its monday le!

hahah.. darling's back very soon... wokle up at 10 plus today.. can't zz on le... yesterday ewas my last day of work.... quite boring....... but met a very adorable baby girl... hahah.. she was lying on her pramp.. staring at me with her innocent pair of eyes..so i gave her a handbook......... she was grinning from eyes to eyes... awe... so sweet........... then she return me.. i wonder why too.. then as her mum was pushing her off.. she was reluctant to go... haha.. coz she wanted my drink.. so i offered her.. she drank and gave me the "eeks" look.. coz my drink its bitter.. hahah.. but can see she's still so happy to drink it.. =) so cute! then when she go off, she waved gdbye to me.. so sweet.. and gave me a flying kiss....... awe... i love the baby... darling, next time we muz have baby girl k? =) ya.. was slacking during work.. and got a little tick off by annie aunti.. so ok.. i go work harder lo... haha. vivien came! surprise!!!!!!!! so happy! then i chatted with her for an hour... then at abt 7, we started to work togetehr.. somehow like free labour for her.. with our joint action, we sold 11 bottles in 45 mins! wow! think two are better than one... haha.. then i bought her a drink.. very good k1 mango smoothies... then we went to shop for a while.. bought my new year's shoes for 9.90.. cheap ar? quite nice... looking st the watch, i decided to send her home.. haha. its a;ways enjoyable to spend timw with vivien! thats why we are best friends! she is juz so nice.. =) she waited for my bus.. then we bid goodbye... such a nice day... went home.. sew my darling;s gift....think it looks fabulous! hope he loved it.. yup!.. thats was yesterday.. today think i am gg to do housework le......clear my room.. darling, i reall miss you.. but i will keep my life occupied.. and i am taking gd care of myself... hope you are fine too....... i miss you............ 3days and counting......

our tues before his NS..... 

flowers by him... 

3days have passed..... i miss you.......

today today today....... i went to work as usual...... so boring.... but yup! last day to dine with my eating partner... ann.. quite sadz ar.. she is such a nice aunti... ya.. received my invitation card! hahah.. so exciting! 18th march... first time..... saw odac juniors.. haha.. " forced" them to buy one bottle.. and they bought... hahahah...yaa... ate chicken chop today! super delicious! darling, see.. i am taking good care of myself... hehehzz... here goes my diet plan... ya.. met miss tay siyi... stand there talking for nearly 20 minutes..very nice talk! though rappy and lame.... hehehz.. eat snake ar... =) met dave too... hahah.. think he too soft hearted le..only asked and he bought... all goes to my darling's good relations with him... hahaha.. guess wht? the pharmacist lady bought me a cup of mango smoothies... so delicious! oh mine! darling, i shall buY for you the next time... so sweet of her too.. she invited me to her wedding and bpught me drink.. hahah.. =) then took photos with the staff there.. they have been so good to me.. bought choco for them.. hope they like it? ya.. then went back.. shop around at IMM.. check out prices of paint and stuff.. gg to do a make over for my room soon.. and dear, i am gg to change room le... i miss you.. okok.. i asssure you will be the first to see my " new room " k? love you... 4 days and counting....

grad night 2004 

i miss you the second day....

darling... i went running today! haha.. 2.664km k! so fit now! i've decided to stick on to my slimming program... jog every 2 days.. eat one full meal a day. but can have many tea breaks.. this is one of my "be a lady" plan's highlight...ya... gg shop for more earings and perfume..and more skirts cum dress.. darling, are you a wee bit happier? coz i'm finally gg to be a lady.... ya..
went to work... and guess what? i sold the least yesterday.. only 15 bottles.. =(... but nvm.. quitting in 2days time.. then guess what? darling, i am gg to receive a invitation letter for my workplace's pharmacist wedding?wow! never been to weddin dinner for friends! so exciting! when's ours darling? ????? hehezz..ya... msg you when i reach home to tel you i miss you very much.. finally understand the impt of hearing your voice every night.. it helps to put me to zz..... without chatting tto you, ita hard to zz.. hehez.. i miss you,.. pray that you are fine always... coz god will protect everyone.. especially you... i miss you.. 5 days and counting...

darling first day in field camp.... i miss you...

darling... wow! didn't receive your msg for the whole day... feels so weird... i miss you... guess this means i can't live without you.. hehezz.. awe.. =) today wake up early and there's rice.. haha.. mum'f off day.. guess what1 darling, i got fried rice for lunch.. hehez.. ya.. then went off for work.. today sold 30 bottles! wow! heehz.. got a regular big sized man bought 8 bottles! hehz.. if darling, see this, he muz be happy for me ritez? =P ya.. saw a few ple with hairstyle that looks like my darling.. kept thinking of him... when i felt vibrations, thought it might be you.. ah... but not.. nvm! juz hope my darling will be safe k! miss you................................ haha.. oko.. today saw a old chc friend.. davis.. ya.. exchanged phone nos. he requests, not me dear.. dun worry... hahah.. he msg me, but i didn't reply... hehzz.. okok.. reach home safe and sound.. almost wanted to msg my darling, but realize he's in field camp.. hoping and praying he is taking gd care of himself.. i love you dear.. 6 days and counting.....


NOTE:
to all insects who may be reading this,
dun bite my darling.. i treat you sweets.. yup!
thank you!

yup..im gg in le..see u in 14 daes dardar..meanwhile..juz a note..
"i love u"

yup..im no longer a cv..im a soilder..protectin singapore..learnin how to kill..ns lifecan be scripted in juz 1 word 'tired'..bad things..i begin to use vulgirities in camp..i'll change i promise..good things..i see a lot of things that non ns men will not see..its true.in ns u realli mature..u become a men..turned myself into a cold serious monster again..ther r fun times but they dun last..n time is the most precious gift of god..no..life..maybe when u r stuck in an island of training for 14 daes..u might understand..n yup im gg in for another 14 tomorowe..ther be field camp..no time no communication from dust to dawn..playin in the jungle..7 long long daes..all rite im in bravo coy..platoon 1 sec 2 bed 7..find me if u can..but i noe no-one can..in the army..u get tekang for weird reasons..maybe thats why someone lost his mind..maybe..
my coy got 2oo peeps i think i noe oni abt 80..my platoon has 50..we r close..my section 13..we r like real close..haha..lotz of memories on my 1st book out..cant forget bulu..super blur king..but one whom i utterly respect..coz he said this in a lecture in front of 200 men...i love my dad..hes my hero..it takes courage to sae this..n for that..i salute him..
trainin is tough but as a frend told me..tough trainin doesn't last, tough men does..everydae in camp i see sun rise i see sun set..glorious sight..wake at 4-5 sleep at 10-11...absolute no life..military trainin..but as i told her..i love the military worklife..but being a recuit..an nsf is totally diff..its duty..very tirin everydae..pillow's my best frend now..n yup i learnt to stand n sleep..try15hrs of trainin n 6-7 hrs of zzzz..try for 14 daes..even the most optimistic man would frown...
think im doin fine in my platton...noe most of the peeps..thru my hurry ups n knock it down..haha for the fun guyz...my section is damn funni peeps..by the motto 1st to eat 1st to book out last to fall in..we r the sabotagers..but trust us..we were always on the dot..
came out for some airforce stuff..ate charsiew rice its 2 bucks..but to me it was as though i have nvr eaten such stuff before..then got fried rice..on the 2nd small book out..the taste was great.. trust me all singaporeans..these r food that we find normal or take for granted..but these r the best food in my life..ns food is gd..rice 3 meat 1 veg 1 soup 1 fruit/jelly n 1 water..but its mass..its for many many people..it taste the same everydae...
im now gg treasure life even more..sinece time is not on my side..i look at those peeps studyin..pri..sec..poly..jc..i realli sincerly miss those daes..its when u lose someting..u begin to treasure..i lost the mainland feeling..seein hdb feels weird..seein cbd feels weird..seein people feels weird..seein my love ones feel weird..seein my room feels weird..seein her feels weird..
im beginnin to mature i guess..beginnin to understand god's most precious gift..life.
see all in another 16 daes time..mum,dad,sis...words cant sae how much i love u..dear..i promise to stay by ur side..juz like u have..in the most diff of times..
God bless all n take care..
".....when u only got a hundred years to live...."

darkling.. 5 more days.. juz now yes was a little saddened by your call.. was thinking why you dun wanna play truant.. but yup! you are right... how can play truant.. what if you get caught or something.. i should have been more sensible and not so selfish.. miss you... was juz thinking.. today uis w\quite a tiring day.. nice in the sense xia is there.. got a good friend to talk to.. very haappy! not so bored.. somehow can find her and chat... won't miss darling so much.. ya.. heard that darling uses vulgar language in camp.. a twitch of saddness engulfed me... thought he won't use... but ya.. he said its different in camp and outside.. maybe i am juz too fussy or narrow.. jzu wonder why he wants to use? think i should open up a bit more.. nothing wrong ritez? ya... darling soming out in a few days time.. haven finish my sewing.. think i gtg hurry le! yup! days pass and go quickly.. i won't have to miss him so much le.. i love you darling.. life is so listless without you.. 5days and counting...........

i miss yoou........

its been 5 days le... wow1 i miss my darling.. today is my off day, sitting here alone. going to do housework soon... house is so messy! how i wish he is here to help me.. hahah.. like the last time.. =) life withoout him now seems weird somehow... only can chat for a while.. but i know he has tried his best to lengthen to the max le.. =) love you baby... sill got to save batt.. and yup! he needs the zz.. been approving all his testimonies.. wondering whetehr he will be shocked? haha.. he juz secretly MSG!!!! woo........ so happy! =) =) =) he will be out on friday.. friday.. 21st.. another 10 days! so yes! he said he is getting fat, but darling, fat fat i dun mind... coz think i am fatter than you now! haha... as long as we are healthy.. a little fat is acceptable ya! nicer to huggy! =) coz its unhealthy when you get extremely fat... i gtg do houseork le.. then maybe cook lunch.. awe.. such a wifely dear ritez? haha.. 10 days and counting.......

my dearest darling.... i miss you... really do... i've promised to be yours le.. so yup! i will wait patiently for you.. and yes! you muz spend time with me whenever you come out k! be it juz 1,2,3 or many hours.. we muz meet! unless you dun miss me... hope you are zzing soundly now... i love you! you've added so much colours into my life! so much sweetness, so much joy, so much love, so much hope, so much so much... army is going to be tough.. i promise i will be understanding.. if you really can't spend time with me, i will wait ya.. and not nag.. coz i know you muz have tried your best to make time.. i promise to wait, so i will. and now that i felt so so belong to you.. our love muz have grown.. when things are tough, muz think of us k! and i am sure the tough will get going.. =) i miss you.. sitting here, knowing that your phone is off, cannot reach to you in any ways, think except thru our hearts.. coz its linked. i miss you... its 13 days and counting down..

dear..once more..i love u..bye

a special meal
wow dear..think what happened yesterdae will be in our minds for the rest of our lives..i promise u i will love u forever..i honestly will..but dear..u muz promise me to take care so that u can be mine when im back..n yes..i will be back..still remember"i feel so belonged to u"..dear..since our path have crossed..i prayed that u will be..me n my only wife..i love u..its not gd bye..dun cry..hush..take care.

waited all my life..

its official..3-4 more daes to nsf..2 yrs of ns life..dun realli noe what to xpect..currnetly restin n feelin nostalgic..lookin at my room..my books..my awards..touchin this n that..findin memories of the past..went to my sis room..dad n moms room..looks as though im takin my last look..wana go back to the past daes..it oni seem yesterdae that i mived into here..come to think abt it..its been 7-8 wonderful yrs..juz sat on the sofa n surveryed arnd..im not crazy but i juz wana relive some moments..mom was tellin me how i was naughty when small..yes im and still is..primary sch fun..sec sch muggin nerd..jc love n work..think i realli grew up..nsf..its not a job..its a duty...the feelin is very different..it realli feels like jail..juz heard westlife n boa..she doesn't look good..great song though..flyin without wings..think it spells out my life so much..lookin back i had my great moments..but i had down ones too..
guess my gal is workin hard now..realli cant bear to see her work so hard..but in s'pore..u have to work to survive..army callin me.. edgin closer to 2 yrs of DUTY.i noe i will be happi..sad..angry..learning..but its all part of a DUTY..n trust me its worst than sch..i wana mug..well saw kids gg sch..pri..sec..jc..unbeilivable..im seatin here..typin away.. s'pore is so peaceful on a norm workin cum schoolin dae..its beautiful.. 4 daes of rain n finalli SUN is out. thank god..dear..i love u.

wat a rainy dae

dear.its 3 jan 2005..i cant help but look at the wall coz thers a clock n time is tickin away..trust me i dun lke this kinda livin..coz i noe i be in ther for 2 yrs..if its a job..i dun mind..but dear..its more of discipline..more of a muz..miss u my baby..i love u..
wat a dae..so so so so so cold..my legs went wobbly n body shook..haha..those who noe me noe i cant tahan too much coldness..work at 730..very tired coz zz at abt 2 the nite be4..zhou msg..had to go..yeah quickly did my stuff..pack n left for bk batok..its adult fare le..happi for an instant.. but realise how costly public transport is..whole dae i spent 3.5dollars..yeah..saw our opponents..
they look strong haha..very big built..some nj some hcj..some dunno wher..we realli look puny..
haha..the rain was so heavy its crazy to play..crazy yes..im feelin a little stupid at how desperate we are..haha..then the jokes came.did u wear swimmin trunks..take team photo..play arcade izzit?lim kopi..haha we finalli got 13 players..n we found a fiel oni to see it being covered for prayers..oh no..had to walk for 15 more mins in heavy RAIN to reach a sch field..quite nice sch.. but very small field..
everyone got psyched up startin et,mw,hq,me,jf,dv,wj,yz,rz,jh,kt..very even start..but they were tactically n techinall very very sound..on a wet dae they play flank-crossin we play short pass..haha..quite funni..soon battle begin..dave n this nj9..haha e mr vulgairty exchange clash..then i slid in hard on him..yeah wanted to let them noe a "hard" presence..soon they drew blood..ball over my head..goal..we started to push..yeah..whole match was full of vulgarities.. nj9 was so lame..callin fouls here n ther..i hate gays..i hate him..yeah think whole game i give myself a 6/10..the field was uper soggy..not a field but a pool..can be blamed for 2 goals..but saved some grace with ball winnin tackles n counterattacks..went pass 5 players 2x and 6 players 1x..but passin off..ball stuck to waterlog pitch..i sincerly tried..so did my mates..we lost 6-2..they outclass us.i didnt feel gd..but as i said before the game "the score doesn't matter..its the way we played".n yup..my mates tried..thats the most impt...
enough of soccer..oh no..my dear!dear..i will never do that again k?i noe how it feels im sorry..gottoo run in rain again..got milk tea for her n left for boon lay..miss u so much juz wanted to see u for a while..then brought lunch n went h..ate n zz..so so so cold..
went out with fam at nite..lookin ahead..im gg miss them too..i realli do..n dear..i think u fully noe how much im missin u...love u.
may god protect u.

MY ns BOY....  

i'll wait for you......

darling i will wait for you always, pease have faith in us!
time is not running out, coz i know we will make time for each other..
and our LOVE will stay strong... remember i say i want to be mrs liew..
and i won't take care of myself if we aren't together......
but i will take care of myself when you are in NS.. juz like you do...
i love you always!
dun over exert yourself in NS k! i'll be hurt..
dun forget to take your meals k! i'll be hurt....
dun forget to always keep me in msg, i'll worry...
dun forget to focus during NS.. i'll worry..
dun forget to take good care, i'll worry...
dun forget that you are supposed to marry me, i'll wait for you.
i love you.

dar dar...yeah..im here again..had a beautiful dae...juz cant forget e way we walk down orchard.. yeah think e rowdy crowds muz have scared u..awe..didnt realise it would be that rowdy..woke up this morn..to wake u up..haha..1st jan endin soon..have a kind of sinkin feeling..time is runnin faster than me..wait for me..i love u..n dear..remember what i said last nite k..
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