goodbye my lover...

lovin it...
Did I disappoint you or let you down?Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.So I took what's mine by eternal right.Took your soul out into the night.It may be over but it won't stop there,I am here for you if you'd only care.You touched my heart you touched my soul.You changed my life and all my goals.And love is blind and that I knew when,My heart was blinded by you.I've kissed your lips and held your head.Shared your dreams and shared your bed.I know you well, I know your smell.I've been addicted to you.Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.You have been the one.You have been the one for me.I am a dreamer but when I wake,You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.as you move on, remember me,Remember us and all we used to beI've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.I've watched you sleeping for a while.I'd be the father of your child.I'd spend a lifetime with you.I know your fears and you know mine.We've had our doubts but now we're fine,And I love you, I swear that's true.I cannot live without you.Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.You have been the one.You have been the one for me.And I still hold your hand in mine.In mine when I'm asleep.And I will bear my soul in time,When I'm kneeling at your feet.Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.You have been the one.You have been the one for me.I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

life's funni...

oh my..mugging again...
haha..who noes..i may be back in sch this yr...
or then again..maybe nxt...haha...

*sob*

i miss my darling...................................
the very first exam i had yesterday
was the worST of my UNI LIFE! never felt so insecure after an exam
before since my uni life.. *very sad* i went in with the mentality that
i dun wanna to get a B...... out to get A...
but came out feeling so insecure of obtaining even a B.
But i think there's no turning back le....*sob*
juz have to settle down and mug hard for the other two papers.....
I thank God that at least i dun have to keep everything to myself.
But am able to share my disappointments with my loved ones...(".)
MIss him.............

sundae post..

sloth sloth sloth...
finalli back here with so many unfrogetable experiences...
well...
last wk was totalli east coast..totalli awesome..erm...
everything..bikie..foodie..everything..includin the 1.5hr ride...
im so thankful to god for leavin such beautiful memories in my life...
this wk..tired...
recee recee recee...
tired of stayin in camp..tired of lectures..tired of outfield...
haha..maybe not outfield..but the load is takin its toll on me...
am i weakenin? probably not...
fridae nite..book out nite!!!...
haha..got to eat with her at jp..share some quiet lovin moments...so nice..so comfy...
got to sent her home too not forgetin that haha..i SHOULD send her hm all the time...
not complaining..honestly..juz more glad than anything...
saturday was all about soccer and slothin n then..movie...
take the lead...
cool show..but more than that..he made blacks believed in himself...
awesome..salute the man man...life is so cruel yet god will definately put someone to get u thru...
sent her home again..before catchin last bus..zzzzzzzz..almost missin my stop...
saw an old frend..well..maybe its him...hes changed..not for the better for i see...
sundae..zzpy morn..haha..soccer and then a decent lunch...
dear is eating my share..she said she was happi..that i can truely see...
im too u noe..im...
well..juz weight myself..it says 64kg...hmm...that sounds realli gd..need to muscle up le...
83kg juz 2 yrs plus ago...amazing transition..but i wana keep it this way...
makes me much more confident when dealin with balls and people...
bally..footy..think im changing as a player..more aggreasive..more vulnerable...
i guess i still can improve...
juz like my running for arr..gosh..arr..oh yah..n soc...
goin outfield for nxt 5 days..combat ration..heat..tired...
all will come and go..its the missin that hurts dear..its missin...
but all will be an experience..hope its a good one...
good day gents...
n ladies...

Unforgetable east coast trip

HUngry hungry hungry!!!

Before east coast and the after east coast

east coast...

my life is brilliant...
haha..think let me darling explain...
sloth...

small...

singapore is so small...
many people ask me why am i choosin to stay and study and slog my life here...
well...
first..food...
second..haha...
ok that was nonsense...
to be honest..this is my home..my land..my everything...
everything i have..my honey..my fam..my frends...
n so..i will stay..hopefulli age..and die...
in this little dot that i call HOME.

*geez*

Wahaha......... i LOve you me man!
you know sometimes io envy girls that ar eso full of confidence, that has brains and lookss..
but i met my baby..i think this thing s are not that impt le
coz i have found a Man whi loves me for who i am.. and treat me with so MUCH love.. much sweeter than the prince charming in the fairy tale.... i mean i thought it only happens in fairy tale.... but it happen to me!
such man exist..
so here i am, no longer looking at those girls with envy... but looking at myself with much SMILES!
yesterday,.. baby told me that he will never go overseas for studies for years even if scholarship requires him to do so.. .. coz coz....he will miss me like nuts.................
so sweet.............

wahaha

can someone tell me why r people so smart academicalli...
more impt..they are gd with words...
oh well..think i blew my chances..haha..at least i made it to round 2...
well..got some hamster stuff..more impt...
tonite spirit realli lifted..i kinda wana do some piano...
well..tom im gonna be a trainee again..life in camp...
rox..well..maybe not..or then again..nvr...
recee..eyes of the army...
love u sweet heart..remember wat i said...

tired...

nah juz very full...
haha... :P

fridae

well its that time of the wk again..haha...
kinda happy with life these days...
but definately wana spend more time wisely...
the army is a very weird place...
u can see all sorts of people..even a degree holder..as a corperal...
people aged 24 as ur men...
respect?thats tough...

lallalala

wow...... finally a break... a break from school...... work.... from submitting essays, projects... research paper... tests.... finally!
BUT THIS ALSO mean EXAmS are coming!!! * FALSE alarm*...
which is even worse i thought.....
hhmmm... finally can settle down and reflect upon my life these days.....
been pretty easily upset these days.. dunno why ....
am i feeling too stress form work or is lacking in exercise??? i also dunno..
but i am really HAPPY FOR BABY!
as he had made it for interviews for his scholarships applications,..
thougth it may seem quite tough,... some required three interviews to get thru!!!???
but I am so sure with his passion and motivation for econs!
I have full confidence in him that he can made it!!!!!
not in the mood for writing.. think i will juz end here..........
kallalala..... in a happy mood.=)

updates

current affairs..
world news..
army news..ace..live..
teachin news..prime..
driving..
where got time for her...
(haha dun talk of e mistress)

*ashame*

oh no......
i am getting so super mean and demanding these days.....
yesterday my baby thought that my toes being black wasn't a big issue and i thought it was.. as it ha been ther for months le......
felt so upset that he didn;t care and made that statement, " things that are close to my hear are not close to yours...'
So petty and sentitive hor.. though he did mentioned that he will go and see s doctor with me if i am gg... aiya.. dunno whats happening to me these days! I am so demanding..... a small issue like this can makes me so upset... something not right.. is mj not stresse? or is she suffering a mental breakdown? alright... but yup.. at least mj realises that she is being very demanding somehow for being so highly super sensitive...

but guess what he did the next day...
he went library to check out on books on black toes and stomach sounds.....
so sweet.............
i am so so touched....
so ashamedof myself......
i love him....