the things that i have been bottling up these days.. darling, i always tell myself i have to understand... its not that you don't want to spend time with me, its time is not by our side.. deep in my heart i really understands, but the emotions within me just cannot be controlled: layers of missing you, the amount of disappoinments encountered (whenever we can't spend more time due to some understandable reasons) the chocolates.. my physics.. i tried my best to be strong, its hard dear... tears welled up by itself.... i hope you understand.. making you feel worried and helpless is never my intention... In doing so, i have instilled some into you.. i will remove them from you k? maybe by kissing you more.. haha.. of course by confiding in you more.. ya.. i am glad everything ended... and you are PASSING OUT! awe... but i think i will have no time for you in the weeks ahead... but i will make time dear.. coz i really miss you......... life is very very very dry without you always by my side... and now that we have these 12 days, i will make sure we spend time......... i MISS YOU...i really do..............................

oh....

well well..finalli got the results..very surproised..very..by both our results..
thank god goe helpin us thru these tides...
still remember my dear was so worried..she said she didnt do well..but have mug hard..
realli worried that she will get things like BCD...worried she cant get into uni..
worried she cant be a teacher..worried she cant reatain..more worried for her than meself..
although my boat was shaking..hers was like sinkin..realli worried..
AAC..not bad i gotto sae..gd enough to go for a lot of courses..now worried that she doesn't noe how to use her results well..n yup..shes working..hopefulli she realise that come june..she will be back to studies..n as i sae..STUDY is realli impt..for now at least..yup..hopefullli my dear..u can make a decision bymaybe 11 march..then opt for some ntu course..some nus course..n pay up the appli fees n oso..try some scholarships.. dear..ther is realli a lot of paperwork..promise me to get it done k..i'm worreid for u..
at times..i cant find time to worry abt myself..for i think so much abt u...
for me..very lcki wth 4a..shocked my parents..i mean with all their surpport..all their car n concern..i wana be someone in life..no doubt im worried abt whether love n study can be complimented..but my ans is yup, it can.my goal in life..get some bank related scholarship..study buiz n acct..work real hard..haha..no need to sign on to the army..haha..but i muz work hard...for i satisfaction n my fam n my dear..

dear..u r always part of me..or another word..u have me...

love u.

dear..wow..so many things happen on my birthdae..but for all that u have done...
i cant help saying...
i love u.

CONGRATULATIONS!

darling darling... i have been not working for one month le! so boring!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but ya.. i am starting tmr as admin assistant at centros.... bueno vista.. #07-01.. under A star.. so ya.. dear, dun worry ya.. its admin!

haha. guess what? my darling got SILVER for his IPPT! great!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! very good! feel super happy for him! CONGRATULATIONS! i am so proud of you... a lot of improvement made! no more straineous exercise.. think now more slack le... =) =) =)
yup! now that his birthday is approaching... wondering when to do his gift.. got him a gift le... think he may not really wear.. think it is nice.. but not super nice.. aiya.. oko1 no choice1 he still muz love it! hheehezz... yup!
think gg out to get primary english for my tuition kids le... weather very hot! i miss darling very much! think i go do house work later... think i will go run 4 km later1 think i miss him........... weather too hot le! maybe shld go and zz now....... hahahzz.... bye byez..

the day i met his parents.... 

first meeting after ns 

NS. 

bookin in..

dear..juz saw u to tution...yah..still worrying for u...dear..if possible can dont give tution..i mean im kinda worried..scared that bad things might happen to u..saw u enter the house n i feel so worried n helpless..for my sake..pokka k?..or some admin jobs..think for a girl its so dangerous..pls k..i was lingerin at the block to 340..dear..im worried..realli hope that god protects n oversee u..make sure that no bad things happen to u...if ther be bad things..pls..i pray that god transfer them to me...dear..pls k..to make me assured k?...
im sorrie that i've said some things to hurt u..the dresscode was aweful..but i shant be so mean n harsh..but yah juz hope u dress more appropreately k?
im n=bookin in real soon..hope u can re-asssure me..work in safer enviroments k?
for my sake..
i love u.

wat a satdae

hey hey...haha..dardar im back le..wow..realli had a wonderful nite last nite...
army was once again sticky...went in o sat to realise that oni bravo n charlie..haha..hide n seek dear?..booked in..haiz..sat nite..end of cny..got to camp n then next few daes was sit test..
think i absolutely screw it up..see u all in sispec..situations differ..n the 2 im in charge was quite diff..but yup..no excuses..haha 12k routew march was not as easy as i think..realli..i almost give in..realli..n my walking buddy terence was singing..haha..i almost lost my cool..haha..coz i didnt want words to hmyn in my mind which is so focus on completin 12k..but yup..i didnt allow the devil to take over..instead i was quite happi with myself coz at the last stretch..i cheered on with my platoon..real brotherly..kudos to u all..reach camp for sit test..n soon test ended..haha..i didnt eat any meal pack for 3daes..biscuits n maggi was all i live on..finalli went back to camp..food was awesome..realli..n yup..slack for most of the time xcept for shooting..haha..thers oso a company zzing hr..haha..yup..n book out..saw her at pasir ris..then ate my dear's jelly..its realli nice..realli..not kiddin..kind of impressive..went to eat with the whole family..6 of us..think my dear muz been very happi coz my fam was so welcomin..decided to catch hide n seek at suntec at 1135..wow..not bad a show..its quite horrific though..coz its a psycopath show..but yah for all..
go watch it...charlie..haha..dardar izzit 206?haha...did something very wrong..realli endangered hers n my life..dear..im absolutely sorry..muz acept my apologies k..it was a geniue mistake coz im so tired n contacts didnt work well..although i felt safe..it muz have been the worst road crossin for my dear..as i've promise..i shall NEVER be a road hazard k..but if the road crossing was scary then the show was terrible..wonder why am i watchin to 2 abt some horrific show.. but i guess by the end of the show..i didnt had much strenght to think abt charlie..sent her to her doorsteps at 140 n reach hm by 2..ko?not yet..had to do some stuff online..gg see u soon again dear..love u always.

my dalring's booking out today! lalaa...=)

i am glad.!!!!! hehezz.. he is booking out today at 6pm! gg to see him soon...... its been a week since i last saw him.. everyday staying at home.. so boring.. went for interviews without him.. felt weird intitally... but ya.. got to take care of myself and start learning to be independant... are you proud of me, my dearest darlinG? =)
heard he got a lot of bruises and wounds... i can't do much, a little helpless.. ok! gg to rub for him later... gg to bring zappel..to all who is reading this, pls pray for my little darling too... protect him from anymore injuries..
gg to meet his parents the second time today! very nervous! wondering what to wear.. ran 4 km today to ensure my shape is maintained.. hope everything turns out well.. gg to try more clothes later...
okok... i am all sweaty and dirty.. gg to shower..... see you later darling! =)

a nicey surpprise.........

haha! i RECEIVED DARLING'S ECARD AND LEtter le! =) surprise! its one day after valentin'S DAY... BUT STILL VERY SWEET.... yup! but guess what happen? my sweet sweet darling mail me cookies! hahahaz..... in an envelope... and ya.. it was crushed and repacked somehow... hmm.. haven open.. gg to show my darling.. haha.. see what he got to say...haha.. but that was definitely a very sweet thought, coz i like cookies! ya.. and somebody called me to go for interview! very happy! been waiting since i sent my resume.. it was really a pleasant surprise...but mag has to go back to new zealand today... so ya.. know i am definietly gg to miss her laughter... went out to do my hand paraffin treatment today.. haha.. the wax so hot.. and it was so fast.. think the ple juz want to try to draw customers.. coz she try promoting mary chia as i was doing the treatment...haha.. then went to meet up with xia... and benson.. haha.. then they treat me to dinne at marche.. yeah! oko.. i am a free loader for a while..and the food was delicious though expensive.. then we went jalan jalan.. xia bought 2 bras.. nice i think.. thought could buy darling's birthday gift.. but no size.. aiyo.. no much time le.. oh no. how ar? shall shop again... ya.. keep shopping and shopping. until so tired.. then i went off earlier to see mag off...... ya.. met up with yen leng.. and haha she was late... opps! yen leng leh.. she is never late de....sh\\and she rmb to get me the mircosoft excel... still as helpful...... ya.. met up.. kind of sad that mag is leaving.. but ya.. life goes on... we will always keep in contact.. saw zhi rui and she cried a lot of times.. haizz.. i can't do much.. darling, what shld i do best ar? quick be back from SIT test, i need your advice...talking abt darling, i miss him............................ ya.. went to maken.. marie say i looks nice in the outfit.. hahaz.... had a tiring but ya nice day... darling, sig says she really loves zr, but they broke up now.. darling, i love you and i wun break up..................... aiyo.. went home and kian zhi msg me! he is in my darling's company.. thought dearie is back.. but nope.. kz is sick so didn't join the field camp.. oko..what a false alarm.. i really can't wait to tell dalring abt today and everything else.....and he is coming back tmr1 alright one more day to go.... i love you...... 4 days and counting...

HAPPY VALENYTINE'S DAY!

this year i am spending my v day with the 6 bros.... met mag very early... very good! she was so nice.. coz i called her while she was zzing.. but she still came out with me.. hahazz.... and i heard that zhi rui and sigmund broke up..... it came as a shock! a very very bad surprise... bacoz he fell in love with another girl... how sad.. or maybe including other reasons too... haiz.. this is a super sad news.. i really feel very sad for zr... my hearts cry out to her.. was imagining what will i do if i was her... so dear darling, pls dun break my heart k? ya.. went online a few times, no e card leh.. how come? today v day leh.. sobz... check mailbox also no 2nd card... hmm.. dear dear are you kidding me.. but nvm.. coz my darling has always tried his best to make everyday like v day... so yup! i am not super sad... though i saw lots of couples on the street... i cut my haor on v day darling.. though you aren'y the first to see, you shall be the first to hold your "brand new gf" hands.. hahahzz... ya.. fringe super short.. not super nice i muz admit.. =) but the 6 bros say its nice.. alright! then it shall be nice... i went to hand in timesheet too.. haha.. and i got a ang pao from my colleague in unity pharma... miss ann very nice! haha.. =) dine with 6 bros at sushi teh.. delicious! has a great time chatting and laughing...
as i saw the couples, somehow i thought of my dalring.. here and there.. but i am not upset.. coz i know is not he dun want, is he can't... hoping that he will be fine througout his field camp..
its a test! dear lord, let him pass with flying colours k!i pray for his safety, good body and ya no abrasions! 3 days are gg to pass quickly.. can't wait to hear his voice... 5 days and counting.... =)

a nice saturday in overall...

its sunday.. and my darling's back to camp le... kinda miss him again... so fast.. 4 days have passed... yesterday went out with dear for the last time in this week... so so fast.. ya! but at least we have spent 3days togetehr in 4 days break.. very contented le... ya.. dear came to my place early in the morning..9am! wow... still drooling leh dear... then he got me two char siew bao! so sweet! and it was DELICIOUS! haha.. dear saw me before i brushed my teeth..very smelly and dirty i muz say... hahaz.... then i went to brush teeth and stuff.. then we went to see our vday couple shirt! not super nice actually.. but i know deep in our hearts , we love them! gonna wear them one day... giess what? then we went running... hahahahzz.. darling i would rather kiss than run(i wrote this in your outbox, check it out!)... gg get so sweaty and stinky... haha.. we ran one round and i compliant i am tired.. hahah.. think darling very poor thing coz my pace to him is super slow.... but ya.. darling,thats my usual pace...darling said i got belly!!!!!!!! so next time muz run faster...to get rid of it..... boo...darling join dave and company and played soccer... dear was cool! he scored one goal! and helped the team that was originally losing at the beginning...street cosser has got a lot of footwork...thne we wemt back and out.. then we stroll down to the 187 bus stop and shared a one person seat together.. haha.. so squeezy and crampy.. haha.. but very loving ritez????? hehez.. we went to jurong point... to get my vday card.. hahah... and sat at long john to write my card.. i wasn't peeping k dear.. we ate and drank then dear got to rush home for dear's cny visitation.. and so i tagged along until we reached his place.. and i gave a vday peck on his cheek and bid goodbye...so that was the end of our last day... miss him...
at night i went to xia's place for cny visitation and then xia came to my place... her parents say i slimmed down..wow.. as slim as her le.. but that's impposible la.. xia's so slim.... we had pizza and i saw her bear...so adorable.! darling, i want! very very cute and its non furry.. most IDEAL! think we end off the day like this.. and my ah gim also came to my home.. and we chatted.. a nice day in overall.. its another 6 days and counting le.... =)

haha..botak boy here..

yeah..had a gd 4 dae rest..gg book in in 2hrs time..dun understand why is my coy bookin in todae oni..but i guess b is for the best...had a great newyr..1st remark is i 've slimmed..me think so too..hopefulli can reach 62kg..then shld be super fit..but yup..realise i lost my strength too.. dear..i love u..think we realli send loads of great times together..sorrie i cant spend v dae with u.. i love u..ns calls..n i noe u understand..got a couple shirt..love it..had a little soccer..saw dave n company..thks for soccer..watches constantine with her..adore her..3 star show for me..went to my houses..i sure got loads of relatives..n angpaos too..so glad my parents were fond of her.. thank god..missing her now..feeling tired yet fustrated..goota book-in..army..2yrs..think this song sums it up..training to b soilders..fight for our land..once in our life..2yrs of our time..have u ever wondered..why muz we sereve..coz we love our land n wan it to be free to be free..
thinkin abt v-day last yr..wow..our relationship realli grew..thers soccer tonite..haiz..my life is certainly stressful..so many things i wana do..so little time...but i noe something..something that will always stick with my soul..i love u,dear...i love u,family...i promsise..ns will make me a stronger and better man.

we were sharing one seat.. haha.. after running?

i met his parents le............................ =)

wow! woke up very early this morning... 830am? to go jogging! very very nervous! coz i've got to meet his parents! FIRST TIME! very scared..... muz run so that i got a good countanance to see his parents! okok.. time drawing so near.. its 1020am.... i left my place and reached his place at ard 1045... wow.. NERVOUS! msged him... and he came down to bring me up...... very scared.. but darling said i looked very nice in the dress.. =) he said " ELEGANT".. wow! okok.. then we went up to his place.. very scare i got to say.... met darling's mum... awe.. she looks so qing xiu.. and she spoke to me in english.. wow! a very different mum from mine... not auntish.. fashionable... very soft and gentle... we chatted.. abt freddy.. the past him who is very chubby... and now slim.. really SLIM down a lot! muz be me who mistreated you.... or izzit too bless to be with me, so need to stay healthy for me.. okok.. then we saw some photos of his family... wow! very loving a family i muz say... after a while, his dad woke up! the relaxed me got a little tense...wished his dad happy new year and gave him oranges... guess what?his dad gave me ang pao!!!!!!!!!!!!! shockedme!?!!! coz his mum gave me le.... thats so generous of him! i dunno how to receieved... but ya accepted.. so pai sei.... (0"o) ya.. his dad is so humorous! asked me whether i took an aeroplane here.... oh mine.. okok.. thats funny.. we ate lots of cny goodies.. and chatted.. think it went quite smoothly.. then his dad fetched us to lavender to get darling's stuff... then we parted and bid goodbye to his parents... ao funny! but darling was happy! he said can sense that his parents are happy with me...phew...... cooled down a little...coz its like everything's over... was happy coz darling said parents are receptive and welcoming.. happy with me... =) very very very happy that it went smoothly...
then we went to SUNTEC to jalan jalan.... supposingly to shop for my vday gift.. but ya.. didn't fancy much.. so we end up not buying anything... haah. on the way, mu dear kept saying my dress looks extremely nice1 or izzit i kept asking.. ahhaa.. but ya.. very happy! we went to eat delifrance! deliCIOUS! i think.. dear was so sweet,.. think he sacrifice his desires for other food for me.. haha.. next time married how? think he might get bullied by me... awe. i wun.. i love you.. hahaa.. and he said he is FORTUNATE that he can carry bag for me.. aren't i a lucky girl? then we went to my place... and ya.. mandrine oranges.. very very funny... we received ang paos from my neighbour.. how nice of her... then we went to my place.. gave oranges.... sat aorund.. saw vdays gift.. dear daid my room wasn't nice with the new arrangements.. ooooo... alright.. i will see if i can change again... hmm... then my dear chatted with my mum... saw hamsters and goldfish.. darling, i seriously think hamsters are cuter than goldfish... =P
my darling got to go.. we set off.. here comes the sad part..iwa too headstrong, wanted to see him home.. but ya..family time is impt to.. so dearie asked me not oo.. was upset, juz thinking he is gg in tmr, maybe we shld spend more time together.? but ya.. muz maintain a balance.. so ya.. think i shld think deeper and not not juz kept numb..knew darling somehow know i was unhappy.. think i am so petty...didn't talk to him.. bid goodbye.. cried.. he called... was sad that i didn't say athing and he left.. and that i wun see him for the next few days... regretted.. wanted to go find him, coz he didn't board 98.. saw 333 coming... but God'd plan wasn't so.. darling board 187 and left le... so i sat the same 333 back home.. think i am so so petty and think my quietnesss muz have left my darling feeling halpless.. i am so sorry... i will try to speak up the next time... hate this characteristic of me.. ya.. everything solved after a few calls and sms.. think darling, i will correct myslf ya.. ya.. here i am blogging.. telling you how i felt juz now.. thinki am having pms.. so dun bother abt me ya.. i love you dear.. shldn't have done that, coz you are gg into army.. shldn't made you felt so insecure.. i am sorry... i love you darling....

ITS OUR 15TH MONTH ANNVERSARY! and new year's eve.... and most imptly, HE IS COMING BACK!

today is so eventful! its time to celebrate out 15th month anni! and its time to eat reunion dinner coz its new year's eve... and yup1 most imptly, i am gg to see him later.. haha.. very excited! dun know what to wear now.. haha.. juz dropping by to say i love my dear very much.. =)
to be continued...

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my darling called!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! on wed! very happy!!!!!!!!!!! this 7 days make me realize how much i can't leave him without him............ kept thinking of him... tears juz flowed when i heard his voice... didn't anticipate that he will call me on wed!!!!! very very very exhilrated! very very very touched......... =) =) =) =) now i know the power of phonecall! i miss him........................... i am gg to cherish even more every call he made..... he told me field camp was horrible..got abrasions and bites.... so poor thing..... i hope my dear is alright....... i can't do much.. ok.. i shall go find abrasions cream k and apply for you? hope by then you won't need the cream anymore.... went out with the 6 bros at westmall....... had sakae sushi... taste blend and not delicious to me.. guesss i was sick.........didn't finish the udon... all the while, there was my darling'g msg....... felt so fortunate to keep msging him..... (",) and we ended the day with his "i love you".. what a word... it seems that i have never said that for so long..... i juz wanna scream into his ear: I LOVE YOU!"... that day couldn't really zz... smiling from ear to ear.. telling my bro how happy i am.... i can't imagine its only 7 days and i miss him so much.... think i have fallen deeply in love with him...... how ar? then he got to marry me lo......... hahahahazz.... kk.. gtg le...g to be late to meet yu zhen for shopping........ i love my darling!!! 1 day left to him booking out!!!! =)

i am sick.................................

yesterday i was sick.. so sick................ vomited at 1am.......... all my nasi lemak............ then vomited again at 8am..................... all the chicken broth......... argh........ felt so horrible.......... alll the while, there wasn't any stomachahe but diarrohea..... aiyo......... so sick............. having a fever too....... 37.8... using oral digi thermom..... felt so horrible that i counldn't zz...... wake and go, wake and go.. but my younger bro was quite sweet.. whatever i ask him to help, he helped... hahah.. its times like this that i see the sweetness in him.. =) felt so bad........... next morning quickly went to see doc... alone... msg my darling but know he can't see... coz he is in field camp.. though darling wasn't by my side physically, but i know he will if he can...... he's by my side mentally... wonder how is he now? msg him a few times yesterday... really miss him very much.......... ya...after doc... was afraid will vomit again..so only ate half a bowl of porridge for the whole day.. so pathetic... but ya.. the rest of the time was zzing... so didn't felt hungry at all... kept thinking of darling. hoping somehow he can call.. but i know its impossible. 1 day more!!!!!!!!!!! and my darling can call le..... pls darling, i pray that nothing happen to you... so ya.. i am waiting patiently.... and dun worry..... i am fine le... can cook and gg out tonight with the 6 bro... 1 day and counting...... =)

its monday le!

hahah.. darling's back very soon... wokle up at 10 plus today.. can't zz on le... yesterday ewas my last day of work.... quite boring....... but met a very adorable baby girl... hahah.. she was lying on her pramp.. staring at me with her innocent pair of eyes..so i gave her a handbook......... she was grinning from eyes to eyes... awe... so sweet........... then she return me.. i wonder why too.. then as her mum was pushing her off.. she was reluctant to go... haha.. coz she wanted my drink.. so i offered her.. she drank and gave me the "eeks" look.. coz my drink its bitter.. hahah.. but can see she's still so happy to drink it.. =) so cute! then when she go off, she waved gdbye to me.. so sweet.. and gave me a flying kiss....... awe... i love the baby... darling, next time we muz have baby girl k? =) ya.. was slacking during work.. and got a little tick off by annie aunti.. so ok.. i go work harder lo... haha. vivien came! surprise!!!!!!!! so happy! then i chatted with her for an hour... then at abt 7, we started to work togetehr.. somehow like free labour for her.. with our joint action, we sold 11 bottles in 45 mins! wow! think two are better than one... haha.. then i bought her a drink.. very good k1 mango smoothies... then we went to shop for a while.. bought my new year's shoes for 9.90.. cheap ar? quite nice... looking st the watch, i decided to send her home.. haha. its a;ways enjoyable to spend timw with vivien! thats why we are best friends! she is juz so nice.. =) she waited for my bus.. then we bid goodbye... such a nice day... went home.. sew my darling;s gift....think it looks fabulous! hope he loved it.. yup!.. thats was yesterday.. today think i am gg to do housework le......clear my room.. darling, i reall miss you.. but i will keep my life occupied.. and i am taking gd care of myself... hope you are fine too....... i miss you............ 3days and counting......

our tues before his NS..... 

flowers by him... 

3days have passed..... i miss you.......

today today today....... i went to work as usual...... so boring.... but yup! last day to dine with my eating partner... ann.. quite sadz ar.. she is such a nice aunti... ya.. received my invitation card! hahah.. so exciting! 18th march... first time..... saw odac juniors.. haha.. " forced" them to buy one bottle.. and they bought... hahahah...yaa... ate chicken chop today! super delicious! darling, see.. i am taking good care of myself... hehehzz... here goes my diet plan... ya.. met miss tay siyi... stand there talking for nearly 20 minutes..very nice talk! though rappy and lame.... hehehz.. eat snake ar... =) met dave too... hahah.. think he too soft hearted le..only asked and he bought... all goes to my darling's good relations with him... hahaha.. guess wht? the pharmacist lady bought me a cup of mango smoothies... so delicious! oh mine! darling, i shall buY for you the next time... so sweet of her too.. she invited me to her wedding and bpught me drink.. hahah.. =) then took photos with the staff there.. they have been so good to me.. bought choco for them.. hope they like it? ya.. then went back.. shop around at IMM.. check out prices of paint and stuff.. gg to do a make over for my room soon.. and dear, i am gg to change room le... i miss you.. okok.. i asssure you will be the first to see my " new room " k? love you... 4 days and counting....

grad night 2004 

i miss you the second day....

darling... i went running today! haha.. 2.664km k! so fit now! i've decided to stick on to my slimming program... jog every 2 days.. eat one full meal a day. but can have many tea breaks.. this is one of my "be a lady" plan's highlight...ya... gg shop for more earings and perfume..and more skirts cum dress.. darling, are you a wee bit happier? coz i'm finally gg to be a lady.... ya..
went to work... and guess what? i sold the least yesterday.. only 15 bottles.. =(... but nvm.. quitting in 2days time.. then guess what? darling, i am gg to receive a invitation letter for my workplace's pharmacist wedding?wow! never been to weddin dinner for friends! so exciting! when's ours darling? ????? hehezz..ya... msg you when i reach home to tel you i miss you very much.. finally understand the impt of hearing your voice every night.. it helps to put me to zz..... without chatting tto you, ita hard to zz.. hehez.. i miss you,.. pray that you are fine always... coz god will protect everyone.. especially you... i miss you.. 5 days and counting...

darling first day in field camp.... i miss you...

darling... wow! didn't receive your msg for the whole day... feels so weird... i miss you... guess this means i can't live without you.. hehezz.. awe.. =) today wake up early and there's rice.. haha.. mum'f off day.. guess what1 darling, i got fried rice for lunch.. hehez.. ya.. then went off for work.. today sold 30 bottles! wow! heehz.. got a regular big sized man bought 8 bottles! hehz.. if darling, see this, he muz be happy for me ritez? =P ya.. saw a few ple with hairstyle that looks like my darling.. kept thinking of him... when i felt vibrations, thought it might be you.. ah... but not.. nvm! juz hope my darling will be safe k! miss you................................ haha.. oko.. today saw a old chc friend.. davis.. ya.. exchanged phone nos. he requests, not me dear.. dun worry... hahah.. he msg me, but i didn't reply... hehzz.. okok.. reach home safe and sound.. almost wanted to msg my darling, but realize he's in field camp.. hoping and praying he is taking gd care of himself.. i love you dear.. 6 days and counting.....


NOTE:
to all insects who may be reading this,
dun bite my darling.. i treat you sweets.. yup!
thank you!

yup..im gg in le..see u in 14 daes dardar..meanwhile..juz a note..
"i love u"

yup..im no longer a cv..im a soilder..protectin singapore..learnin how to kill..ns lifecan be scripted in juz 1 word 'tired'..bad things..i begin to use vulgirities in camp..i'll change i promise..good things..i see a lot of things that non ns men will not see..its true.in ns u realli mature..u become a men..turned myself into a cold serious monster again..ther r fun times but they dun last..n time is the most precious gift of god..no..life..maybe when u r stuck in an island of training for 14 daes..u might understand..n yup im gg in for another 14 tomorowe..ther be field camp..no time no communication from dust to dawn..playin in the jungle..7 long long daes..all rite im in bravo coy..platoon 1 sec 2 bed 7..find me if u can..but i noe no-one can..in the army..u get tekang for weird reasons..maybe thats why someone lost his mind..maybe..
my coy got 2oo peeps i think i noe oni abt 80..my platoon has 50..we r close..my section 13..we r like real close..haha..lotz of memories on my 1st book out..cant forget bulu..super blur king..but one whom i utterly respect..coz he said this in a lecture in front of 200 men...i love my dad..hes my hero..it takes courage to sae this..n for that..i salute him..
trainin is tough but as a frend told me..tough trainin doesn't last, tough men does..everydae in camp i see sun rise i see sun set..glorious sight..wake at 4-5 sleep at 10-11...absolute no life..military trainin..but as i told her..i love the military worklife..but being a recuit..an nsf is totally diff..its duty..very tirin everydae..pillow's my best frend now..n yup i learnt to stand n sleep..try15hrs of trainin n 6-7 hrs of zzzz..try for 14 daes..even the most optimistic man would frown...
think im doin fine in my platton...noe most of the peeps..thru my hurry ups n knock it down..haha for the fun guyz...my section is damn funni peeps..by the motto 1st to eat 1st to book out last to fall in..we r the sabotagers..but trust us..we were always on the dot..
came out for some airforce stuff..ate charsiew rice its 2 bucks..but to me it was as though i have nvr eaten such stuff before..then got fried rice..on the 2nd small book out..the taste was great.. trust me all singaporeans..these r food that we find normal or take for granted..but these r the best food in my life..ns food is gd..rice 3 meat 1 veg 1 soup 1 fruit/jelly n 1 water..but its mass..its for many many people..it taste the same everydae...
im now gg treasure life even more..sinece time is not on my side..i look at those peeps studyin..pri..sec..poly..jc..i realli sincerly miss those daes..its when u lose someting..u begin to treasure..i lost the mainland feeling..seein hdb feels weird..seein cbd feels weird..seein people feels weird..seein my love ones feel weird..seein my room feels weird..seein her feels weird..
im beginnin to mature i guess..beginnin to understand god's most precious gift..life.
see all in another 16 daes time..mum,dad,sis...words cant sae how much i love u..dear..i promise to stay by ur side..juz like u have..in the most diff of times..
God bless all n take care..
".....when u only got a hundred years to live...."

darkling.. 5 more days.. juz now yes was a little saddened by your call.. was thinking why you dun wanna play truant.. but yup! you are right... how can play truant.. what if you get caught or something.. i should have been more sensible and not so selfish.. miss you... was juz thinking.. today uis w\quite a tiring day.. nice in the sense xia is there.. got a good friend to talk to.. very haappy! not so bored.. somehow can find her and chat... won't miss darling so much.. ya.. heard that darling uses vulgar language in camp.. a twitch of saddness engulfed me... thought he won't use... but ya.. he said its different in camp and outside.. maybe i am juz too fussy or narrow.. jzu wonder why he wants to use? think i should open up a bit more.. nothing wrong ritez? ya... darling soming out in a few days time.. haven finish my sewing.. think i gtg hurry le! yup! days pass and go quickly.. i won't have to miss him so much le.. i love you darling.. life is so listless without you.. 5days and counting...........

i miss yoou........

its been 5 days le... wow1 i miss my darling.. today is my off day, sitting here alone. going to do housework soon... house is so messy! how i wish he is here to help me.. hahah.. like the last time.. =) life withoout him now seems weird somehow... only can chat for a while.. but i know he has tried his best to lengthen to the max le.. =) love you baby... sill got to save batt.. and yup! he needs the zz.. been approving all his testimonies.. wondering whetehr he will be shocked? haha.. he juz secretly MSG!!!! woo........ so happy! =) =) =) he will be out on friday.. friday.. 21st.. another 10 days! so yes! he said he is getting fat, but darling, fat fat i dun mind... coz think i am fatter than you now! haha... as long as we are healthy.. a little fat is acceptable ya! nicer to huggy! =) coz its unhealthy when you get extremely fat... i gtg do houseork le.. then maybe cook lunch.. awe.. such a wifely dear ritez? haha.. 10 days and counting.......

my dearest darling.... i miss you... really do... i've promised to be yours le.. so yup! i will wait patiently for you.. and yes! you muz spend time with me whenever you come out k! be it juz 1,2,3 or many hours.. we muz meet! unless you dun miss me... hope you are zzing soundly now... i love you! you've added so much colours into my life! so much sweetness, so much joy, so much love, so much hope, so much so much... army is going to be tough.. i promise i will be understanding.. if you really can't spend time with me, i will wait ya.. and not nag.. coz i know you muz have tried your best to make time.. i promise to wait, so i will. and now that i felt so so belong to you.. our love muz have grown.. when things are tough, muz think of us k! and i am sure the tough will get going.. =) i miss you.. sitting here, knowing that your phone is off, cannot reach to you in any ways, think except thru our hearts.. coz its linked. i miss you... its 13 days and counting down..

dear..once more..i love u..bye

a special meal
wow dear..think what happened yesterdae will be in our minds for the rest of our lives..i promise u i will love u forever..i honestly will..but dear..u muz promise me to take care so that u can be mine when im back..n yes..i will be back..still remember"i feel so belonged to u"..dear..since our path have crossed..i prayed that u will be..me n my only wife..i love u..its not gd bye..dun cry..hush..take care.

waited all my life..

its official..3-4 more daes to nsf..2 yrs of ns life..dun realli noe what to xpect..currnetly restin n feelin nostalgic..lookin at my room..my books..my awards..touchin this n that..findin memories of the past..went to my sis room..dad n moms room..looks as though im takin my last look..wana go back to the past daes..it oni seem yesterdae that i mived into here..come to think abt it..its been 7-8 wonderful yrs..juz sat on the sofa n surveryed arnd..im not crazy but i juz wana relive some moments..mom was tellin me how i was naughty when small..yes im and still is..primary sch fun..sec sch muggin nerd..jc love n work..think i realli grew up..nsf..its not a job..its a duty...the feelin is very different..it realli feels like jail..juz heard westlife n boa..she doesn't look good..great song though..flyin without wings..think it spells out my life so much..lookin back i had my great moments..but i had down ones too..
guess my gal is workin hard now..realli cant bear to see her work so hard..but in s'pore..u have to work to survive..army callin me.. edgin closer to 2 yrs of DUTY.i noe i will be happi..sad..angry..learning..but its all part of a DUTY..n trust me its worst than sch..i wana mug..well saw kids gg sch..pri..sec..jc..unbeilivable..im seatin here..typin away.. s'pore is so peaceful on a norm workin cum schoolin dae..its beautiful.. 4 daes of rain n finalli SUN is out. thank god..dear..i love u.

wat a rainy dae

dear.its 3 jan 2005..i cant help but look at the wall coz thers a clock n time is tickin away..trust me i dun lke this kinda livin..coz i noe i be in ther for 2 yrs..if its a job..i dun mind..but dear..its more of discipline..more of a muz..miss u my baby..i love u..
wat a dae..so so so so so cold..my legs went wobbly n body shook..haha..those who noe me noe i cant tahan too much coldness..work at 730..very tired coz zz at abt 2 the nite be4..zhou msg..had to go..yeah quickly did my stuff..pack n left for bk batok..its adult fare le..happi for an instant.. but realise how costly public transport is..whole dae i spent 3.5dollars..yeah..saw our opponents..
they look strong haha..very big built..some nj some hcj..some dunno wher..we realli look puny..
haha..the rain was so heavy its crazy to play..crazy yes..im feelin a little stupid at how desperate we are..haha..then the jokes came.did u wear swimmin trunks..take team photo..play arcade izzit?lim kopi..haha we finalli got 13 players..n we found a fiel oni to see it being covered for prayers..oh no..had to walk for 15 more mins in heavy RAIN to reach a sch field..quite nice sch.. but very small field..
everyone got psyched up startin et,mw,hq,me,jf,dv,wj,yz,rz,jh,kt..very even start..but they were tactically n techinall very very sound..on a wet dae they play flank-crossin we play short pass..haha..quite funni..soon battle begin..dave n this nj9..haha e mr vulgairty exchange clash..then i slid in hard on him..yeah wanted to let them noe a "hard" presence..soon they drew blood..ball over my head..goal..we started to push..yeah..whole match was full of vulgarities.. nj9 was so lame..callin fouls here n ther..i hate gays..i hate him..yeah think whole game i give myself a 6/10..the field was uper soggy..not a field but a pool..can be blamed for 2 goals..but saved some grace with ball winnin tackles n counterattacks..went pass 5 players 2x and 6 players 1x..but passin off..ball stuck to waterlog pitch..i sincerly tried..so did my mates..we lost 6-2..they outclass us.i didnt feel gd..but as i said before the game "the score doesn't matter..its the way we played".n yup..my mates tried..thats the most impt...
enough of soccer..oh no..my dear!dear..i will never do that again k?i noe how it feels im sorry..gottoo run in rain again..got milk tea for her n left for boon lay..miss u so much juz wanted to see u for a while..then brought lunch n went h..ate n zz..so so so cold..
went out with fam at nite..lookin ahead..im gg miss them too..i realli do..n dear..i think u fully noe how much im missin u...love u.
may god protect u.

MY ns BOY....  

i'll wait for you......

darling i will wait for you always, pease have faith in us!
time is not running out, coz i know we will make time for each other..
and our LOVE will stay strong... remember i say i want to be mrs liew..
and i won't take care of myself if we aren't together......
but i will take care of myself when you are in NS.. juz like you do...
i love you always!
dun over exert yourself in NS k! i'll be hurt..
dun forget to take your meals k! i'll be hurt....
dun forget to always keep me in msg, i'll worry...
dun forget to focus during NS.. i'll worry..
dun forget to take good care, i'll worry...
dun forget that you are supposed to marry me, i'll wait for you.
i love you.

dar dar...yeah..im here again..had a beautiful dae...juz cant forget e way we walk down orchard.. yeah think e rowdy crowds muz have scared u..awe..didnt realise it would be that rowdy..woke up this morn..to wake u up..haha..1st jan endin soon..have a kind of sinkin feeling..time is runnin faster than me..wait for me..i love u..n dear..remember what i said last nite k..
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